I wouldn't care if they did drugs but I pretty much agree with you Badger
One more thing.
My father has diabetes, type one. That means that this is entirely a malfunction of his body, having nothing to do with weight. He is an avid runner, running many marathons and an Iron Man, which consists of swimming 2.6 miles, biking 112, then running a marathon. The diabetes is wearing down his body, however, and he will probably die a bit earlier than most, due to the diabetes wearing down his vital organs.
This makes me very depressed, and it seems that I am dreading the future because of this.
Boy, I thought this thread was about literally getting something off your physical chest. Now that I actually took the time to read the threads purpose, I feel better now that I posted something. I was going to post something else, but I forgot. Thanks a ton OP. You're making me feel much better.
I have herpes of the eyes
[QUOTE=redBadger;25963818]Whenever I try to get into a relation, there is always some reason why I cannot date a person I love.[/quote] Firstly, when you are not experienced with dating it may seem like that but I very much doubt you like this person how much you convinced yourself you do. Quite often people convince themselves they are head over heels with a person, make too big a deal of it and then destroy any chance of been with that person. I used to do that a lot, now I just am calm, relaxed and things come much easier. Just treat each girl you are interested in as another girl, don't intentionally treat her differently. To ask her out do not make it a big deal, even if you have next to no redeeming features (not directed at you in particular, just generally) a girl will accept a date just to see what happens (happens more often once you get older). Even if the date doesn't lead to anything it still ends up been a nice meal out with a friend. It is only a big deal if you make it a big deal. I can remember my first date as I was so nervous I ruined it. Don't do that.
[quote]Most recent; new girl came into school. She seemed to have a killer personality, which I really liked. About two weeks later (note I made almost no progress in getting to know this girl), I find out from a good friend of mine who is also a good friend of hers that she smokes weed, cigarettes, and drinks. I thought I could ignore such a thing, but as it turns out, I cannot. I'm currently in the phase of starting to lose interest. Inside, I am too much of a good person inside to even consider smoking or drinking.
[/quote] If you have standards there is no point lowering them just to get a girlfriend, always wait for one that is right as she is. Also if you were interested in her you should talk to her, not intentionally to ask her out but it is always good to talk to everyone. The most people you talk to the more naturally you will be able to just spark up a conversation with people.
[quote]Previous to her however, I liked this really nice girl who seemed to have similar interested in things I enjoy, one being music. There was one major obstruction however, and that was the fact that someone else liked her, and she liked him back. Since her parents are pretty strict, she could not date until the tenth grade, yet they still acted like they dated. Now of course, they are still together, and I have no doubt that they will be with each other for awhile.[/quote] If two people like each other the worst thing you can do is try and get in the middle of it. Best thing to do is take a step back if they will get together. There are billions more girls out there so loosing 1 is no big deal.
[quote]Previous to her, I liked this girl who had no similar interests as I.
I don't have any balls or any real self-confidence. I get so nervous around a girl I like, and it is hard to express myself to her. This is about half of my problem when it comes to dating. The other half is that I seem to like people who are nothing like me.[/quote] If you went out with someone that was exactly like you it would be boring as hell, you have much more to talk to with people that are different than you. Also just don't be nervous, why is this girl any different to the others? There is no reason to be nervous talking to her since (if she likes you as well) she is probably nervous talking to you as well. Best thing to do is treat her like all your other female friends. Girls like to feel relaxed around guys and for it not be be awkward.
[quote]It seems every person I come in contact with, and if it happens I turn to like the person, there is always something that brings me down from actually getting to know/date the person. I look for a nice person, maybe someone a tad bit shy. I cannot live with myself if I date someone who does drugs. I wish something can go right for me for once.[/quote] By the sound of things you are still young, I have met many, many people at University (aged 20+) who have never had a date and they are perfectly nice people, just never met the person that they click with. A date doesn't have to be much, it is more to test whether you like spending time with a person.
[quote]Oh and one more thing, sometimes I think my dad is a major asshole. At night, he will suddenly turn to a dick when the rest of the day he is cool. Just had to let that one loose.[/QUOTE]
Suspect 90% of FP have stuff like that as well. Is just life.
[editline]10th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Chezhead;25963909]One more thing.
My father has diabetes, type one. That means that this is entirely a malfunction of his body, having nothing to do with weight. He is an avid runner, running many marathons and an Iron Man, which consists of swimming 2.6 miles, biking 112, then running a marathon. The diabetes is wearing down his body, however, and he will probably die a bit earlier than most, due to the diabetes wearing down his vital organs.
