I feel like the whole world hates me. I have some friends, But it feels like they're trying to get rid of me. I hate school, all the kids there think they're oh so gangsta & shit, and they give me a load of shit because I have long hair, for example, when I walk past a group of students I sometimes hear them saying "He's gay" or "Is that a boy or a girl" while it's obvious that I'm not a girl, or gay. The only good times I have in my life now are the weekends.
[editline]8th November 2010[/editline]
I feel like nobody here gives a shit and I'm either gonna be rated dumb, or just be ignored.
[QUOTE=matthaios;25926268]I feel like the whole world hates me. I have some friends, But it feels like they're trying to get rid of me. I hate school, all the kids there think they're oh so gangsta & shit, and they give me a load of shit because I have long hair, for example, when I walk past a group of students I sometimes hear them saying "He's gay" or "Is that a boy or a girl" while it's obvious that I'm not a girl, or gay. The only good times I have in my life now are the weekends.
[editline]8th November 2010[/editline]
I feel like nobody here gives a shit and I'm either gonna be rated dumb, or just be ignored.[/QUOTE]
Nah man. Like, what do you dress like?
Thought I might as well say a few things about some people I know
Anthony: You're an awesome person. Whenever I face a problem, you listen, and you help me. I can't say the same for me. I'm a shit friend, and I don't know why you still hang out with me. Even after you've told me I'm a good person, I still can't find truth in that statement. Thank you.
Bethany: I don't know what is up with you. You know I like you, and you've used that to almost ruin my friendship with Anthony. You led him on, and now you're going out with a senior. You make myself and others feel like shit, when you have your problems. You are a nice girl, don't get me wrong, but something has happened to you.
Donyell: Another awesome person. You were there for me all of last summer, when my parents were on the verge of divorce. When my other was having an affair with some alcoholic douchebag. When my mother got pregnant with the douche's child. We've started to grow apart, and I hate that. We need to hang out again, play Rock Band all night like we did 2 years back.
Tonmoy: Fuck you. You ruined my 8th grade year, by getting the whole school to hate me. What did I do to you? Was it because I was trying to make something out of my life, and I actually took care of my personal hygiene? I don't know why people look up to you as an idol. You're a douche. You said on Facebook to some people, that they shouldn't hang out with me, because I'll do "gay hitler shit"? Really shows something about you, huh?
Katrina: I know you won't see this, but I have to say it. I love you. I've been trying this whole weekend to try and say I don't feel that way towards you, but I do. I don't understand why you hang out with who you do though. You hang out with the kid who's 14, and comes into school drunk, and the one who does pot before going into school. I don't want to make it seem like I'm the best, but I just don't understand. You're cute, smart, and funny, and if we can only be friends, then so be it, I just don't want to lose you.
Mom and Dad: I don't know why you guys care for me as much as you do. I'm a terrible person. I've caused you guys huge amounts of stress and fear, just because I've forgotten to call you when I walk somewhere, and I'm sorry. Mom, I still love you, even with what you've done to me and dad, but you're a good person. Dad, thank you. I loved being able to talk to you, and let out my emotions when mom was having an affair. I love you, you smoke all the time, and I want you to stop. Just the thought of losing you can bring me to tears. I love you both.
Dammit I'm starting to cry now, but I had to let it out. Thank you FP :unsmith:
I hate people that bother me with stupid fucking questions and all kinds of other bullshit when I'm trying to do my fucking job.
I'm a goddamn [B]mailman[/B], the fuck should I know how to get to buttfuckstreet 12 from here? It's not like I deliver mail all over the fucing place; It's just a single area, like 10 to 12 streets. Fuck me, half of the time I don't even know the names of the goddamn streets im delivering mail in, I just follow the route I'm given.
tl;dr: People should buy more maps.
