What Are You Thinking? v. Who Cares Thread Will Be Over In ...1 - General

[QUOTE=Pascall;48355769]self esteem levels are just low today and idk why. i have these feelings of "im about to be 24 and am still struggling to pay a 240 dollar a month bill" more frequently these days just starts to grate on me and make me feel like I just wanna give up[/QUOTE] [media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE[/media] :) [editline]2nd August 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=gaminji;48355779][video=youtube;KxGRhd_iWuE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE[/video][/QUOTE] fUCK

[img]http://i.imgur.com/dYhP1r8.gif[/img] Accurate representation of what it's like reading through hundreds of new WAYT posts

[QUOTE=Limed00d;48355772]remember rock su who wanted everyone to hate him lol[/QUOTE] he was really fruity I tried really hard to find something to like about him but he genuinely was pretty fucked up

[video=youtube;tYzMYcUty6s]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYzMYcUty6s[/video]

[QUOTE=Kurahk;48355794][img]http://i.imgur.com/dYhP1r8.gif[/img] Accurate representation of what it's like reading through hundreds of new WAYT posts[/QUOTE] is this pepperoni goaste

My mother won't stop bringing up something from over a month ago. Someone in the family said something shitty to her and every day afterwards she's been yelling up and down the halls and crying over it.

[QUOTE=Pascall;48355753]hi im here i feel like trash today[/QUOTE] I also feel like trash can we be trash buddies

[QUOTE=HWECQI;48355798]he was really fruity I tried really hard to find something to like about him but he genuinely was pretty fucked up[/QUOTE] I tried to be neutral, but when he posted about hitting his sister, that was far enough for me, he needs to unfuck himself with that and a number of other things

[QUOTE=Limed00d;48355799][video=youtube;tYzMYcUty6s]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYzMYcUty6s[/video][/QUOTE] yo hit me up with a link to that song fam

real talk tho what is the point of benzocaine if it only lasts 20 whole minutes i mean it is sweet sweet relief but it's p much not worth the initial pain

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It's a nice feeling to stand in the shower and let the water hit the back of your neck. Dunno why, but it feels good.

[img]http://i.imgur.com/eCS54vy.png[/img] GOD FUCKING DAMN IT

[QUOTE=kijji;48355783]My self-esteem is shitty and I feel I have no purpose and shit, yet I keep waking up everyday why[/QUOTE] cuz theres still reasons to live despite that? You need to not be as hard on yourself honestly You'll find purpose eventually, finding that takes time

I just need to get through school but it's so hard trying to balance work, school, and my mental health which takes a drastic nosedive if I overload myself with stuff I won't graduate with my bachelors til like 2018 at the earliest at the rate I'm going and it seems like it's so late like I know so many people who are married and having kids and have places to live and I'm still in my bedroom at my parents house struggling to make enough money to buy myself a computer chair that isn't flaking fake leather bits all over my carpet while simultaneously spending colossal amounts of money to take care of both my turtle and my dog because I love them but they're so expensive idk I just feel like all the expectations that my parents put on me when I was like 8 have carried over and I've done nothing to make them proud. They barely paid attention when I graduated with my associates from community college. I have to shove my small accomplishments at them for them to take any notice at all. they have zero interest in learning about the things I do and love. Have always taken ten times more stock in my sisters life than mine on the grounds that "well we know you'll be very successful some day so we don't worry about you" but it's like I WANT THEM to worry about me if it means I don't have to celebrate my small accomplishments on my own Aaaaaa I have a lot of issues with validation that I've repressed for years and continue to do so because they don't seem like they care or maybe I'm just being a baby. Who knows!!!!!!!

[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;48355841]real talk tho what is the point of benzocaine if it only lasts 20 whole minutes i mean it is sweet sweet relief but it's p much not worth the initial pain[/QUOTE] Its a fairly short-acting drug and takes a bit to get off the ground, so you'll need to refresh constantly if you dont want to deal with the pain

[QUOTE=Pascall;48355769]self esteem levels are just low today and idk why. i have these feelings of "im about to be 24 and am still struggling to pay a 240 dollar a month bill" more frequently these days just starts to grate on me and make me feel like I just wanna give up[/QUOTE] Don't give up, you're the raddest dragon that's ever been a dragon and you are FIERCE world's gonna be your bitch eventually as you breathe fire and make people feel weird in their pants

