i pick my nose and wipe it on the floor as landmines
i can't stop thinking about this girl, im crazy for her. a lot of the guys don't think she's the prettiest girl in school, but i think she's the cutest most beautiful girl in the world. it pisses me off seeing one of my friends that already has a girl friend fool around with her, i just wanna beat him (soon), i've told her that i like her she said that i was just her "best guy friend" and that really made me sad inside, but im just happy that i can still be in her life as her friend and maybe someday she will feel the same way i do. anyways it feels good getting this off my chest. :)
[QUOTE=beanhead;25909407]Well, recently my dog, Riley Jean has been having some trouble eating and getting up stairs. Today my mom went to take her on a walk and she just wouldn't get up to leave. I over heard my mom crying on the phone telling the vet its time. My heart sank. I didn't say anything.
The trip to the vet was in most silence save for a few statements about the football game on the radio. When we got there she had trouble getting out of the car and my brother had to lift her out. we were directed into another room with a table and stuff. we sat there for about ~10 minutes until the Doctor came in and gave her a sedative. She slowly lowered her head and that's when the realization of the situation kicked in.
I started to tear up. After 5 minutes he came in again and gave her the final shot. i didn't want to look at the injection. after a few seconds i looked up and she was like stretching. thats when i lost it. i just couldn't keep my self from crying. then she just stopped moving all together. her mouth was hanging open. i just couldn't look. We left and the car ride back was completely silent. :crying:
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I feel you. When I was five years old I had a ferret since I was born named, "Black Bandit" (Mostly cause he was a black footed ferret) He was so fucking awesome. He would go around, and hang out with me outside, and one day my dad, and his friend Ziggy were having a few drinks while watching boxing, and they began fucking around, and doing fake punches... What they didn't know though was black bandit was under the couch they were sitting on.
We found him three days later because blood stains had dryed a little bit from the couches edge. I still have a hard time forgiving my dad over that. Now I have a ferret name Ruby Jade who I've had since I've came to Arizona(She turned 6 on Halloween.) The average life expetencey of a ferret is 7-10 years, and she is showing signs of wear and tear.... I don't really want to lose her. She's without doubt one of the most friendly pets I've owned, and she even does tea-parties with my niece by standing on her hind legs on a chair, and putting her front paws on a table, and drinking tea from a small cup.
One thing that pisses me off is that everyone in my school lives in a bubble. All I see on Facebook and hear in the hallways is stupid shit people do, but they don't care about whats happening out in the world. They don't care that there are children starving in Africa, or that our country is fighting an unwinnable war. They don't give a shit about anything unless it directly affects them.
When they see someone that looks like they are from the middle-east all I hear is "lol they probably have a bomb on them, watch out!". I'm not a stuck up prick, but when people are blatantly racist or homophobic it really gets to me (I'm white and straight). It annoys me the most when people are racist towards Aboriginal people in my country (Canada). Everyone just calls them "a bunch of stupid, drunk indians". It bugs me because I know that it's not the Aboriginal people's fault that they're like that, it's the white man that did it to them. They were thrown in residential schools and reserves, left to die off.
/rant
I kicked a baby to death.
[QUOTE=kamikaze470;25907791]I hate people who tease me because of my unhealthy skinniness. I can't help it, pricks. :frown:[/QUOTE]
And I can't help that I'm fat
wait, I can: by talking to a dietitian and learning what I'm doing wrong with my diet and exercise routine. You can do the same if it's really bothering you.
[editline]7th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Elizer;25908329]Have you ever felt like you wanted to wear clothes you normally wouldn't wear? Whether it's because of a fear of being rejected by your family, being labelled as something you aren't or just stepping out of your comfort zone?[/QUOTE]
Yeah absolutely, even with small shit. A dumb one is sleeveless shirts, they're fucking comfortable and I wear them at home all the time but I just don't want to wear them in public for some strange reason. I have no idea why I'm more self-conscious about the part of my arm above my elbow than the part below (I wear regular tshirts all the time)
Well, its about my step mother (yes a step parent that I actually like).
I used to see her with my dad on the holidays and it'd be cool because she always made you feel better if you were around her.
Then she got into a lot of fights with my dad and my dad started living in a house 2 hours away from her. It's been 2 years since i've seen her and i barely get to talk to her. Now I hear she's very depressed and taking drugs "apparently". I know there's not much I can do about it but just felt like getting that off my chest.
Other than that I really like my life.
I always somewhat have a feeling that everyone around me hates me for some odd reason
Facepunch, I watched a suicide. Do I win something now?
