so, this is gonna sound insanely stupid/autistic.
But im afraid of relationships (romantically)
Most people have issue with talking to girls or just not being awkward/getting tongue tied.
I have a issue with just the general idea of asking someone out (no not on a date, but as in a relationship)
Idk, maybe im just afraid of the idea of love/infatuation cause my father abandoned me basically.
what are you afraid of then?
Up to you, I guess, to determine if that "nothing" is worth pursuing then.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27493392]Up to you, I guess, to determine if that "nothing" is worth pursuing then.[/QUOTE]
In the end it really isn't.
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27493373]What's wrong with shoving penis down children throats?[/QUOTE]
It bruises them, causing strep infections to take hold.
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27493373]What's wrong with shoving penis down children throats?[/QUOTE]
you are such a bad poster
boxes boxes boxes everywhere and nothing to put in them.
[QUOTE=Makol;27493403]In the end it really isn't.[/QUOTE]
Then it's not worth losing sleep or worrying over, really.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27493428]Then it's not worth losing sleep or worrying over, really.[/QUOTE]
What about the other one? Just wait and see? I literally have no idea what things are like on the end.
[QUOTE=Makol;27493437]What about the other one? Just wait and see? I literally have no idea what things are like on the end.[/QUOTE]
That's really all you can do for a situation like that. I'm not sure what other option there would be.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;27493377]so, this is gonna sound insanely stupid/autistic.
But im afraid of relationships (romantically)
Most people have issue with talking to girls or just not being awkward/getting tongue tied.
I have a issue with just the general idea of asking someone out (no not on a date, but as in a relationship)
Idk, maybe im just afraid of the idea of love/infatuation cause my father abandoned me basically.[/QUOTE]
A lot of people are afraid of relationships, you aren't alone. I'm sure if you found someone you liked enough you would change your mind on that.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27493464]That's really all you can do for a situation like that. I'm not sure what other option there would be.[/QUOTE]
Here's the thing. If it's just a crush or something then it'd good to figure out sooner or later since then I can just push that interest to the back of my head and keep being just friends with that person, but if it's something that the other person is willing to wait and see what happens then I'd wait it out too.
[QUOTE=Makol;27493511]Here's the thing. If it's just a crush or something then it'd good to figure out sooner or later since then I can just push that interest to the back of my head and keep being just friends with that person, but if it's something that the other person is willing to wait and see what happens then I'd wait it out too.[/QUOTE]
If the other person says they like you back, I would assume that they're interested in waiting and seeing what'll happen too. It'd be kind of dumb not to. It's not like they're gonna get bored and be like "eff this, I'm not waiting" lol.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27493534]If the other person says they like you back, I would assume that they're interested in waiting and seeing what'll happen too. It'd be kind of dumb not to. It's not like they're gonna get bored and be like "eff this, I'm not waiting" lol.[/QUOTE]
Can never know what people are thinking or what they will do. And it's hard to tell these things when someone is telling you things that are confusing or misleading.
Hey y'all I'm new to this thread and I'm not just looking for sympathy cause I hate it when I feel like people go out of their way for me. but anyway, I've been rather depressed and anxious the past 8 months or so. Basically back in may I was smoking weed on weekends, and then I decided to drink one night, which ended up in some kind of psychotic episode or panic attack. I told my parents about the all the shit.
But fast forward a lot I've lost all of my old friends because my parents don't want me to hang out with them or they just went away. I feel pretty lonely all the time. I know I have become way to self conscious and very very hard on myself. I think way too much about most things. I don't know what to do sometimes because it feels like it'll just go bad again once it gets good.
I know deep down I probably don't believe anyone wants to talk to me or hear what I have to say. I haven't had a conversation where I felt like the other person wanted to talk to me in I don't know, a year? Urghh I'm writing a lot. Im sorry I'm just sort of venting here.
A few days ago I was really tired walking the halls and I was stumbling a bit. I accidently ran into a girl and fell down. I kinda pull down her shirt too then ran away before she could say anything.
Hey, me again. Yea... I fucked up again.
Some of you might remember [url=http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1023314-The-get-stuff-off-of-your-chest-thread.?p=25886951&viewfull=1#post25886951]this[/url]. It felt good to get it off my chest, and here I am again, pouring my mind out to complete strangers.
Alright, so.. where to start? Well, the gist of it is that I kinda like this girl, but there's a lot of factors...
About... 2 years ago, I started talking to this goth chick (I got a thing for goths, no idea what, but something about them.). I met her back in middle school (not a goth then), hadn't seen her for a few years until then, started talking to her again. So me and her, quick hello here and there, a chat every now and then to remain friendly. One day she comes up to me, and asks if we could talk in private. I say sure, I'm always here to help. She tells me things haven't been so good between her and her family. Typical "Life sucks so hard right now, fuck this shit, I hate my parents, etc.". Wanted to commit suicide. After a little talking to her, a little cheering up with some of that "Elizer (in real life) charm", I turned her day around. Didn't have a single frown that day. She hugged me as hard as she could and whispered thank you, behind heading off to class. I felt great that day, although a rainy, shitty day outside.