I dress what I wanna dress, just, normal clothing like anybody else. No fashion stuff or brands, but I wear what I want to wear. I usually wear baggy, camouflage trousers, because I like baggy trousers, I think the pattern is pretty badass and I need all those pockets. I usually wear a hoodie (mostly black). I never wear anything pink. Ever. Also, my "real" self is socially unacceptable where I live, so, as many more in this thread, I act like someone else.
about a year and a half ago i met this girl. Instantly we become extremely close friends to the point where everyone thought we were together. I would have liked it if we were but she unfortunately did not, up until when she was about to leave to go out of the country to visit family was when we were the closest and I've been told by everyone she had feelings for me then.
I didn't know, and i felt that it was time i moved on so i found this random girl who was obsessed with me and i used her to get over my friend. When she got home everything was different and i had no idea how she felt inside......after the girl i used broke up with me (dumb bitch cheated anyway) my friend ended up getting closer to my best friend......now they are together....i feel horrible on the inside having to see them
I know people have already said it but I am truly in love with my best friend's girl. I've never been closer to anyone and I threw a possible chance away
I'm a pedophile.
[QUOTE=Egg_Toaster;25927479]I'm a pedophile.[/QUOTE]
You ruined what was to become a good page with your silliness.
[QUOTE=Zeldy;25923529]I realize that. I've stopped caring what they think. I'm doing the things [I]I[/I] want to do, not the things they want me to.[/QUOTE]
I'm 19, I can relate to a lot of that Zeldy, though my parents are devout fundamentalist non-denominational Christians and I've lived in the US my whole life. It can be challenging to find something that you enjoy living and breathing for the rest of your life as a career choice, I struggle with it now.
"Animation? No. Music? No. Making video games? No."
Pursue what you like, better your skills and learn more about these things. In the arts, it can be pretty easy to feel like what you're doing is pointless, with a lot of society frowning down on them for not being the traditional, physical hard-labor kind of jobs. But that doesn't matter.
I'm a decent photographer, and just entered college last fall. I've had a lot of different career ideas. I've wanted to do animation, graphic design, 3D modelling, concept art, military career, photography, cinematography, all that kind of stuff. I'm going to take a big variety of classes based around studio/applied arts and see what gets me the most. Photography has become the most passionate for me, and I'm only in photo I, but I'm still very unsure that it's what I'm going to do as a career.
Experiment. If you feel like something is getting stale, take a break from it, but try not to totally dump it if you do have an interest in it.
I'm bi, I completely understand how you feel when you said you asked your dad what he thought about homosexuality. When my parents discovered what I was, I was required to see a psychologist once a week for a year or two. It helped to confirm my sexuality lol, but it was hell. My parents don't support that aspect of my life in any way, but it hasn't come up any recently as I have a gf of 9 months. In fact, they probably assume I've become straight-- they've done it before, only to have their hearts crushed a second time.
Luckily you're not living with them any more, so you don't have to feel that overbearing fear as much, though I'm sure it's still there. Don't let your differences in belief let your relationship with them fade. They're your parents and they love you, and you love them. While it may be hard, nay impossible for them to ever get why you would "do this to them" (my mom once wrote me a series of letters saying how I was just causing them pain, while I was still living with them), they just want what they believe is best for you.
Good luck.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but my life feels so empty and depressive. I'm not trying to sound like some self-loathing emotional faggot, but why does everything feel so dull? It's getting hard to cope with. I feel like I'm missing something, something big.
[QUOTE=MedicmanV500;25929035]I don't know what's wrong with me, but my life feels so empty and depressive. I'm not trying to sound like some self-loathing emotional faggot, but why does everything feel so dull? It's getting hard to cope with. I feel like I'm missing something, something big.[/QUOTE]
Are you enjoying the little things? It's really good to get out and have fun. I'm not talking about going to parties and getting drunk, but going and building relationships with the people that you care about. The little things you do with the ones you care about are the most important things in my book. Are you very social?
