My girlfriend is pregnant. I want to move out of my house and move in wtih her, I'm sixteen so yeah im fucking going when the house is ready.
[QUOTE=Big Dumb American;25896125]I am being medically discharged from the Army because my heart was badly damaged when it began swelling during physical training, causing it to press against my ribs, which are sunken into a bowl-like shape because of a birth defect called pectus excavatum. The pressure caused my heart to shift within my chest, damaging its walls. For the past ten months, I've been exhausting every possible option to appeal for the surgery I need to repair the damage, but the official stance the army has taken is that because what caused the actual damage was a birth defect, the condition will be labeled preexisting; or at best, aggravated. This means that I will be discharged from the service with either no additional benefits, or with separation pay amounting to no more than a few thousand dollars.
All the die have been cast, and the Army's final decision on both my surgery and my continued service will be arriving Monday--though everybody already knows what the answer will be, and I'm likely to be back home in less than three weeks, wondering what the hell happened to the last fourteen months of my life and trying to figure out how to recover from it.[/QUOTE]
Holy shit
I remember your thread about shipping off and basic training
I'm a huge god damn attention whore and a closet homophobe.
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And I really hate myself for it..
[QUOTE=Big Dumb American;25896125]I am being medically discharged from the Army because my heart was badly damaged when it began swelling during physical training, causing it to press against my ribs, which are sunken into a bowl-like shape because of a birth defect called pectus excavatum. The pressure caused my heart to shift within my chest, damaging its walls. For the past ten months, I've been exhausting every possible option to appeal for the surgery I need to repair the damage, but the official stance the army has taken is that because what caused the actual damage was a birth defect, the condition will be labeled preexisting; or at best, aggravated. This means that I will be discharged from the service with either no additional benefits, or with separation pay amounting to no more than a few thousand dollars.
All the die have been cast, and the Army's final decision on both my surgery and my continued service will be arriving Monday--though everybody already knows what the answer will be, and I'm likely to be back home in less than three weeks, wondering what the hell happened to the last fourteen months of my life and trying to figure out how to recover from it.[/QUOTE]
You should write.
If you are lost and need to figure out how to recover from it, you need to work on your literature. I critiqued some of your past work and have enjoyed your longer posts to a point where -- if placed in novella form -- I would pay for, and I am sure others would too.
Someone asked me how old I was, I'm a month off 16.
[QUOTE=Paravin;25896720]I'm a huge god damn attention whore and a closet homophobe.
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And I really hate myself for it..[/QUOTE]
There's no reason to be ashamed for who you are.
[QUOTE=haloguy234;25883980]It sickens me when I see someone who doesn't do anything to fix the situation they are in, yet they're saddened by the situation. When I'm talking to someone that's depressed I try my best to cheer them up, but it seems impossible because they all seem to [I]want[/I] to stay depressed.
The way I see it, you are what you live. If you constantly dwell on everything in your life that sucks then of course you're going to be sad. Life isn't about dwelling, it's about living. You can't be living if you sit there and think about how much shit sucks in your life. You sure as hell aren't entitled to it either if you won't even get up and do anything about it.
What's that? You're fat? Okay, stop complaining about it and go work out. What's that? [B]A girl dumped you? Deal with it and move on. What's that? You don't have any friends? Well maybe if you weren't such a downer people would like you.[/B]
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oh god this, i have a brother that keeps getting dumped, and every time he acts like its the end of the world. he will date a girl that moves in with him treats him like crap takes his money and then leaves. he then goes through a cycle of depression, lowers his standards and the cycle repeats. this has gone on for years so that now he lives in a trailer with some stupid toothless redneck that kinda looks like a man and i dont see him for weeks at a time.
The girl I have a huge crush on started dating someone yesterday. Secretly, I want to kind of hurt him. Because he seems like a pompous dickbag.