This makes me very depressed, and it seems that I am dreading the future because of this.[/QUOTE]
I am currently training someone to fence with type one diabetes with very little issue. He has had it since he was around 15 (currently 20's I think) and he is doing fine. As long as your dad manages his diabetes there shouldn't be anything to worry about.
Think the only issue we had was when his insulin pump got hit with a blade and he had to replace the cartridge in it...
Random that is some good bit of information you have there. Thanks a ton, I'll definitely keep all that in mind.
Also, I'm 16 in March.
You know what, sure. I have a fuckload of shit to get off my chest, you're as good a people as anyone to vent my spleen all over?
All you faggots telling people that they're awesome? That they can do anything? [b]Get the fuck out[/b]. All you kids looking for advice? You want to know if you should ask that girl out?
My advice? [b]Don't bother. She's just going to laugh in your face, and you'll be worse off for it[/b]. Life is designed to fuck you over. We're in a world where you can do everything in you power, you can study your ass off. Work late every night and die at age 60 from the strain. And you'll still have made less than Justin Beiber makes from a day sitting on his ass grinning like a retard. You don't like that? Get used to it, because unless you win the life lottery, you're not getting anything better.
All you positive motherfuckers? You know I took your damn advice [b]5 years ago?[/b] I tried that shit.
I was a fucking failure, a socially retarded fat guy with no aspirations who just wanted to sit on his ass and browse the net. I was really depressed, afraid of social situations, I lived in my bedroom and did nothing all day every day.
But I went for it, I decided I was awesome and I actually went for it. I finished what you yanks call High School and went to study at University. I started giving a shit what I wore and sorting out my image. I was away from a home I hated, moved to the big city and striving out into the world. I finished my course early because it wasn't what I wanted and instead landed what can only be the job of my fucking dreams. I took a gamble and it paid off. Awesome job, awesome people, awesome setting. Awesome everything. I moved to the City of Oxford near London. Look it up, it's an amazing city. It was a joy to wake up each morning and know I was going to be in this damned city. I moved there with my girl who I'd been with for 4 1/2 years, we'd been living together for 3 1/2 years.
Living in my own flat in the coolest city on the fucking planet, working in the job of my dreams and coming home to the the perfect woman every night. Fuck yeah. Being awesome is awesome.
In the space of 3 months I lost it all. I lost my job, while I was trying to find another one, my girlfriend went to Ethiopia with a charity group (it had been planned like 6 months earlier when everything was going so right) and came back saying that this wasn't what she wanted and she was leaving me. I couldn't afford to keep living in Oxford. I've had to move 200 miles cross country back in with my parents. I'm right back where I started. I'm depressed again, terrified of social situations again, I haven't left my house in 11 days.
And you know what? [b] It wasn't worth it[/b] The last 5 years, no matter how good they were, were never worth the come down. When I started out, I was mud. I was dirt. But I knew I was dirt and you know what? [b]that was fine[/b]. Going back to dirt after having your head in the clouds for 5 years is a heck of a way to fall.
Before, I was a social retard because I couldn't be bothered, I procrastinated on doing anything about it, I could get another round of counter strike in or something first. And now? I don't care. I don't care if I ever have a girlfriend again, I don't care if I have a great job or a big house. Because now I can only judge things on how much it will sting when I lose it and I WILL lose it. There is no permanence in this world and every high is followed by a fall. In the end [b]it hurts less to not try in the first place[/b].
Does what I say make you angry? Make you dislike me on principle? If it does that only means you're human. Realisations such as this can be painful. But the sooner you realise this. The less it hurts. Trust me.
[QUOTE=redBadger;25964560]Random that is some good bit of information you have there. Thanks a ton, I'll definitely keep all that in mind.
Also, I'm 16 in March.[/QUOTE]
I will be 22 in a few months so have lived though most teenage stuff, in a few years you look back on this stuff and realise it is not as bad a deal as you made it out to be. Bit like exams, I come from the UK so have to take GCSE's and A-levels and a few months after taking them I realised how they are no where near as bad as I thought they were. Have no effect on your life after a while and all the worry was for nothing.
At 16 just take life as it comes, it really is the most relaxing time in your life (even if University is by far the most fun) as most 16 year old's don't have the full weight of been independent on your shoulders yet.
Oh and take up a sport or a hobby if you don't already, no matter what it is, inside school or outside, find something you enjoy and keep at it. Makes life much easier, builds up confidence and social skills, most of all though gives you something to relax you..