So, fast forward a year. Ends up, coincidentally, we're in the same Creative Writing class. This only furthers our friendship (complete with good days, bad days, days that we wanted to kill each other, days that each wanted us to cry, days where I comforted her, days she helped me improve my skills as a writer, etc.) It was turning out that I started to develop feelings for her subconsciously, and that it showed maybe we could work it out if we tried.
I'm mentally unsure about the next bit, I've never had any real experience is deciphering a chick's body language and catching subtle hints. So, one night, out with a group of friends, we were walking around a mall when I noticed (for the story's sake, I'll refer to her as Jen now, not her real name) Jen. I told my friends I'd catch up and went to go talk with Jen. Jen ended up getting blown off by some friends, and was alone with only her friend. Jen said she was gonna call me, and ask if I wanted to hang out. I felt bad about that. I told her I was unfortunately already with some other people, but I'd make it up to her somehow. She said she understood, gave another hug and I walked away saying my goodbyes.
Fast forward another few months to the Spring. On my way to a party with a friend, I notice her walking down the road home. I offer her a ride home, and drop her off. I walk up to the door and say goodbye. She lingers for a bit before saying goodbye as well. I go to the party and don't think about it, until a few months ago. During the rest of the school year and the summer, I keep in touch frequently with a text chat here and there.
I'm in college now, she's still in high school, so for us to see each other is hard. I managed to arrange us hanging out. We hung out with another friend of Jen's (a dude, didn't date him) and I noticed she started cuddling up to me when we sat together. When I drove her home, I asked Jen (with all my confidence) if we would ever make it as a couple. After a hesistation, she admitted she didn't know.
This left me with that false hope that maybe she could work, maybe I would finally have a shot at a real relationship. I managed to ask Jen if she wanted to go to dinner one night, Jen agreed. We went back to my house afterwards. That night was very revealing in the most part. We each found out what the other liked, non-sexually and sexually. We cuddled some more, but never kissed. "Why not?" you might ask. Because she was already in a relationship. Not with a dude, but with a chick.
Yes, I was trying to romance a lesbian. However, she's not lesbian, as the story so far has evidenced. She's bisexual, still tricky when she currently is dating a lesbian though. She's already cheated on her once with a dude. It took her a month just to convince her partner that she still loved her. My nature is to never intervene in a relationship, no matter how I feel or what is going on with the relationship. I stay neutral and wish the relationship good luck.
We hang out a few more times where Jen meets my parents and we advance the relationship a little further, to the point where you could ask someone out. However, we get to the past few weeks. I've been stuck in my house for the past week thanks to snow and having very little spending money. Also, we've been busy between the both of us. The one day we do hang out, it was with her sister and I managed to show how much of an idiot I am. I nearly killed the chance before reconciling with her, apologizing about my behavior. Jen says she understands and accepts my apology.
Today, however, I managed to fuck up royally. The night before, I asked if her and a mutual friend between us wanted to hang out. No intentions of wooing her, just me wanting to get the hell out of the house. I get no response from the friend, but I do from Kim. Apparently, her and the mutual friend arranged to do something tomorrow (today). I said it was extreme coincidence that this happened. I text the friend if we all could hang out. No response. I drop it since I don't want to butt into other people's plans without being asked to join. Fast forward to the afternoon (morning for me, I get up at 11 or 12 each day.), I text the friend again, no response.
I hop on Facebook and notice she's on. I wish Jen that she has a good time with our friend. Jen says thanks, but he hasn't been responding to her texts either and has been waiting for him to get on to see what's up. Later in the afternoon, I get a text from her asking if I still had cabin fever (I mentioned this to her in the earlier conversation. I reply "Yes, why?" She says she doesn't know. I ask if our friend contacted her yet and Jen says no. Apparently, the friend left his phone at his friend's house, it died, then got roped into doing laundry duty. On top of that, his car has no gas anyway (wut). She's now pissed that she showered for nothing, got "blown off again" and is now home yet again. I text her "Fuck it, call him, and we'll all go do something together."
This only makes her angrier, with her threatening to block my number. I ease off, with me now feeling like shit before it evolves into anger. A few hours after this, she's on Facebook. She messages me (something I can't remember) and I say "Well, thanks for making me feel like shit as well". She says whatever and there's a long silence.
So then says for me to stop texting her. I say that I haven't texted her in 45 minutes and I've been on (Facebook) the entire time. She then says that she's been getting a bunch of texts from me like it's spam. I tell her her phone sucks and that I knew someone else whose phone acted like that. This eases the tension a little. I then message her that someone needs to cheer her up. She replies she doesn't need to be cheered up, but that she's pissed at society because "she doesn't want to hang out, she wants to dress like a punk, go to a riot or a concert." I say there's a concert I'd like to go to. She equates "Dressing up like a punk != going to a concert". I say, "but it's a concert though." She then rants how she's pissed at friends and family for "blurring the line" (what exactly that line is, I don't know). I say "vent a little at me". She really doesn't, but continues about being angry at her family. At this point, I can't remember anymore.
