The get stuff off of your chest thread. - General

[QUOTE=Makol;27559658]Yeah I felt kind of bad about it and I still do a little. [editline]20th January 2011[/editline] And we never really did play TF2 in the end either, but that's besides the point.[/QUOTE] tf2? im a little lost

I hate my mood swings. Sometimes I consider killing myself, or wishing that someone else would kill me. I don't like the idea of killing myself, because I like my parents and don't want to bring that kind of grieve upon them. Although I feel if I was killed or died in an accident, then at least their sorrow wouldn't be as great as if I killed myself, because if I killed myself they might think they weren't good parents. Sometimes I don't want to kill myself, sometimes I'm perfectly fine. Often I hate my appearance and feel like it is to blame for why I haven't had any real relationships, but sometimes people tell me I am in fact attractive. When I receive compliments, I'll often be happy for a while, but then I will start to ponder why if I'm attractive people still don't like me, and I start to hate my personality instead. I'm really fucking easily persuaded by compliments, I'm an attention whore like you wouldn't believe. As have terrible confidence I become too happy by compliments, I'll develop feelings for people I otherwise wouldn't have cared for, I've slept with people twice my own age. Every now and then I regain hope though, that I might be able to make a name for myself in the future, or at least live a common and fulfilling life. However I'm scared of myself, I don't think I can live a normal life. I'm too messed up to ever be an average member of society. Recently, I lost one of my main hopes of living a normal life. I had found a girl that was lonely, strange, unpopular and absolutely wonderful to talk to, and gorgeous looking... I had found someone almost as messed up as me, we had a nice thing going... in the end the traveling distance was too great, and she ended up finding someone else. Oh well... /rant

I hope I get a job soon, I feel like a tool when I go to work trials and show them my best for the work only to end up being rejected.

I'm Hitler

[QUOTE=Lufttygger306;27562286]I'm Hitler[/QUOTE] Your art sucks

[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;27559993]tf2? im a little lost[/QUOTE] Team Fortress 2, lol. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] But I don't care about that anymore.

My girlfriend and I recently went through a break up because of her parents and I've been trying to find another girlfriend around me but whenever I try, I feel so guilty. And to make it worst, my friend Stephanie wants to do a one night stand with me and as much as my sexual urges want to, I feel my heart breaking. But hey, it's better to use the head on your neck than the one down there, right? I think waiting until she turns 18 is better than doing a one night stand. That is all. Actually, I have something else but I'll wait.

[QUOTE=azndude;27564229]My girlfriend and I recently went through a break up because of her parents and I've been trying to find another girlfriend around me but whenever I try, I feel so guilty. And to make it worst, my friend Stephanie wants to do a one night stand with me and as much as my sexual urges want to, I feel my heart breaking. But hey, it's better to use the head on your neck than the one down there, right? I think waiting until she turns 18 is better than doing a one night stand. That is all. Actually, I have something else but I'll wait.[/QUOTE] Did either of you want to break up? If you really like this girl, maybe it's worth hanging around until you're both 18 when her parents don't have as much control.

i still stalk my ex girlfriend even though i have one currently

I feel like a total basketcase for asking so much of someone that I've never even met. I plan on paying them back though, definitely. I feel that if I don't, I'll feel like I owe them a lot.

i'm coverting to a agnostic christian to be with the girl i love. :saddowns:

[QUOTE=SBD;27564508]Did either of you want to break up? If you really like this girl, maybe it's worth hanging around until you're both 18 when her parents don't have as much control.[/QUOTE] The two of us really want to get back together so that's why I'm just going to wait for her. The sad thing is she lives in Illinois and I'm stuck in Mississippi. It's a long story of how we met but.. it makes me feel all warm on the inside when I think about it.