I play trumpet and I am learning the piano. Music is probably the one thing I'm really good at. I love it, and I do not know what I would do without it.
[QUOTE=redBadger;25964765]I play trumpet and I am learning the piano. Music is probably the one thing I'm really good at. I love it, and I do not know what I would do without it.[/QUOTE]
I play electric and stand up bass and i guess im ok at it, if anything i apparently picked up string bass really quickly, and can play the songs in band as well as the two people that have been playing for 5 years can even though i only started 4 weeks ago... i feel my biggest interest is programming
[QUOTE=dj0wns;25964787]I play electric and stand up bass and i guess im ok at it... i feel my biggest interest is progromming[/QUOTE]
If you enjoy it does it make any difference if you are not fantastic at it? I am really bad at programming yet I quite enjoy it (unlike maths and music which I am good at but hate) so I did it at university.
[QUOTE=Random112358;25964852]If you enjoy it does it make any difference if you are not fantastic at it? [/QUOTE]
nope, but it can be a huge confidence boost if you are :downs:
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25964675]You know what, sure. I have a fuckload of shit to get off my chest, you're as good a people as anyone to vent my spleen all over?
All you faggots telling people that they're awesome? That they can do anything? [b]Get the fuck out[/b]. All you kids looking for advice? You want to know if you should ask that girl out?
My advice? [b]Don't bother. She's just going to laugh in your face, and you'll be worse off for it[/b]. Life is designed to fuck you over. We're in a world where you can do everything in you power, you can study your ass off. Work late every night and die at age 60 from the strain. And you'll still have made less than Justin Beiber makes from a day sitting on his ass grinning like a retard. You don't like that? Get used to it, because unless you win the life lottery, you're not getting anything better.
All you positive motherfuckers? You know I took your damn advice [b]5 years ago?[/b] I tried that shit.
I was a fucking failure, a socially retarded fat guy with no aspirations who just wanted to sit on his ass and browse the net. I was really depressed, afraid of social situations, I lived in my bedroom and did nothing all day every day.
But I went for it, I decided I was awesome and I actually went for it. I finished what you yanks call High School and went to study at University. I started giving a shit what I wore and sorting out my image. I was away from a home I hated, moved to the big city and striving out into the world. I finished my course early because it wasn't what I wanted and instead landed what can only be the job of my fucking dreams. I took a gamble and it paid off. Awesome job, awesome people, awesome setting. Awesome everything. I moved to the City of Oxford near London. Look it up, it's an amazing city. It was a joy to wake up each morning and know I was going to be in this damned city. I moved there with my girl who I'd been with for 4 1/2 years, we'd been living together for 3 1/2 years.
Living in my own flat in the coolest city on the fucking planet, working in the job of my dreams and coming home to the the perfect woman every night. Fuck yeah. Being awesome is awesome.
In the space of 3 months I lost it all. I lost my job, while I was trying to find another one, my girlfriend went to Ethiopia with a charity group (it had been planned like 6 months earlier when everything was going so right) and came back saying that this wasn't what she wanted and she was leaving me. I couldn't afford to keep living in Oxford. I've had to move 200 miles cross country back in with my parents. I'm right back where I started. I'm depressed again, terrified of social situations again, I haven't left my house in 11 days.
And you know what? [b] It wasn't worth it[/b] The last 5 years, no matter how good they were, were never worth the come down. When I started out, I was mud. I was dirt. But I knew I was dirt and you know what? [b]that was fine[/b]. Going back to dirt after having your head in the clouds for 5 years is a heck of a way to fall.
Before, I was a social retard because I couldn't be bothered, I procrastinated on doing anything about it, I could get another round of counter strike in or something first. And now? I don't care. I don't care if I ever have a girlfriend again, I don't care if I have a great job or a big house. Because now I can only judge things on how much it will sting when I lose it and I WILL lose it. There is no permanence in this world and every high is followed by a fall. In the end [b]it hurts less to not try in the first place[/b].
Does what I say make you angry? Make you dislike me on principle? If it does that only means you're human. Realisations such as this can be painful. But the sooner you realise this. The less it hurts. Trust me.[/QUOTE]
No offence but you seem like a miserable sod...
By the sound of it this stuff happened quite recently, if so they it is too early to make a judgement on your entire life based on recent events. Everyone has massive highs and massive lows, just gives you more experience and appreciation for the massive highs. If you managed to turn your life around once why not do it again? You seemed like you were happy before when you had a job, girlfriend and all that so why not do that again?
It was bad luck losing it all at once but you are unlikely to lose it all again.