[QUOTE=ConvolutedLogic;25911393]Facepunch, I watched a suicide. Do I win something now?[/QUOTE]
No, you don't. Go back to being the happy person. :v:
[QUOTE=WeekendWarrior;25911434]No, you don't. Go back to being the happy person. :v:[/QUOTE]
Haha, okay. c:
In middle school there was this kid named Logan who was bullied a lot and looked up to me as some sort of idol. I don't know what I did to get him to rely on me so much but that's just how it was. I would be with my group of friends and what not causing all sorts of chaos (we were the jack asses of the school) and he would always want to join in but my friends didn't want him around, I couldn't care less.
Turns out he liked me, and wanted to eventually ask me out. When I heard of this from a group of girls who overheard him talking to his only close friend I didn't believe it at first so I actually went and asked Logan. However it wasn't just me, there were also about 15 other curious kids... He said it was true in front of all of us. Everyone made fun of him, called him a faggot, and told him to go kill himself.
Worst part? I joined in.
What happened to him?
I also forgot to add he later dropped out of school and I haven't heard or seen him since.
[editline]7th November 2010[/editline]
He was an emotionally tough guy, I can't imagine him going through with suicide.
Still regret making fun of him.
Just going to leave this here for now.
How to reenact the last 10 hours of my life:
1.Drive home from nans
2.Watch cat get hit by car infront
3.Get out of car
4.Pick up cat
5.Watch brother cry
6.Take now deceased cat to vet
7.watch brother cry again
8.Nurse picks up cat and takes inside
9.Lose favourite blanket to help a dying cat
10. Feel happy-sad.
My last 15 hours comprised of getting shunned by my friend. :frown:
[QUOTE=Thedashingrogue;25879285]I listened to MCR all the time and as soon as I mention them, she turns up next week with a MCR t-shirt. [/QUOTE]
tell her you like nymphomaniacs
I am in love with my best friend
Got a few things here:
Well, I live in this town that's more or less in the middle of nowhere, but it's nice and all, at the coast and such, but anyway, fuck the town. I went to school here and grew up with some great friends we where all like [i]"We're gonna be bros for the rest of or lives"[/i] and everything, if someone got bullied, we all stood up for him and everything.
But well, all that changed a few years ago when we all started growing up, they all started smoking and sometimes even drinking (underage) and started becoming all duchebags, so I pretty much tell them I don't want anything with them to do anymore and stop talking to them and everything.
It's not like that I don't have friends now who aren't idiots, it's how sad it is how much things change, whatever happened good times where we all spent the summer together, just chilling and such without caring for any problems in the world?
Second thing I just want out, even though It's just on the Internet to some people I'll never meet, I just want to get it out:
So, I go to a different school and all, I got tons of friends I pretty much know everyone in the same year as me and I have got [i]Zero[/i] social problems.
But at the end of last year a new girl moved into the area and such, we go to the same school, and sometimes, the same classes and I really, really like her, and she's not the same kind of girl like the rest somehow what idiot type girls and she has this really cute personality.
Now I dunno if she likes me or not, but the thing is, whenever I got the chance to ask her out or anything, I just become so nervous I just walk pas her instead and sit down somewhere, feeling like an idiot. I'm not the person who tells everyone what I feel or anything, so, pretty much, nobody knows I like her except me.
It just incredibly puzzling to my why I get so nervous near her..
Just had to get that out, sorry if you don't give a shit at all, just felt good getting that out.
So back in the sixth grade I took some psychological tests for learning disorders. What I walked out with was something called NLD, or Non-verbal Learning Disorder. It means that I don't learn by being told what to do, I need to be shown. As far as what this was going to mean in school where it really mattered, it got me "special services" which meant I had a supervised study hall and had some shit related to test that would allow me more time. Shit that didn't really matter, all in all.
Something else was wrong tho. Every year I had a pattern. School would be going ok and then I would miss an assignment in a class. Nothing catastrophic but I would start seize up in school. I'd stop doing work, miss more assignments and eventually I would just be pity passed into the next class because it's high school. I never ask for help. I never tell anyone this is happening until too late. Why? Because I'm embarrassed and feel stupid for needing help. Also, some shit back in early elementary school from being constantly berated by teachers for ASKING FOR HELP but that doesn't really matter in this scheme; just a note. This has been happening for almost EIGHT years now all the way into college. My parents have literally wasted thousands of dollars on me because I just keep repeating this pattern of apparent self-destruction.
So finally I was sick and tired of not knowing why I just didn't function correctly in an educational environment. Something was not done years ago that could have been but I had no idea what so I got tested again like back in the sixth grade. Turns out with the way my mind functions I'm not mentally fit to learn the way schools teach. I've dropped out of college this semester and plan on working with a psychologist on behavior modification so I can finally function correctly in school.