I looked in WalMart for "LIFE" item my friends have told me to acquire. No dice, dollar tree doesn't have it either...
What do? :ohdear:
[QUOTE=ZekeTwo;25925309]I have a crush on one of my straight friends
I need to avoid making it apparent so he can stay my friend[/QUOTE]
zeke? Gay?
:byodood:
I need to quit smoking :/ soon
[QUOTE=Midtown123;25929607]I looked in WalMart for "LIFE" item my friends have told me to acquire. No dice, dollar tree doesn't have it either...
What do? :ohdear:[/QUOTE]
Its not "LIFE" its "A Life".
[QUOTE=CottonTM;25928540]I'm 19, I can relate to a lot of that Zeldy, though my parents are devout fundamentalist non-denominational Christians and I've lived in the US my whole life. It can be challenging to find something that you enjoy living and breathing for the rest of your life as a career choice, I struggle with it now.
"Animation? No. Music? No. Making video games? No."
Pursue what you like, better your skills and learn more about these things. In the arts, it can be pretty easy to feel like what you're doing is pointless, with a lot of society frowning down on them for not being the traditional, physical hard-labor kind of jobs. But that doesn't matter.
I'm a decent photographer, and just entered college last fall. I've had a lot of different career ideas. I've wanted to do animation, graphic design, 3D modelling, concept art, military career, photography, cinematography, all that kind of stuff. I'm going to take a big variety of classes based around studio/applied arts and see what gets me the most. Photography has become the most passionate for me, and I'm only in photo I, but I'm still very unsure that it's what I'm going to do as a career.
Experiment. If you feel like something is getting stale, take a break from it, but try not to totally dump it if you do have an interest in it.
I'm bi, I completely understand how you feel when you said you asked your dad what he thought about homosexuality. When my parents discovered what I was, I was required to see a psychologist once a week for a year or two. It helped to confirm my sexuality lol, but it was hell. My parents don't support that aspect of my life in any way, but it hasn't come up any recently as I have a gf of 9 months. In fact, they probably assume I've become straight-- they've done it before, only to have their hearts crushed a second time.
Luckily you're not living with them any more, so you don't have to feel that overbearing fear as much, though I'm sure it's still there. Don't let your differences in belief let your relationship with them fade. They're your parents and they love you, and you love them. While it may be hard, nay impossible for them to ever get why you would "do this to them" (my mom once wrote me a series of letters saying how I was just causing them pain, while I was still living with them), they just want what they believe is best for you.
Good luck.[/QUOTE]
That's what I'm currently doing. I'm taking an animation class and a drawing class to "force" myself to keep doing it. I don't give up on anything entirely, I just take long breaks from it. For example, I fiddle with my guitar every now and then but it's been a while since I really tried to play.
As for my parents, I do not plan on telling them about being gay. Ever.
Also thank you.
I love for certain one girl I know, but I can't help flirting with 5 or 6 girls at my school, just in case that one girl don't like me back. Gotta have a back-up plan! :fuckyou:
I've never felt sad in front of anyone else. I seem like a pretty happy guy on the outside.
But when I get home, I spend hours thinking about what's going to become of my future and what would happen if I don't start exercising and talking to people. I feel like a socially awkward loser, and my self esteem takes a dive when I hear someone tell me that.
[QUOTE=a mutant hobo;25929987]I love for certain one girl I know, but I can't help flirting with 5 or 6 girls at my school, just in case that one girl don't like me back. Gotta have a back-up plan! :fuckyou:[/QUOTE]
Shit, i do this way too much :v:
Everyone in the world is a huge fucking douchebag that deserves the death that awaits us all. I swear if I ever find that Sharkman I'm gonna cut HIS balls off!
For almost a year and a half now I have had zero social interactions with friends I had in high school, they wanted to go out and I didn't like that at all and after we all went to different schools I broke our ties. I love to be at home and just watch television and play games, also I felt like I didn't have a true connection with them any more. It was sort of like I had changed and they didn't the same way, but I felt in a sort of way that I moved on. Now my ex-best friend from primary school came by and told me we should hang out, cool I thought cause we hadn't seen eachother in a year. But he totally blew me off.