Also it is a great idea to put 10% of everything you make into a separate account, only to be used when you really need it (for example losing your job) so you can go a while without a job while you try and find a new one.
Also yes I am one of the positive types (well at the moment, changes day by day).
[editline]10th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=dj0wns;25964875]nope, but it can be a huge confidence boost if you are :downs:[/QUOTE]
If you keep going it is not like you will get any worse at it. I started fencing 2 years ago and was crap at it when I started (very, VERY unfit) but after a few years I am ranked in the top 200 in the country and helping to coach people. Although that is probably a bad example as fitness isn't like musical ability...
My turn. This is Gmod and Facepunch-related;
Now I'm not one of the .. elite builders in the Contraptions thread, but all I asked was for help to make [url=http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1024674-SubmarBoat-(WIP)-(Needs-help)]this[/url] work as I have designed it.
It took me 4+ hours to build this thing, plus bug testing. It still has a load of bugs. I knew the risks of asking Facepunch's Contraptions section. It would get cut down by a shitload of negative comments. But I posted it anyway hoping some kind soul would come and say "Fire up a server and I'll come in and help you".
Alas, that didn't happen. I tried to keep it as a "Help Me!" thread instead of a "Tell me what you think" thread. What's worse, I was treated like a noob. A fucking noob! The feeling was very depressing.
It felt like I'm a failure, and every contraption I built is a failure. I'm surprised they didn't tell me to kill myself. But I try my best to ignore this and move on. It hasn't been easy.
So I say to them that I have been building since 8.3b. I am [b]no[/b] noob. Though I may still build like one. So what if I use PHX props? If it works I'll go with it.
I don't give a shit about 'attention to detail' like the fucking elite fags there. What was important to me was making that thing preform what I designed it to do. Plus it was the best I could think of.
Sure, I was thinking "sub" more than "boat" at the time. And I want to pull away from the noob way of making a sub, and the noob way of making a boat. But... I am what I am. I'm not an elite but I've built my share of contraptions.
[QUOTE=Random112358;25964926]
If you keep going it is not like you will get any worse at it. I started fencing 2 years ago and was crap at it when I started (very, VERY unfit) but after a few years I am ranked in the top 200 in the country and helping to coach people. Although that is probably a bad example as fitness isn't like musical ability...[/QUOTE]
its relatively the same... effort still contributes to ability. just on different scales
Wow, I just realised what a paranoid little freak I am.
I don't trust ANYONE (not even my parents), I hate working or being near other people, I hate talking, I hate everything that isn't related to my interests, I swear I just failed my Maths GCSE, I've got my Science this thursday. Im probably going to fail them too
I'd also kill ALOT of the people I know, and do the time for it
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25964675]
Does what I say make you angry? Make you dislike me on principle? If it does that only means you're human. Realisations such as this can be painful. But the sooner you realise this. The less it hurts. Trust me.[/QUOTE]
Let me be the first to respond: Fuck-that-shit. If you get spit in the face, you spit back. Does it kick you in the mud, you kick it it the nuts. Does it turn your back on you, shout so fucking loud that it has to turn back and learn that son of a bitch a lesson.
Your path isn't set in stone, and no one will force you a route. You create your own destiny and no one will take that away from you.
Bitch thinks she can get a better man? Fuck her, there is more fish in the ocean. You got a great job? Guess what you are an intelligent man, you can find a similar one and rock that shit to the ground.
Now you may think who is the courage wolf like man? Well a fucking nobody who enjoys the shit out of his life that others may deem pityful, but guess what I really could care less. When I look at the stars at night I see unexplained possibilities, one star for every path you can take. And one day that one star will fall and that one will be the path you deemed well.
So to answer the question if I dislike you for that text? No, I just see a bittered man who has been shattered. And that my friend is no laughing matter. Sure we all feel shit once in a while, but that doesn't mean we need to dwell in the self pity and stay in it forever.
I was at my girlfriends house. She was pissed the week before, because I didn't get any of her texts that she sent me. We were sitting on the couch, watching TV. I knew she was mad, and I knew I had to do something about it. I wanted to talk to her about it, But no, I sat there, quiet. About two minutes later she then broke up with me.
I knew it was coming :frown:
haha wow good job!
[QUOTE=GameDev;25965417]I was at my girlfriends house. She was pissed the week before, because I didn't get any of her texts that she sent me. We were sitting on the couch, watching TV. I knew she was mad, and I knew I had to do something about it. I wanted to talk to her about it, But no, I sat there, quiet. About two minutes later she then broke up with me.
