I LET THE FUCKING DOG OUT TO STOP HER SHITTING IN THE HOUSE BUT SHE DOES IT ANYWAY. DOESN'T FUCKING MAKE A DIFFERENCE, SHE DOESN'T EVEN BOTHER TO GET MY ATTENTION FUCK THIS CUNT ASS SHITTY FUCK FACED DOG.
[QUOTE=Recurracy;50985892]Which is why you choose The King of Burgers.[/QUOTE]
The king sentenced me to the food poisoning that resulted in
[QUOTE=gk99;50985639]I missed my last ever band performance[/QUOTE]
So I'm not exactly planning on forgiving him any time soon.
Is it normal to get bitter when people look at you? I can just be going on a nice walk by myself but every now and then a guy will just stare me the fuck down like doesn't he have things to do I just don't even know
Went to college to enrol for my 2nd year of my course earlier today. Tried to connect to the college Wi-Fi and I'm met with "Your connection is not secure". I always get it when I go onto bus Wi-Fi but I can always bypass it by going onto a non-https link I have saved but on the college Wi-Fi I can't get past it regardless.
I blame Google Chrome for being my default mobile browser (because I have an Android)...
I don't believe in an afterlife, but it's goofy as shit when people say stuff like "omg heaven would be horrible, there would be nothing to do for an eternity!!!" I guess like-Earth-but-less-to-do wouldn't actually be "heaven" then..?
[QUOTE=xZippy;50986256]I don't believe in an afterlife, but it's goofy as shit when people say stuff like "omg heaven would be horrible, there would be nothing to do for an eternity!!!" I guess like-Earth-but-less-to-do wouldn't actually be "heaven" then..?[/QUOTE]
i saw goofy and was summoned
Anyway it's more an ideaology. Heaven for one person might be, say, a perfect holiday while for one person it might be not getting weird looks from people
In afterlife terms, it's usually a religion vs ideas thing and therefore a hassle to explain so fuck that
Why are some burger places horridly expensive? Like holy hell, a burger the size of one you get from mcdonalds from a 5 star local place should NOT cost $10+, nevermind the $3 drink. It was a good burger, but these prices are atrocious.
[QUOTE=Sombrero;50986515]Why are some burger places horridly expensive? Like holy hell, a burger the size of one you get from mcdonalds from a 5 star local place should NOT cost $10+, nevermind the $3 drink. It was a good burger, but these prices are atrocious.[/QUOTE]
The fuck? Was there golden ores in the meat or something? Jeez.
On another note, the conceot of hitting on people makes me feel meh too.
stop buttons in express buses are barely reachable
[T]https://i.imgur.com/k86PXI9.jpg[/T]
[QUOTE=gk99;50984460]I can't find a model editor that's as simple and easy to use as Milkshape with more features and ease of access.
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Like, all I'm trying to do is make some super simple models that are purposely low-poly and look like they're from the early 90s. I don't need some massive Adobe creative suite-tier toolkit, I just want simple features like placing cameras and a better way to do animations.
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[img]http://i.imgur.com/zG9SC2T.png[/img]
This is the level of shit I'm trying to do.
[sp]It's also unfinished, it's not some deformed egg with legs, though I might make that later. It'd fit with what I'm making the models for. It's going to be a gorilla-shaped demon that looks like it's out of Quake.[/sp][/QUOTE]
I know it sounds fuck-all crazy, and it is, but I enjoy using Google Sketchup for [url=http://i.imgur.com/z5OLDRq.png]my shit[/url] (not the best example & not my character obv, I'm a lot better at it now, but its the first thing I ever modeled SOLELY in sketchup for assembly elsewhere), but there's no functionality for rigging or texturing whatsoever, and I have to use other programs to achieve anything beyond the geometry itself.
As crazy as it is though, I've found it to be very easy to get a hang of if you're wanting to make lower poly things for the most part.
[QUOTE=alpha00zero;50982430]Welp, I cannot draw at all tonight.
Not even my own characters. After all the crap today, I thought drawing would help but I guess I'm not in the right mindset.
It sucks.[/QUOTE]
Pretty sure I've completely forgotten how to draw lately. All I can get are horrible, unfixable sketches that will never see the light of day.
My great uncle has acute myelogenous leukemia. With chemo he might have 2-3 years to live.
Fuck cancer.
Nothing like spending some time making my CV look sexy as all hell in Google Docs only for the formatting to COMPLETELY fuck itself up when I download it as anything.
This problem isn't helped by the fact that I had a Microsoft Office license but lost it when my hard drive fucked up a month or two ago, so I have to use WordPad instead of Word. It isn't aligning things consistently and I don't understand what it's problem is.