I didn't mind cause like I said before, I am not the type to go out anyway. But what really grinds my gear is that he came by for a second time, said the exact same thing and blew me off again. That left me quite bittered, and quite frankly no remorse that I don't interact with those friends any more.
I do however met 2 great people online, whom I talk to on a daily basis about all sorts of things. Those ''virtual'' friends are actually the greatest friends I had. We sure the same sense of humour, interests and music.
But there is always this little voice inside my head that keeps nagging that I shouldn't be happy cause ''normal'' people around my age should go out and have fun. But I am really content with being alone, it's not like I'm anti social either, I just like my alone time.
So is there anyone who can see a resemblance?
For some reason, I have a different sense of humor for different "groups" of my friends. Ex.: My one friend introduced me to a couple of his friends a few years ago. Now everytime I'm around them I have specific jokes/attitude. However, when I'm with a different group of friends, I act completely different.
It's annoying as crap, especially when a person from each group is in the same place.
[QUOTE=Kaelnukem;25930238]For almost a year and a half now I have had zero social interactions with friends I had in high school, they wanted to go out and I didn't like that at all and after we all went to different schools I broke our ties. I love to be at home and just watch television and play games, also I felt like I didn't have a true connection with them any more. It was sort of like I had changed and they didn't the same way, but I felt in a sort of way that I moved on. Now my ex-best friend from primary school came by and told me we should hang out, cool I thought cause we hadn't seen eachother in a year. But he totally blew me off.
I didn't mind cause like I said before, I am not the type to go out anyway. But what really grinds my gear is that he came by for a second time, said the exact same thing and blew me off again. That left me quite bittered, and quite frankly no remorse that I don't interact with those friends any more.
I do however met 2 great people online, whom I talk to on a daily basis about all sorts of things. Those ''virtual'' friends are actually the greatest friends I had. We sure the same sense of humour, interests and music.
But there is always this little voice inside my head that keeps nagging that I shouldn't be happy cause ''normal'' people around my age should go out and have fun. But I am really content with being alone, it's not like I'm anti social either, I just like my alone time.
So is there anyone who can see a resemblance?[/QUOTE]
Wanna hang :v:
Ugh this is what I have to deal with when I just try and talk to my friends about me being down
[QUOTE]--Me
Ugh i feel so bad right now
Do you
think
Jamine would ever forgive me...
--Emily
for?
--Me
attempting suicide
if i told her
--Emily
no. she wouldnt. go to bed.
--Me
and it wasnt only once
it was 4
--Emily
go to beddd
--Me
why
Emily is offline.
[/QUOTE]
Just what the hell...
Wow redux. Terrible friend.
[QUOTE=PN_Redux;25930621]Ugh this is what I have to deal with when I just try and talk to my friends about me being down
Just what the hell...[/QUOTE]
Got Windows Live? Talk to me
[QUOTE=D0C H.;25930762]Wow redux. Terrible friend.[/QUOTE]
Yeah youre telling me.
[QUOTE=Smooth-e;25930785]Got Windows Live? Talk to me[/QUOTE]
Im sorry but i dont have one. I would talk but its getting late for me and i have school in the morning. Is it ok if I pm you later?
[QUOTE=PN_Redux;25930917]Yeah youre telling me.
Im sorry but i dont have one. I would talk but its getting late for me and i have school in the morning. Is it ok if I pm you later?[/QUOTE]
No.. oh alright, but you'll probably forget :smith:
This thread really doesn't deserve to die :smith:
[QUOTE=PN_Redux;25930621]Ugh this is what I have to deal with when I just try and talk to my friends about me being down
Just what the hell...[/QUOTE]
Get friends that are better listeners.
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