So, that's it basically. I don't know how to to summarize it. It's complicated I guess. That would be the tl;dr. "It's complicated". Thanks for reading this all, I just needed to get this out.
I have 2 iPods. One for porn and one for misc. The porn one is like 32G and is almost full, and one with other stuff is fucked up so badly for no reason.
What do?
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27494141]I have 2 iPods. One for porn and one for misc. The porn one is like 32G and is almost full, and one with other stuff is fucked up so badly for no reason.
What do?[/QUOTE]
stop posting
[QUOTE=Octave;27493602]Hey y'all I'm new to this thread and I'm not just looking for sympathy cause I hate it when I feel like people go out of their way for me. but anyway, I've been rather depressed and anxious the past 8 months or so. Basically back in may I was smoking weed on weekends, and then I decided to drink one night, which ended up in some kind of psychotic episode or panic attack. I told my parents about the all the shit.
But fast forward a lot I've lost all of my old friends because my parents don't want me to hang out with them or they just went away. I feel pretty lonely all the time. I know I have become way to self conscious and very very hard on myself. I think way too much about most things. I don't know what to do sometimes because it feels like it'll just go bad again once it gets good.
I know deep down I probably don't believe anyone wants to talk to me or hear what I have to say. I haven't had a conversation where I felt like the other person wanted to talk to me in I don't know, a year? Urghh I'm writing a lot. Im sorry I'm just sort of venting here.[/QUOTE]
I'll listen any time you want. I've had an incident when i got high for the first time i was also very drunk and the fire alarm in my apt went off. I literally felt like i was going to die and had a huge panic attack too. Shit's rough. Sorry your parents found out. Experimenting is part of growing up.
It's understandable that your parents don't want you to hang out with that group because they're looking out for your general well being. I think everyone here is too hard on themselves and it's always easy to feel alone but you never are and even if you are enjoy your own company. It's fun to explore your thought process and question things about yourself.
Don't worry about venting it's a vent thread.
Like i said before feel free to message me any time. I enjoy having conversations with people, in general
No one understands that my future is bright. Not even my mother. I have never been more happy in my life, but the people in it are rather disappointing. (Not to sound as if I was referring to my mother, but I've made quite a few enemies out of friends lately.)
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27494141]I have 2 iPods. One for porn and one for misc. The porn one is like 32G and is almost full, and one with other stuff is fucked up so badly for no reason.
What do?[/QUOTE]
Quit Threadshitting. You're not funny.
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27494141]I have 2 iPods. One for porn and one for misc. The porn one is like 32G and is almost full, and one with other stuff is fucked up so badly for no reason.
What do?[/QUOTE]
it is funny because your surname has CUM in it hahahaha
I get along well with members of the opposite sex - this ends up with me being put into the god damn friend zone - and I fucking hate it.
I have been dealing with asshole dentists for over half a year now and it's just not fair, these people never call us back unless we leave rude messages on their machine. I just got back from their office after waiting months to get in, just to have them tell me "well, see you in about another month"
I'm pretty pissed off right now
[QUOTE=Wablur;27496963]I get along well with members of the opposite sex - this ends up with me being put into the god damn friend zone - and I fucking hate it.[/QUOTE]
Try flirting more and not only showing that you're a nice friend but also a good potential partner
[editline]18th January 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Nikeos;27500493]I have been dealing with asshole dentists for over half a year now and it's just not fair, these people never call us back unless we leave rude messages on their machine. I just got back from their office after waiting months to get in, just to have them tell me "well, see you in about another month"
I'm pretty pissed off right now[/QUOTE]
I dislike dentists too. I had to have gum surgery when i was in grade 4 where they cut off the roof of my mouth and sewed it to the bottom. They didn't numb me enough either. Shit was traumatic.
I guess if you're dentist sucks that much you should see another one instead. Don't support such poor service
[editline]18th January 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=killa101;27496605]No one understands that my future is bright. Not even my mother. I have never been more happy in my life, but the people in it are rather disappointing. (Not to sound as if I was referring to my mother, but I've made quite a few enemies out of friends lately.)[/QUOTE]
I can relate to that. My parents are upset that I'm not majoring in business and decided on teaching. They don't seem to understand how passionate i am about it. They always talk to me in a condescending manner like i don't know what i'm doing and am just a child. I appreciate that they're trying to look out for me but i feel as they're going about it all wrong.
How do you think you've turned friends into enemies?
I once stepped on a poor doormat
Altough I just know my social life is way worse than the avarage teen I realise it's never been better.
[QUOTE=cheezey;27503830]Altough I just know my social life is way worse than the avarage teen I realise it's never been better.[/QUOTE]
That's all that matters. I'm glad you're doing so well
[QUOTE=cheezey;27503830]Altough I just know my social life is way worse than the avarage teen I realise it's never been better.[/QUOTE]
Keep on going, I had the same for a while now. Unfortunately I never realized that my social life was kind of poor until I changed some stuff and went out more often with new guys. Just keep on doing new things and meeting new people. One day you will be fine and find some decent folks!
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