[QUOTE=Sombrero;50986515]Why are some burger places horridly expensive? Like holy hell, a burger the size of one you get from mcdonalds from a 5 star local place should NOT cost $10+, nevermind the $3 drink. It was a good burger, but these prices are atrocious.[/QUOTE]
I know of a burger place where the burgers are bigger than the average adult's face, and charge an entire bank worth just for one. They don't sell burgers smaller than that just because.
To my knowledge, most of the professors at my community college use personalized pages from the district website for basic shit like providing assignments (including online quizzes), syllabuses, grades and other documents and showing you your grades. Students who also have their own personalized pages (just about every student) can view those pages. Not sure what the proper term for that is, but hopefully you know what I'm referring to.
I found out that my PreCalculus teacher, however, has a personalized page that's almost empty save for links to his MyMathLab page over at at the Pearson website, which is where he actually covers resources like homework, quizzes, and probably grades. It's got some extra fancy features, but also the essential features that he appears to only use on that website, including turning in virtual homework and quizzes.
Apparently, you can temporarily use MyMathLab for a couple weeks for free, so I can still actually do my school work in the meantime, but you’ll eventually need to either get an access code from a textbook or pay up. I wasn’t sure whether he intends to give out the access code(s) or if we were supposed to spend more money on using an extra webpage that served nearly the same purpose as the webpages that we could already use free of charge from the district website. He didn't send us a code through email, but I figured that he was probably going to send it to us at some point. I had a hard time understanding him due to how he talks + my bad hearing, and I was reluctant in asking him since he probably already talked about this in depth and I didn’t want to make a fool out of myself, especially since I wasn't sure if I was being too entitled or not about having access to the page.
Regardless, I decided to ask him about whether we were going to need to eventually pay for his MyMathLab page (Without directly asking about whether he was going to post the access code or not, assuming that he was going to talk about that if that were the case. This was probably a mistake). His response was pretty much “Obviously, yeah”, and I didn’t hear him mention any intention of posting the access code.
Assuming that I heard him correctly this time, do you guys think I should be upset about this or am I acting too entitled?
[QUOTE=Skerion;50987085]To my knowledge, most of the professors at my community college use personalized pages from the district website for basic shit like providing assignments (including online quizzes), syllabuses, grades and other documents and showing you your grades. Students who also have their own personalized pages (just about every student) can view those pages. Not sure what the proper term for that is, but hopefully you know what I'm referring to.
I found out that my PreCalculus teacher, however, has a personalized page that's almost empty save for links to his MyMathLab page over at at the Pearson website, which is where he actually covers resources like homework, quizzes, and probably grades. It's got some extra fancy features, but also the essential features that he appears to only use on that website, including turning in virtual homework and quizzes.
Apparently, you can temporarily use MyMathLab for a couple weeks for free, so I can still actually do my school work in the meantime, but you’ll eventually need to either get an access code from a textbook or pay up. I wasn’t sure whether he intends to give out the access code(s) or if we were supposed to spend more money on using an extra webpage that served nearly the same purpose as the webpages that we could already use free of charge from the district website. He didn't send us a code through email, but I figured that he was probably going to send it to us at some point. I had a hard time understanding him due to how he talks + my bad hearing, and I was reluctant in asking him since he probably already talked about this in depth and I didn’t want to make a fool out of myself, especially since I wasn't sure if I was being too entitled or not about having access to the page.
Regardless, I decided to ask him about whether we were going to need to eventually pay for his MyMathLab page (Without directly asking about whether he was going to post the access code or not, assuming that he was going to talk about that if that were the case. This was probably a mistake). His response was pretty much “Obviously, yeah”, and I didn’t hear him mention any intention of posting the access code.
Assuming that I heard him correctly this time, do you guys think I should be upset about this or am I acting too entitled?[/QUOTE]
this is the norm, at least in my experience at a public college in america.
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
i've taken lots of STEM classes that require you to pay for a service that offers homework assignments like Sapling Learning or McGraw-Hill Connect. pretty sure i had mymathlab for my pre-calc class as well.
[QUOTE=Swiket;50987222]this is the norm, at least in my experience at a public college in america.
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
i've taken lots of STEM classes that require you to pay for a homework service like Sapling Learning or McGraw-Hill Connect. pretty sure i had mymathlab for my pre-calc class as well.[/QUOTE]
I've had myprogramminglab, mymathlab, Connect, and a bunch of shitty "this is the only way to get the textbook" services.
I've had Hawkes, it cost me $80 to get a serial code to use the damn thing.
Why can't math be taught in, you know, a fucking classroom?
I remember a math program we had to use for a class. The professor literally didn't teach us anything, the online portion taught us everything and she was just there for us to ask questions. Despite this we were required to have a certain amount of time in the lab. So basically I had to come out to the university to use a computer for 3 hours a week for literally no reason.
