[QUOTE=Makol;27927375]You're right... I totally forgot I was a girl!
Thanks Dragon![/QUOTE]
im here to help!
[QUOTE=Pascall;27927398]I'm relatively emotionally comatose at the moment.
Kinda not feeling anything at all.
Must be my desensitizing process kicking in.[/QUOTE]
Uh, that's probably not a good thing.
Better than feeling like crap, I suppose.
Well that's true.
[editline]7th February 2011[/editline]
Guess I should learn how to be emotionally desensitized. Should me with a lot of things.
[QUOTE=Makol;27927498]Well that's true.
[editline]7th February 2011[/editline]
Guess I should learn how to be emotionally desensitized. Should me with a lot of things.[/QUOTE]
Trust me, it usually doesn't help. I did it without realizing and it may have made me care less about some things, but in the long run it dulls almost every emotion and keeps them bottled up.
I hate that there are no similarly aged musicians that play Megadeth/Metallica in my entire city. Well, I've met two, but the one guitarist just couldn't keep up, and he was too shy to get to know, and the other would play Metallica or Megadeth, but wanted to play other bands, so that wouldn't have worked out anyways. Also, I didn't like the original music they were writing, so I just "quit"
Me and a jazz drummer jam sometimes at least heh.
[editline]7th February 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Makol;27927375]You're right... I totally forgot I was a girl!
Thanks Dragon![/QUOTE]
Men have PMS too!
Who ever said I was a dude?
[QUOTE=Teracotta;27910103]I live outside OKC.(i don't want to be specific for obvious reasons. :P)[/QUOTE]
I don't think the reasons are obvious.
Do you think that by giving your city/town name someone will do something to you? What would they do, track you down and rape you?
I live in Norman, I was just wondering if you did as well. Would have been a cool coincidence.
Remember my girlfriend? The whole story with her being with someone and such? Well, we were talking until three of last night about things and I don't want to write a page worth of what she said but basically at the end of it when she finally calmed down and stopped yelling "fuck you" and "I don't love you anymore" because she was mad, I confronted her that she has to choose me or the guy she's currently with. She said she would break up with him but she couldn't do it because she needs physical contact and I'm not there to provide it. So, I said back to her what if I was away for long periods of time on deployment, you know? Would she just find someone else to replace me while I'm thousands of miles away? Fucking reminds me of Jarhead. And well, she kept saying she couldn't do it and I wasn't understanding it. What is there to understand? It's supposed to be us. Boyfriend and girlfriend. Not her, me, and the other guy, keep in mind I'm not giving names. She suggested that we take a break and said I no to that because what would happen in that time frame I am gone? Anything can happen. They could have sex again or she would break up with him and find someone else. I told her that I would not accept that and I think the only thing to do was break up if she wants to stay with him.
We ended the night by agreeing we were both tired and that we would continue talking in the morning. I received some texts from her saying that she's going to see him today and tell him everything. About how she is a bad person and such. I'm trying to ask her what she means by everything and what she is going to do. Because if she does break up with him, I'll be happy as fuck but if she doesn't, there goes our year+ relationship. Probably the years we knew each other, too. Maybe..
I'm so mad at my friend. I need some distance! He's obsessed with me, he's been obsessed with me for so many years. He's always following me around, always want to do stuff with me. Every minute, every second in school he's hanging around me. When he's somewhere else, he's usually looking or waiting for me. I didn't have a problem with this because I've never seen a problem with this... But now lately I realise how much energy he takes from me. He talks all of the time, and almost all of it is stuff I don't care about. And he complains, god damnit he complains. I don't know why he has to talk to me all the time. He complains about headaches, his fingers hurting or just anything... He makes a big deal out of everything.
He has a hard time with the social part of life and the friends he's gotten are me and my friends. But he's holding me back. I feel like I don't share that much with him, I've grown away from him and some of my other friends a long time ago. I want to move on, meet new friends, hang with other people. There is a girl I like and have liked for many years, but I don't get a chance to interact with her, I don't get to do anything, because my friend is with me every second of my life in school. The only way would be me walking straight up to her and talk to her, there is no natural way of even conversating with her.
And now, here I am feeling so low down, wanting an actual friend to talk to, someone who can understand me and someone equal to me. But I really don't have anyone. Especially not the friend I'm talking about, he hasn't done anything for me really, never, he's just taken. I feel so horrible, and I believe he's the one to blame. Perhaps he isn't? Maybe I'm just trying to find something to blame, but now when I look at it all, he's been messing up everything I really want.
I can't confront him about it, he wouldn't understand, and it doesn't really matter, it's too late now anyways. I'm so full of hate toward him... Probably the closest friend I have, and I hate him. I never hate people. I'll just have to stand him a few months more, just ignore this anger and then my school ends and we'll go different ways. But I've wasted my life, trying to satisfy him and be there for him. I've made this one big misstake. I should have talked to him years ago, but I'm so young and was even younger then, I never realised what was happening.
I don't really know how to deal with this, but I had to write it down and reflect on it.
[editline]8th February 2011[/editline]
azndude, she's been with another guy. Leave her, forget her. She's always gonna be the person who cheated on you, it's not gonna change, and who says she won't do it again? You should leave her.