[QUOTE=nemmises5;27564765]i'm coverting to a agnostic christian to be with the girl i love. :saddowns:[/QUOTE] don't change your beliefs to be with someone. It doesn't work like that. Because you're going to believe what you believe, regardless of what anyone else wants. However, always question your beliefs and make sure they make sense to you. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Pascall;27564546]I feel like a total basketcase for asking so much of someone that I've never even met. I plan on paying them back though, definitely. I feel that if I don't, I'll feel like I owe them a lot.[/QUOTE] That person probably cares a lot about you. I don't think they're going to want to be paid back. They probably just want to see you and make you happy. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Piggah;27564515]i still stalk my ex girlfriend even though i have one currently[/QUOTE] Are we talking facebook stalking or hardcore stalking? Either way, that's not very healthy. Try to move on. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=Simski;27560364]I hate my mood swings. Sometimes I consider killing myself, or wishing that someone else would kill me. I don't like the idea of killing myself, because I like my parents and don't want to bring that kind of grieve upon them. Although I feel if I was killed or died in an accident, then at least their sorrow wouldn't be as great as if I killed myself, because if I killed myself they might think they weren't good parents. Sometimes I don't want to kill myself, sometimes I'm perfectly fine. Often I hate my appearance and feel like it is to blame for why I haven't had any real relationships, but sometimes people tell me I am in fact attractive. When I receive compliments, I'll often be happy for a while, but then I will start to ponder why if I'm attractive people still don't like me, and I start to hate my personality instead. I'm really fucking easily persuaded by compliments, I'm an attention whore like you wouldn't believe. As have terrible confidence I become too happy by compliments, I'll develop feelings for people I otherwise wouldn't have cared for, I've slept with people twice my own age. Every now and then I regain hope though, that I might be able to make a name for myself in the future, or at least live a common and fulfilling life. However I'm scared of myself, I don't think I can live a normal life. I'm too messed up to ever be an average member of society. Recently, I lost one of my main hopes of living a normal life. I had found a girl that was lonely, strange, unpopular and absolutely wonderful to talk to, and gorgeous looking... I had found someone almost as messed up as me, we had a nice thing going... in the end the traveling distance was too great, and she ended up finding someone else. Oh well... /rant[/QUOTE] I'm sorry, man. Try to relax more and not think so negatively about yourself. Maybe try to see a psychologist if you're not. You should be proud of yourself as a whole. If you see some flaw in your personality try to take steps to correct them. Try not to have issues with your physical appearance. There's only so much you can do about it and it's not something worth dwelling on. If you are unhappy with your body try working on having proper diet and exercise. I'm sorry about the girl but there plenty more out there. And try not to value people's opinions so much. Take value in your own view of yourself.

Socially wise, I've had little to show for the past three years. Sure, I have friends, but I felt like I haven't done anything to develop my social character. I went out with friends maybe 10 times last year. But every single that was either A a trip to the movies, or B to someone's house. I only have a handful of friends, and usually that hasn't bothered me, but now I feel like I'm just socially awkward. I don't have any interest in meeting new people because something in the back of my mind is telling me that there is nothing of use to me in them, I'm better than them etc.

I had the same as above, although without "I don't need anyone." It was really bad at a certain time for me, but seriously get some more new friends, people who you actually enjoy to be with. You won't regret it unless you hang out with some goddamn retards. Other people can influence you in many ways, some are painless but on the contrary you can learn a lot from other folks.

I guess it's time to get it off my chest for the first time: I can't pee while standing, and I'm only a male teenager. Gosh, how I'll handle the emergencies while outside.

Quit this thread.

I only really feel comfortable when I'm inside my own head with my thoughts to myself.

[QUOTE=PopLot;27565741]Socially wise, I've had little to show for the past three years. Sure, I have friends, but I felt like I haven't done anything to develop my social character. I went out with friends maybe 10 times last year. But every single that was either A a trip to the movies, or B to someone's house. I only have a handful of friends, and usually that hasn't bothered me, but now I feel like I'm just socially awkward. I don't have any interest in meeting new people because something in the back of my mind is telling me that there is nothing of use to me in them, I'm better than them etc.[/QUOTE] Honestly, most people only have a few friends and the rest are just acquaintances. Depending on how old you are may also affect how much stuff you're able to do. Like my early high school years that's about all i did. Also, you should never think you're better than anyone. People are way more complex than anyone can comprehend. It's naive to think that you're better than anyone. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=PopLot;27566797]I only really feel comfortable when I'm inside my own head with my thoughts to myself.[/QUOTE] maybe you're just introverted, which is ok. Everyone has their own preferences.

I have OCD and stupid little things bother me to the point where I lose sleep over it. Example; I have a few tiny specs of dust in my camera's viewfinder and my attempts to fix it have made it slightly worse. Even though the camera operates just fine. When I had my old car I sold it literally because the interior squeaked too much and there were some un-fixable rattles. They bothered me to that point I sold it and got another vehicle in which the problem still persists because I am actively looking for the issue. This pertains to many more subjects but I feel like this kind of OCD is literally making me depressed. At work thing at my checkstand [b]HAVE[/b] to be perfectly straight and clean, all the candy bars need to be faced forward so they look nice and the magazines all need to be straight. Not saying this is all a bad thing to have but I just don't understand why so many minuscule things can keep me up at night.