Girlfriend might be going to China for a 9 month internship next year
Not ready for that
on wednesday I had a small breakdown that's just discouraged me from doing anything productive at all
I have this sort of workaholism that I think I've mentioned before elsewhere and not doing anything makes me feel a little more upset
since I'm already kinda talking about it,
I [I]really[/I] wish I could entirely stop caring about my [url=https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gender_dysphoria]dysphoria[/url] since it's really why I'm depressed to begin with
I just can't, since it's subconscious
[QUOTE=Recurracy;50985892]Which is why you choose The King of Burgers.
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
i wanna fucking quit this shit but im not sure if i can even take another 6 months of this crap
on the other hand it is JUST 6 months...
dammit, i really set my mind to quitting while i still could
im driving myself fucking insane jesus christ
i called like the councellor from my old school who has lots of knowhow of almost everything related to school and shit and she told me that if i stuck through this crap for 6 months id be able to open more chances but i dont fucking know man IM SCREAMING INTERNALLY
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
IF I GO BACK THERE I RISK GETTING EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED 5 OF 7 DAYS FOR 6 MONTHS STRAIGHT AND HAVE TO ACT LIKE SOMEONE I AM NOT
IF I QUIT NOW ILL LOSE THAT OPPERTUNITY BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT THAT OPPERUNITY IS WORTH SO IM RISKING SHAVING 20 YEARS OFF MY LIFE DUE TO STRESS ATTEMPTING TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT ILL GAIN BY PERSUING THIS SHIT
MAYBE I JUST DONT HAVE IT FUCKING IN ME GOD FUCKING DAMNIT WHAT THE FUCK DO I FUCKING DO AAARRRRGHGHGGHGH
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for the record im put into an alternative route so to speak where i have to discover for myself what skills i want to improve on and i need to make indepth reports on what i have done to reach my goal and what i plan on doing next week every fucking friday and it has to be SUPER indepth like
I dont even FUCKING KNOW
I IUST EANT TO MAKE FUCKING PROGRAKS
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
THIS IS NOT FUCKING WORTH THE HEADACHES AND NAUSEA IM GETTING JUST THINKING ABOUT THIS NONSENSE
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
WHY THE FUCK CAN A PERSON WITH ASSBURGRRS, ME, LISTEN TO OTHER PEOPELS FUCKING SHIT ASS PROBLRMS AND MANAGE TO MAKE THEM FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES BUT WHEN I ASK FOR ONE FUCKING MINJTE FOR SOMEONE ELZE TO DO THE FUCKING SAME IM PUTTING YMSELF IN A SUPPOSE DVICTIM ROLS SHIT WELL FICK YOU TOO YOU FUCKING JACKASSES
AND PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT I AK INCAPABLE OF UNDERSTANDING THE EMOTIONS OF OTHERS BECAUSE OF THIS FUCKING DIAGNOSIS I GOT WELL KT SEEMS LIKR THE REST OF THE FUCKING WORLD IS INCAPABLE TO UNDERETAND WHY TOO KUCH IT STOO MUC H BECAUSE THEY OBLY FUCKING CARE ABOUT THEIR FOWN FAT FUCKINEAD AJD THEIR OWN FUCKING WALLTS AND ALL THAT SHIT BUT THE MOMRNT I DARE ASK FOR SOME FUCKING COMPASSION, UNDERSTANDING AND GENERALLY JUST ONE, NOT EVEN TWO, NO SIR, EXACTLY ONEEEEEE FUCKIIIIING MINUUUUUUTE I AM INCAPABLE OF FUNCTIONINT AND I AM INCAPABLE OF BEING RESPONSIBLE AND I AM FJLL OF FUCKING SELF PITY AND I PUT MYSELF IJ A CONSTANT FUCKING VICTIVICTIM ROLE HUH WELL FUUUUUUUUCK IIIIIIIIIIT AAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLG H
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
looks like im gonna be paralysed from the pelvis down again because im sitting on the damn toileet for too long
fuck my head is fucking pounding
[editline]1st September 2016[/editline]
THIS SOCIETY IS OND BIG GAPING ASSHOLE AND IT PRODUCES NOTHING BUT VILE LIQUID SHIT[/QUOTE]
This is just fucking sad.
Like, how long has this been going on now? 6 months? 12? I've lost count.
Nobody here is even responding to your posts anymore, all people do is rate friendly and move on. Because they don't really see a way to help you, and how could they really? This is a forum about GMod, Video games, and a political subforum where people get way too heated over trivial topics, among others. They barely even know you.
But I know there is a way to help you go on, and it's not going to be easy. But for the record - rambling shitposts like this won't get you any further.
And I'm not kidding when I'm saying it's honestly really sad to watch. Because I love playing those old DOS games like Duke Nukem 3D, Blood, Quake etc. in co-op with you, and you're a great guy to chat with on Steam.
But it's really painful to see you wasting away at home playing nothing but Metastruct for months on end, and then see you having so much trouble at school, with seemingly no aim, no motivation and no hope for the future.