[QUOTE=This Year;27933723]
azndude, she's been with another guy. Leave her, forget her. She's always gonna be the person who cheated on you, it's not gonna change, and who says she won't do it again? You should leave here.[/QUOTE]
Let him try till he starts hating her.
[QUOTE=This Year;27933723]
azndude, she's been with another guy. Leave her, forget her. She's always gonna be the person who cheated on you, it's not gonna change, and who says she won't do it again? You should leave her.[/QUOTE]
I know I'm a fool. I'm stupid. She keeps saying she wouldn't do it again but like you said, who says she won't? If she was that easily subdued then what the fuck. Why should I continue staying with her, you know? But then again.. I still love her and I just. I'm so conflicted.
[QUOTE=ryN26193;27920266]right facepunchers get ur teeth into this one - there is this girl i like..... quite a lot BUT and its a big but .............. i am only just coming to terms with the fact im gay.... ish ...... HELP[/QUOTE]
You could just be bisexual? I prefer women but am also attracted to men. Explore your sexuality. If you like this girl and find her physically attractive go on a few dates with her. If you think that you can confide in her then talk to her about your sexuality and she should understand.
[editline]8th February 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=azndude;27934546]I know I'm a fool. I'm stupid. She keeps saying she wouldn't do it again but like you said, who says she won't? If she was that easily subdued then what the fuck. Why should I continue staying with her, you know? But then again.. I still love her and I just. I'm so conflicted.[/QUOTE]
Loving someone isn't a good reason to stay with someone if they don't truly love you back. She has zero respect for you if she is seeing another guy and expecting you to be ok with it. You can love someone better for you. It's time to move on, buddy
[QUOTE=Binsky;27934553]You could just be bisexual? I prefer women but am also attracted to men. Explore your sexuality. If you like this girl and find her physically attractive go on a few dates with her. If you think that you can confide in her then talk to her about your sexuality and she should understand.[/QUOTE]
Being bi-sexual or bi-curious is not bad. Like Binsky said, explore your sexuality. You may find better than the other.
[QUOTE=azndude;27934546]I know I'm a fool. I'm stupid. She keeps saying she wouldn't do it again but like you said, who says she won't? If she was that easily subdued then what the fuck. Why should I continue staying with her, you know? But then again.. I still love her and I just. I'm so conflicted.[/QUOTE]
She knows that you won't give up on her. Give her a last ultimatum and be done with it once and for all. It's gonna be an acute shitstorm but you will be spared of a chronic disaster.
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;27932633]I don't think the reasons are obvious.
Do you think that by giving your city/town name someone will do something to you? What would they do, track you down and rape you?
I live in Norman, I was just wondering if you did as well. Would have been a cool coincidence.[/QUOTE]
No, sorry. A lot of people bug me about where I live. :U
There is hair on my chest, can i leave it here?
[QUOTE=Erphon;27938973]There is hair on my chest, can i leave it here?[/QUOTE]
Leave now.
And also, you joined in '09, yet you have about as many posts as me?
He's probably a lurker
[QUOTE=Glitch360;27939670]He's probably a lurker[/QUOTE]
Yeah, I'm just use to seeing people from '09 with 1500+ posts.
Got my hopes up hugely about meeting *
Then got hugely disappointed coz * decided to do all her work on the only day I was free coz Im basing my week around *
fill in the gaps yourself :p
[QUOTE=hammerheadshark;27939692]Yeah, I'm just use to seeing people from '09 with 1500+ posts.[/QUOTE]
[img]http://dl.dropbox.com/u/6601025/Pictures/hammerav.png[/img]
Transparency is best.
[QUOTE=Eltro102;27939874]Got my hopes up hugely about meeting *
Then got hugely disappointed coz * decided to do all her work on the only day I was free coz Im basing my week around *
fill in the gaps yourself :p[/QUOTE]
No.
I'm lazy.
Yes.
[QUOTE=Teracotta;27938958]No, sorry. A lot of people bug me about where I live. :U[/QUOTE]
Well if you don't live in Norman, then it doesn't matter because you're just as unlikely to meet me no matter where else you live as long as it's not here.
Be more straightforward.
You [i]don't[/i] live in Norman?
[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;27939909][img_thumb]http://dl.dropbox.com/u/6601025/Pictures/hammerav.png[/img_thumb]
Transparency is best.[/QUOTE]
I don't have photoshop and MS paint 2007 doesn't have transparencies even though 2000 did. Thanks.
[editline]8th February 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Eltro102;27939874]Got my hopes up hugely about meeting *
Then got hugely disappointed coz * decided to do all her work on the only day I was free coz Im basing my week around *
fill in the gaps yourself :p[/QUOTE]
Are the asterisks variables?
I want to get up and go somewhere but I'm stuck doing something lame for months and it's killing me
Does it take up all of your time?
Looking for a job is difficult.
[QUOTE=Binsky;27944035]Does it take up all of your time?[/QUOTE]
not really but it's an obligation and I can't go anywhere for more than a few days because of it
[editline]9th February 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Pascall;27944087]Looking for a job is difficult.[/QUOTE]
gurll i can get you a job
just not in texas
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