I knew it was coming :frown:[/QUOTE]
Sounds like she had every intention of breaking up with you before you got there, not a lot you could of done. Still a bit crap for you though. Is not the end of the world, loads more girls out there and all that.
[QUOTE=Kaelnukem;25965190]Let me be the first to respond: Fuck-that-shit. If you get spit in the face, you spit back. Does it kick you in the mud, you kick it it the nuts. Does it turn your back on you, shout so fucking loud that it has to turn back and learn that son of a bitch a lesson.
Your path isn't set in stone, and no one will force you a route. You create your own destiny and no one will take that away from you.
Bitch thinks she can get a better man? Fuck her, there is more fish in the ocean. You got a great job? Guess what you are an intelligent man, you can find a similar one and rock that shit to the ground.
Now you may think who is the courage wolf like man? Well a fucking nobody who enjoys the shit out of his life that others may deem pityful, but guess what I really could care less. When I look at the stars at night I see unexplained possibilities, one star for every path you can take. And one day that one star will fall and that one will be the path you deemed well.
So to answer the question if I dislike you for that text? No, I just see a bittered man who has been shattered. And that my friend is no laughing matter. Sure we all feel shit once in a while, but that doesn't mean we need to dwell in the self pity and stay in it forever.[/QUOTE]
Not to belittle you or anything, but stars? destiny? Please. It's shit like that which put me where I am. If you're that high up it's easy to see the stars and use them for corny metaphors.
Come back when all that has gone wrong and you're back in the dirt. [b]Everybody falls.[/b]
[i]BONUS[/i]
I'm not dwelling in self pity. I don't want people to pity me. I just want to see if I can bring a few more people round to the same shades of grey and think for a moment that maybe, just maybe life isn't worth living. I consider it a public service with the devil on my shoulder.
[QUOTE=GameDev;25965417]I was at my girlfriends house. She was pissed the week before, because I didn't get any of her texts that she sent me. We were sitting on the couch, watching TV. I knew she was mad, and I knew I had to do something about it. I wanted to talk to her about it, But no, I sat there, quiet. About two minutes later she then broke up with me.
I knew it was coming :frown:[/QUOTE]
At least she did it in person, in her own house, where you will never need to go again. That way you won't be reminded, simply by being there.
[QUOTE=rapperkid04;25880513]I hate the fact that I spend less time thinking about girls I've had and more time thinking about the ones that got away.
Even more so since I still can't change that cycle.[/QUOTE]
I know this feeling. To this day I'm still jumpy around police sirens.
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25965524]Not to belittle you or anything, but stars? destiny? Please. It's shit like that which put me where I am. If you're that high up it's easy to see the stars and use them for corny metaphors.
Come back when all that has gone wrong and you're back in the dirt. [b]Everybody falls.[/b]
[i]BONUS[/i]
I'm not dwelling in self pity. I don't want people to pity me. I just want to see if I can bring a few more people round to the same shades of grey and think for a moment that maybe, just maybe life isn't worth living. I consider it a public service with the devil on my shoulder.[/QUOTE]
normally I'd feel bad for you but your just a miserable prick who tries to make himself feel better by making other people become miserable too.
You know what most people do? When they fall down, it doesn't matter how hard, they get back up. Even if they fail again, they still have lived infinitely more than a man who resigns himself to his mother's house.
I despise posters with over a thousand posts within their first year of membership, and posters who reach 2,000 posts before they've reached 2 years. There are very few good posters who are either one of those.
Going out in public makes me depressed, extremely depressed and nervous
[QUOTE=Kiwi Bird;25967482]I despise posters with over a thousand posts within their first year of membership, and posters who reach 2,000 posts before they've reached 2 years. There are very few good posters who are either one of those.[/QUOTE]
:colbert:
[QUOTE=TehSpah;25967525]Going out in public makes me depressed, extremely depressed and nervous[/QUOTE]
depressed and extremely depressed?
i guess you can say your extremely depressed depressed
[QUOTE=BagMinge104;25967583]depressed and extremely depressed?
i guess you can say your extremely depressed depressed[/QUOTE]
Yea, we can if you want to
My girlfriend hasn't been acting like herself lately, and it's really bugging me. I keep asking her what's wrong, but she says that she's fine, when she's obviously not. Some other prick at school has been hitting on her, and I confronted him about it. He apologized, saying that he didn't know. Honestly, I don't believe that he got the message, and that he may have said something to her to make her question my honesty. Or something. I'm pretty stressed about it.
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