Because this state you're in affects everything else negatively as well, most importantly in the way you interact with others.
And if it just keeps going like this, I just can't imagine a pretty end to it. That's an outcome literally nobody wants to see.
Now, to give you a starting point for your troubles with school:
First off, I can't exactly say I know what they demand from you since the way your school works seems very alien to me.
However, the way I know you, a curriculum where you have to set your own goals and topics doesn't really sound like something you'd enjoy very much. I'd say you'd do much better with a fixed curriculum set by the school itself - but then again, I have no idea if it's even possible for you to switch to a different school now, or what your opportunities at this point are if you just left.
The alternative, and that's if there really is no other way to go, would be for you to stick to it, pull it through, and then hence have better opportunities afterwards with whatever degree you receive. Do your absolute best (and I know you can do well) and spend less time, MUCH less time on Steam playing games, or on Facepunch posting about whatever. BUT - and this is a big BUT - you shouldn't have to do it all alone.
What you absolutely need is help from someone else - and I'm NOT talking about psychological help or anything like that from a therapist. Because I know you've already been to one, and this current problem has very little to do with anything regarding mental health.
What you need is someone, be it your parents, your brother, your best friend - ANYONE, to regularly give you a kick in the ass, look after you and help you decide, help you motivate and help you get through the college. And it's absolutely not something to be ashamed of, I have needed help from my father plenty of times in the past in situations very similar to yours regarding difficult choices, and every time things seemed hopeless to me, he was able to get me back on the right track.
Oh, and I do mean "kick in the ass" quite literally, since sometimes you really desperately need somebody to talk some sense into you quite brutally. Hugging things away doesn't work in most cases.
Like with most things, you will need to make the beginning yourself, so ask the aforementioned people for help since you have trouble deciding on what to do now. Running away from the problem only postpones it and increases it in size, so it's best for you to still show up at that school until you make your decision. And I'd suggest you'd try and find the decision rather quickly instead of waiting until the problem has grown even more.
I really want things for you to improve, and to see you finally get out of this endless downward spiral. And of course, I know you want to get out of it too. Otherwise, who am I going to play the new Duke Nukem 3D episode with?? :v:
I hope this post helped you in some way, but I kind of feel like it's hard to really convey a message like this properly over the internet. Feel free to send me a message over Steam if you feel like discussing this some more.
It's the least I could do.
Is there a term for when your lips feel like they are on fire?
Anyway, I have that, all the time, and no amount of lip balm can fix it.
[QUOTE=DEMONSKUL;50988927]Is there a term for when your lips feel like they are on fire?
Anyway, I have that, all the time, and no amount of lip balm can fix it.[/QUOTE]
Dehydrated/chapped lips are the fuckin worst
My Glasses Fucking broke. FUCK MY LIFE.
Why the hell cant I draw correctly EVEN if I use a goddamn ruler.
So for my metal engineering, I need to draw some lines n stuff on a metal plate so I know where to cut etc. But the thing that really pisses me off is that I draw the line, and then measure it. The first part of the line is okay, but then all the way to the end it's gonna differ like 2MM. And it's extremely hard to tell whether you drawn a straight line or not on metal. Drawing really isn't my thing.
Why do people assume every call center is in India?
I just had this crazy racist lady on the phone who wouldn't fucking let me talk to let her know what I need from her so that I could you know, do my job, and she just kept going "Where are you? India, Pakistan, I can't understand you you brownie"
I'm a state over from where she is, I'm super fucking white, and I have probably the most neutral accent you could ever find, especially considering I'm from god damn Oklahoma.
[t]http://i.imgur.com/Daqd4jy.png[/t]
[QUOTE=FlakTheMighty;50989746]Why do people assume every call center is in India?
I just had this crazy racist lady on the phone who wouldn't fucking let me talk to let her know what I need from her so that I could you know, do my job, and she just kept going "Where are you? India, Pakistan, I can't understand you you brownie"
I'm a state over from where she is, I'm super fucking white, and I have probably the most neutral accent you could ever find, especially considering I'm from god damn Oklahoma.
[t]http://i.imgur.com/Daqd4jy.png[/t][/QUOTE]
Well, where I work, we take only calls from France and Quebec, so all english calls are directed to india so.....
They're cheap (and bad) so yeah
See the issue is I speak (mostly) flawless English because you know, I was born here?
I spoke better than she did for fucks sake.
Also the accent thing.
idgi
I totally get you
Once I was answering a Chinese customer who had the thickest accent ever, so of course I had trouble understanding what the fuck he was blabbering about.
After a lot of repeating and not getting what he was saying (he wan't even saying complete sentences at that point) he had the audacity to ask me "Can I speak to english speaking person please?"
I answered "I am speaking english......"
Like really you fucking dick? English is not even my main language and I can speak it more fluently than you!
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