[QUOTE=HWECQI;48355867]cuz theres still reasons to live despite that? You need to not be as hard on yourself honestly You'll find purpose eventually, finding that takes time[/QUOTE] Yeah, you're right. I wish I could get out and explore the world for like a year, I heard people who do that find their meaning after a while plus I'd just wanna travel :v:

[QUOTE=gaminji;48355831]yo hit me up with a link to that song fam[/QUOTE] [media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_oyxqId7ps[/media] That specific part starts at 1:06

I know i am a clown but There's no one I dislike here you are all nice

This video is my drug. [video=youtube;xKR4FAg1imc]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKR4FAg1imc[/video]

[QUOTE=kijji;48355783]My self-esteem is shitty and I feel I have no purpose and shit, yet I keep waking up everyday why[/QUOTE] Everyone in this thread has a little bit of Kanye in them, I know it. That's how I live my life at least. No matter how bad of a situation I'm in at that moment, no matter how I feel about myself (that I'm weak, that I'm mostly inside through all my days doing nothing but playing video games.) When I go out I don't let anyone fuck with me, no matter who they are. It's your life, not there's. And if you have low self esteem, then pretend you don't. I did that until I built myself up. Honestly this may sound cheesy as hell but it worked for me. No one should feel bad about themself.

So wait a sec Who was the diddler in the end? Do we know yet?

I feel like garbage now that I'm up and about. Feeling tired, irritable and hungry.

[QUOTE=Zonesylvania;48355872]Its a fairly short-acting drug and takes a bit to get off the ground, so you'll need to refresh constantly if you dont want to deal with the pain[/QUOTE] i figured the bottle saying "use up to 4 times daily" meant that it should last a little more than that but i dunno it's starting to let up anyway i think finally so it doesn't matter much

[QUOTE=Pascall;48355870]I just need to get through school but it's so hard trying to balance work, school, and my mental health which takes a drastic nosedive if I overload myself with stuff I won't graduate with my bachelors til like 2018 at the earliest at the rate I'm going and it seems like it's so late like I know so many people who are married and having kids and have places to live and I'm still in my bedroom at my parents house struggling to make enough money to buy myself a computer chair that isn't flaking fake leather bits all over my carpet while simultaneously spending colossal amounts of money to take care of both my turtle and my dog because I love them but they're so expensive idk I just feel like all the expectations that my parents put on me when I was like 8 have carried over and I've done nothing to make them proud. They barely paid attention when I graduated with my associates from community college. I have to shove my small accomplishments at them for them to take any notice at all. they have zero interest in learning about the things I do and love. Have always taken ten times more stock in my sisters life than mine on the grounds that "well we know you'll be very successful some day so we don't worry about you" but it's like I WANT THEM to worry about me if it means I don't have to celebrate my small accomplishments on my own Aaaaaa I have a lot of issues with validation that I've repressed for years and continue to do so because they don't seem like they care or maybe I'm just being a baby. Who knows!!!!!!![/QUOTE] You're not being a baby, that's a legitimate thing to be sad about when you're surrounded by contemporaries who seem to be living that american dream life that everyone expects to have. You have to remember though that your life is your own and your journey doesn't have to look like everyone else's. Take your time, graduate when you're able to, and be persistent. You'll do a lot of things to make a lot of people proud, though if I'm honest I think there's a lot of things to be proud of about yourself at the moment, everything from how kind and funny you can be to how skilled you are at art and how you keep working to keep yourself afloat instead of just bumming off other people. You're a hero, Pascall.

[QUOTE=ZnT00;48355903]So wait a sec Who was the diddler in the end? Do we know yet?[/QUOTE] nope :)))

Don't feel bad guys, you are all awesome people!!!

[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;48355907]i figured the bottle saying "use up to 4 times daily" meant that it should last a little more than that but i dunno it's starting to let up anyway i think finally so it doesn't matter much[/QUOTE] The use limit and the pharmacology are usually at odds with each other. There's an upper limit to how much of a drug your body can safely handle on average, the short acting stuff doesn't have much in the way of side effects for the most part but its still recommended to stick to the dosages on the drug's packaging/the no. of times your GP said you should use it.

Staying hydrated, eating properly and sleeping properly has worked wonders for my mood & health. If you feel like shit all the time theres probably a reason for it. find it and change it.