Me and one of my friends managed to get into my school's website filtering program where it blocks all the sites that have "school inappropriate content" including Facebook and twitter. I then used a custom setting where it blocks every single website and brings up a red screen. I disabled "send user's info" so it doesn't send the user's info to the school district's offices so I don't cause havok

smoke some weed. Just kidding. Seriously, though, have you tried talking to a doctor or psychiatrist about your condition. I don't know much about OCD and different treatments but i'm sure there's something you can do to maybe take the edge off. Maybe with the car thing you could listen to music loudly so you don't hear the squeaking and rattling as predominantly?

[QUOTE=Binsky;27567939]smoke some weed. Just kidding. Seriously, though, have you tried talking to a doctor or psychiatrist about your condition. I don't know much about OCD and different treatments but i'm sure there's something you can do to maybe take the edge off. Maybe with the car thing you could listen to music loudly so you don't hear the squeaking and rattling as predominantly?[/QUOTE] The fact is I hated having music playing to cover up something that was still there, it doesn't bother me as much anymore though. I have learned to just live with it. But the dust on my viewfinder...ughhhh I might just have it professionally cleaned sometime.

Sorry, like i said i don't understand your condition very well. I'm glad it's at least a little more tolerable for you now. Have you talked to a doctor or anything about you condition?

[QUOTE=Binsky;27568759]Sorry, like i said i don't understand your condition very well. I'm glad it's at least a little more tolerable for you now. Have you talked to a doctor or anything about you condition?[/QUOTE] No, I should though because I'm getting tired of little things wearing me down.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27567916]Me and one of my friends managed to get into my school's website filtering program where it blocks all the sites that have "school inappropriate content" including Facebook and twitter. I then used a custom setting where it blocks every single website and brings up a red screen. I disabled "send user's info" so it doesn't send the user's info to the school district's offices so I don't cause havok[/QUOTE] You're gonna get caught bro. I almost got caught putting leekspin pictures in people's folders, because some idiot thought he would use my exploit to spam thousands of icons in a guy's folder. What would be more entertaining is replacing the filter with one that blocks all currently blocked sites and replaces the block message with something funny.

[QUOTE=|FlapJack|;27570003]You're gonna get caught bro. I almost got caught putting leekspin pictures in people's folders, because some idiot thought he would use my exploit to spam thousands of icons in a guy's folder. What would be more entertaining is replacing the filter with one that blocks all currently blocked sites and replaces the block message with something funny.[/QUOTE] This was a year ago. They fixed this within 2 hours after we fucked with.

[QUOTE=Makol;27563533]Team Fortress 2, lol. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] But I don't care about that anymore.[/QUOTE] i have 1000hrs in tf2 i know what it is. i meant to ask what was the situation involving tf2

[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;27571376]i have 1000hrs in tf2 i know what it is. i meant to ask what was the situation involving tf2[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Makol;27553809]Not really something I need to get off my chest but feel like saying anyways. I hate when someone tells you "hey let's go do *ever whatever here* when you can" and I say sure back. And then when I can they're like "hold on, gotta do something real quick" in which I reply "ok just say when you want to go" and then a few hours later nothing, then after that they start doing something else and tell me to wait even longer and they completely forget or ignore me. I just find that a bit rude. Perfect example now, a friend said we should play TF2 when I got home which was a delayed for understandable reasons. So instead of waiting I ask other friends of mine if they want to play a few matches, some either say in a bit and others say don't feel like it (which is fine). So I wait for them to be ready to play only to see them start playing other stuff and tell me to wait or not even respond. What the fuck, I've been waiting here to do something that they wanted to do when it's convenient for them then I'm told to wait after being told "soon", "in a bit", "give me 5 minutes"? Uh ok. [editline]20th January 2011[/editline] I'm going to start pulling the same shit on them.[/QUOTE] That happened yesterday.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;27571281]This was a year ago. They fixed this within 2 hours after we fucked with.[/QUOTE] Your schools techies seem better than mine. Security holes everywhere, and if something breaks it takes them months to fix it.