I'm the generic teenager, you know. What goes to high school, slacks the fuck off, sleeps in class, doesn't give a damn, passes somehow anyway, rather apathetic, hangs out with odd people, is rather odd himself, such.
I'm in my last year of high school, and the weirdest thing happened. While I'm off not giving a damn, wasting my time, fucking myself up, people have started to care. My parents just pretty much gave up on making me get school shit done, just focused on making sure I get a job and fuck off. No, all of a sudden I have a girlfriend who loves me, a friend trying to help me get somewhere, and my entire Spanish class, teacher and all, trying to help me get enough sleep at night.
The more I say "agh, why are are you people caring I don't care about me why should you" the more I get "because we like you and you need to start caring".
Now, the reason why I'm "getting this off my chest" is because while I care little for myself, I care more for other people. I have an idea that I'm a lost cause, and all these people will be saddened and disappointed when I end up living in a box. I really hate making good people sad.
:sigh:
The fact I play the flute makes me feel like a girl sometimes
[QUOTE=Dank Dave;25895923]My mom used to tell me that I was the biggest mistake of her life, and one day while I was out of town with my dad she packed her bags and left. She won't pick up the phone when I call her and she has taken my college money and won't give it back. Whenever I talk about her I always say how much I hate her and all that garbage but I really wish she would just come home and love me.[/QUOTE]
Hating her for doing that makes you no better than she. I'm not trying to pull this whiteknight moral garbage, but adding hate on top of hate doesn't make anything better.
It just makes you feel worse about what happened. I don't understand people that get angry or sad over bad things in their life. If you really don't like it, then why think about it?
My stance on sexuality is [sp]it doesn't matter[/sp]
[editline]6th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=I Broke The Sun!;25897358]The fact I play the flute makes me feel like a girl sometimes[/QUOTE]
I play the flute
or, used to
i raped my girlfriend when she passed out drunk
Alright, so according to my friends and what everybody in my class room says, I'm a pretty cool guy, pretty social and sympathic, I think my friends are too, we all have fun with just talking in the class room or in break times, etc, almost everybody in my class room are good, and a few are OK.
Then there's Rachel. Basically she is your typical emo fag, except she is a total bitch, there may be times where she is good to you, but then a minute later she is fucking angry/sad for no reason AT ALL, and no, she is not bi-polar. This was kind of hard to get for me, after seeing her family, her older sister is a sweetheart, she is kind and nice to everybody, just like her parents.
She is the only one in the class room who thinks I'm a self-righteous prick. I'm not the only one who thinks this too, most of my friends think like me. She is also a whore, which is another thing I don't fucking understand, why you may ask?, because she is [b]fucking ugly[/b] yet a bunch of guys like her.
I needed to get this off my chest, thanks.
I'm going to be the leader of a pretty awesome country but I don't know how to lead.
Wow, that felt good to get out.
There are 9 little kids that come from around the neighborhood and just play, loudly and destructively in MY yard. I want a car to plow over them all
I made and burned a 45 minute loop of a 17khz tone that I'm going to play through my stereo's speaker from my upstairs window at them. Every time they step in my yard I'll hit play, and when they leave I'll hit pause... I may even just leave it on all damn day every day on repeat... I don't know
Supposedly adults can't hear it but children under the age of 18 or so can, I'm almost 25 and I can just barely hear it through a headset with the volume on max
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I think I'm depressed. Fuck, I need a drink. Maybe getting totally smashed [I][B]once[/B][/I] will help me out.[/QUOTE]
no. No. NO. NOOO
This won't help anything. I was feeling like utter shit about a month ago and got hammered, and from what my friends told me the next day I was telling them about how much my life sucked and that I was going to kill myself. I also woke up with one of my legs covered in blood, and I don't know why.
Don't do it :smith:
[QUOTE=I Broke The Sun!;25897358]The fact I play the flute makes me feel like a girl sometimes[/QUOTE]
I play the flute and I love it. It is just an instrument -- it does not define your gender.