Knowing this was identified years ago and nothing was done about it by anyone, not my parents or my school (not like they take any responsibility of their students anyway) fucking ENRAGES me so much, but there isn't much I can do now. I'm just glad to finally be working towards a way to fix the educational side of my life so I can maybe pass college and move on with my life.
Fuck the world, fuck you and fuck shit.
FAGGOTS
I came in a guys burger one time. He said he wanted mayo and we were out.
when i was 12, i broke into an abandoned KFC, and set off the alarm
When I was 12, me and my friend went to my school after dark and climbed on the roof, we gained access into a class room cause of construction workers putting in AC units and there was a hole with a ladder leading to the class room. The neighbors called the cops and we got arrested.
The cop yelled "Move and i swear to god i will fucking shoot you". I was scared :ohdear:
A lot of the time, I have a feeling I'm annoying everyone around me 24/7, and whenever I say something to someone and they don't laugh or otherwise react immediately, I feel like I just said the dumbest thing ever
[QUOTE=shadow_of_intent;25905755]Im late, but what is that a symptom of? I get that all the time, infact i stood up a second ago and had to brace against a wall because my head started swirling around.
Now i have a small headache.[/QUOTE]
It's not a disease, you just have low blood pressure.
Now this goes two ways:
-You have low blood pressure, period
-You have low blood pressure as a result of fast growth when you entered puberty, your blood vessels aren't growing as fast
The second thing means you won't have low blood pressure forever as your blood vessels will eventually catch up. It's also imo the most likely option for FP seeing as most users here are in puberty.
The solution is to switch positions slowly (standing up, etc.) and drinking coffee.
[editline]7th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Zoidbear;25912882]A lot of the time, I have a feeling I'm annoying everyone around me 24/7, and whenever I say something to someone and they don't laugh or otherwise react immediately, I feel like I just said the dumbest thing ever[/QUOTE]
That's pretty normal, don't feel bad about it.
I just hate my cousin. He always gets my stuff and says Mine all day. I'm fucking sick of him. He farts on my bed and talks like he is on drugs.
I'm studying international business, and at the moment the studies are going REALLY well. I feel I have a chance to actually become something my parents and I will be proud of, yet I can't help but worry.
I've lived with my girlfriend for almost 2 years now, and she's studying in the same city as I am. But the degree she is aiming for.. well, she won't automatically have a occupation, so I fear it might take longer for her to start being successful.
What I fear is that I'm offered a dream job when I graduate, and I'd have to choose between the woman I love so much and a possibly very bring future with a good job and possibly big money. Her dream is to go and work in middle Europe (Germany, Austria etc.) and I dream of going to Canada (although Germany is totally cool as well). So our jobs could possibly separate us pretty bad :(
But for now I'm happy because I know I'd choose [b]her[/b] in a heartbeat, no question about it. I'm just scared and excited at the same time about what future is gonna bring.
At first I was thinking of not writing here, but that sure felt good :)
[QUOTE=Big Dumb American;25900680]Yeah, that makes sense. It's a lot easier to get surgery for a preexisting condition if you've already been deployed, and chances are pretty good that if he was able to be deployed, his wasn't effecting him much, or at all, and is mostly just cosmetic. That's where I thought I was, but instead of lessening as I grew older, which is what generally happens, mine grew more pronounced, and after I started doing heavy PT in the army, I guess some stuff in there kind of wiggled around into no-good positions. I'll need to have surgery to correct the deformity, because the pressure it's exerting on my torso is now causing damage. This could lead to some serious problems down the road, but the doctors are saying that if I fix the root of the problem now, the damage to the heart will probably repair itself--though the weakening of my lungs may not be reversible, because of how long they've been subjected to the pressure.
I've been fighting to have the army fix it, both so I can stay in and because the only way I could get this surgery civilian-side was if my dad and I pooled our resources and filed for bankruptcy, but the answer coming at the beginning of next week isn't likely to be a good one for me.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, my brother's procedure is cosmetic, but he also said it will slightly help his heart and lungs if it gets done. I hope you can get your procedure done and still stay in the army.
Why the fuck does everyone's lives revolve around a goddamn cell phone now?
Every other second, I'll see someone texting, I've even seen people SITTING NEXT TO EACH OTHER texting each other, or other people. It's even worse when you're hangin' out with friends, and one of your friends sits there texting OTHER friends. To me, it's rude as fuck. That, and has anyone thought that you can [B]call[/B] people with that phone you've been sitting on sending long drawn out texts on? Holy shit! Who knew? :geno:
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