[QUOTE=Fycix;25897915]no. No. NO. NOOO
This won't help anything. I was feeling like utter shit about a month ago and got hammered, and from what my friends told me the next day I was telling them about how much my life sucked and that I was going to kill myself. I also woke up with one of my legs covered in blood, and I don't know why.
Don't do it :smith:[/QUOTE]
I tend to be a light drinker when the occasion calls for alcohol. I'm even more funny and mellow when I'm drunk. I feel a lot less inhibited. I feel very confident with myself.
Don't go and just drink an entire Saturday night away. Get some friends together and just drink and talk or something.
[QUOTE=x-quake;25897960]I play the flute and I love it. It is just an instrument -- it does not define your gender.[/QUOTE]
I know, and I love it.
But I always get shit from guys when I tell them that I play it.
I need somebody to love
I mean, I really feel like finding some girl who I can actually care about would be really nice for a change
[QUOTE=Corporal Yippie;25898176]I need somebody to love[/QUOTE]
We all do.
Guys, what do I do?
I think anyone who has actually read the thread will remember my post about that girl. I can't talk to her at all this weekend, and I miss her so much. I'm not even going out with her, I just have a crush on her and I miss her so goddamn much. What do, facepunch?
I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't like parties. Yet I fail at school and fear that I will fail in the future ending up on the street or something. It makes me depressed allot by thinking of it.
My older brother though is excellent in school and loves to party and drink. Everything goes so smooth for him while my life's a wreck. I'm not social, I honestly don't have any friends any more ever since I moved. :smith:
I want to know that I can have a safe future. Have at least some cash to buy stuff I like. Live a life without the fear that I can and maybe will fail at school.
[QUOTE=Thedashingrogue;25898187]Guys, what do I do?
I think anyone who has actually read the thread will remember my post about that girl. I can't talk to her at all this weekend, and I miss her so much. I'm not even going out with her, I just have a crush on her and I miss her so goddamn much. What do, facepunch?[/QUOTE]
just think about other stuff, and try spend some time having fun with her when she gets back
[QUOTE=Thedashingrogue;25898187]Guys, what do I do?
I think anyone who has actually read the thread will remember my post about that girl. I can't talk to her at all this weekend, and I miss her so much. I'm not even going out with her, I just have a crush on her and I miss her so goddamn much. What do, facepunch?[/QUOTE]
You find her, walk up to her, be a fucking man and tell her you love her.
And then you make passionate love into the night for [i]7 hours[/i]
[QUOTE=Patriarch;25898232]You find her, walk up to her, be a fucking man and tell her you love her.
And then you make passionate love into the night for [I]7 hours[/I][/QUOTE]
But..
On the internet I go all out as a happy, energetic, loving kinda guy. I guess this is sort of the real me. Just, fun. Because I don't actually know any of you, I feel like I can just sort of piss around and be myself. Whereas IRL..
I am generally a fucking shy as cow dick nipple shit person. I have never had a relationship with anyone whom hasn't been asked out by a friend FOR me. I suck at talking to anyone, let alone GIRLS. But I think she likes me a bit, but I'm not 100% sure.
gm_ghosthunt
OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOD
[QUOTE=Thedashingrogue;25898381]But..
On the internet I go all out as a happy, energetic, loving kinda guy. I guess this is sort of the real me. Just, fun. Because I don't actually know any of you, I feel like I can just sort of piss around and be myself. Whereas IRL..
I am generally a fucking shy as cow dick nipple shit person. I have never had a relationship with anyone whom hasn't been asked out by a friend FOR me. I suck at talking to anyone, let alone GIRLS. But I think she likes me a bit, but I'm not 100% sure.[/QUOTE]
Clearly you do not love her. Bah, I should have known.
Enjoy being alone for ze' rest of 'yer life...
But I do! I swear, I would take a bullet for her, whether she liked me or not.
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