I'm bored, and I'm now going to start ranting about crappy things in my life, if you don't want to, don't read it, it can be quite boring and silly..
Anyway, the thing that probably bother me the most is how incredibly little I say, if you'd ask all my friends, they would agree on that fact.
I don't know why I don't talk much, I never tell anyone how I feel about things and I really never open up to anyone, not to mention, I don't think I have ever screamed at someone outright, one example is when some random person is being generally annoying at school or on the buss, I just tell them to stop, if they don't stop, I just keep quite and ignore them instead of actually doing something about it.
What's even more sad is that I often find myself sitting home talking to myself, I just never go to parties, I get invited to sleep overs and movie nights and alike all the time, but I never actually accept any of them, same goes when someone calls and asks if I wanna hang out, I rarely go out, I instead make up some excuse and sit home by myself.
I don't know why I do those things, I'm not the bit socially awkward, I have no problems talking to girls or anything, heck, nearly half of my friends are female, I just always find myself automatically declining invites to parties and such. Hell, it's been nearly 6 months since I hung out with anyone outside school.
And it all results in me sitting home by myself wondering why the hell I'm sitting there in the first place when I have tons of friends to hang out with, I just sit here, feeling lonely and like nobody gives a shit about me, even though that's not true.
My friends are great people, they're always trying to cheer anyone who's sad up, there's probably not a single person who could care more about people then them.
In short: I'm an massive introvert and I hate it. :frown:
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A lot of these posts are about people getting friend zone'd, but there seriously is not a single girl that really interests me
The only reason for which I'd try to get a relationship is because either, she's hot and I want to fuck her, or because she likes me (relationship just to have a relationship)
I got my hair cut [media]http://imgur.com/nkSBR.jpg[/media][media]http://imgur.com/Tj1Je.jpg[/media]
Just made a thread here on Facepunch.
and am now feeling nervous because im just paranoid when i do that...
Did i spell wrong, did something sound completely stupid, will i get Loads of boxes that i actually could build a house with them?
thats what i would like to get of my chest. Thx for this thread
[QUOTE=Kiwi Bird;25969874]One look at your avatar has proved my point[/QUOTE]
Avatars =/= posts.
[QUOTE=Error_404;25972644]We haven't even played together yet properly, but in about two weeks we'll be spending a couple of days a week playing together; should be able to come up with some stuff pretty quickly.
Do you guys have any songs recorded or uploaded?
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WTF? How have I managed to get pageking on 21, 22 and 25?[/QUOTE]
Yeah I made a page in the music section a while back, but that's been pushed back a few pages. Here's our myspace, we've got a song with all of us playing that I wrote, an instrumental with our bassist/producer playing everything, and a pretty crappy Porcupine Tree cover.
[URL="http://www.myspace.com/artificialnight"]www.myspace.com/artificialnight[/URL]
We're actually playing at the Northern Sound System in Elizabeth tonight if you're interested.
I'm quite shy when it comes to talking to people, even more so when it comes to women. Most of my friends consist of people with interests similar to mine, mostly male. I've never had a proper girlfriend nor would I know where to come about one by socializing with new people. The one girl I like only considers me a friend as far as I know, sometimes I feel like she hates me despite continuing to hang out with me when I ask. Maybe it's just me doubting any girl would be interested in a cynical asshole like me. Don't get me wrong, I'd happily be friends with her, but with her going to Uni and stuff I just feel like I'm interfering with her new found university social life and it kills me because she is someone I would love to be friends with despite our primary common interest not being gaming. xD
Well, it's hardly anything big compared to how depressing this thread is overall, but my friends and I are just about on the edge of being sixteen (as in some are and some aren't...). I'm sixteen, but I don't have a license yet, and am going to get one in a few weeks, but until then, I still have to walk to lunch.
The group of my friends that always goes and eats lunch together pretty much died today, when one of my friends was finally allowed to drive to school, and picked up a few of them for lunch. The others apparently felt the need to disperse as well... Meaning me and one other friend were left.
Of course, no one told me... even though, one of their classes right before lunch is right down the hallway, and they could have told me with minimal difficulty, before going out...
I hate when people don't inform me that something I am expected to do suddenly changes...
[QUOTE=nikoPSK;25981007]I got my hair cut [media]http://imgur.com/nkSBR.jpg[/media][media]http://imgur.com/Tj1Je.jpg[/media][/QUOTE]
Looks better short.
Continuing the post about my mom ([url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1023314-The-get-stuff-off-of-your-chest-thread.?p=25895923&highlight=#post25895923)...Today[/url] I got a letter about the information for my college account changing. The address is hers and she's apparently trying to take the money for herself, even though that would make it impossible for me to afford college. I wish she would stop hurting me but it doesn't seem like that will ever happen.
[editline]10th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=nikoPSK;25981007]I got my hair cut [media]http://imgur.com/nkSBR.jpg[/media][media]http://imgur.com/Tj1Je.jpg[/media][/QUOTE]
looks much better!
Doing theatre was awesome in High School. Everyone was open and friendly and accepting.
In college, it fucking SUCKS. My University's theatre company is run by a bunch of fucking self-centered queens, and the head faculty of the theatre department are cunts.
Suck my clit, Professor Elman. You're a bitch.
I'm tired of the kids in my age group. I walk around my school (I'm a sophomore) and it bugs me how ignorant and impolite most of the people in my age group are. All the guys think they can get every girl even though they treat them like they're garbage. What ever happened to being a gentleman? I'm extremely polite to women, I hold doors open for any girl, I compliment all of my friends (girls) on how nice they look, and because of that, I have a girlfriend who has sex with me at the drop of a hat. So while I'm at home eating a turkey and swiss sandwich and having sex with my girlfriend, these kids are trying to get a girl by treating them like trash. People need to learn how to be a model citizen with respect for themselves, and have morals.
And I'm extremely tired of emofags thinking they're not like everyone else. You conformed to a group of people exactly like you. Being yourself is the greatest thing in the world. Even if you don't have a specific clique of friends, at least you can be what makes you comfortable and not try to keep up with the crowd. Individuality is the only REAL thing you have in life, take advantage of it.
Sorry for rage.
we have a lot in common, and we both can be witty and charm each other.
we both have a physical attraction towards each other, and we have sexxed on occasions.
but yet, you're too involved with some girl in some state that you only see twice a year.
what the fuck bro.
I'm always the last one picked for dodgeball.
Every.
Fucking.
Time.
I've had this one girl that I've liked since I was in high school 10th grade, but she had friendzoned me and led me on for a long time. Then I've now just taken up the initiative to stop giving a fuck about her. Especially since she's the kind of girl who dates an asshole, comes and cries to me about it wondering why she's treated this way. I've been open arms to her but she can just forget it; she can be damned to abusive boyfriends while I go and make someone else the happiest girl on the planet.
[QUOTE=nikoPSK;25981007]I got my hair cut [media]http://imgur.com/nkSBR.jpg[/media][media]http://imgur.com/Tj1Je.jpg[/media][/QUOTE]
You'll probably get a better reception from the general population, but in my opinion the long hair looked in a way better. What I would've done is keeping it long but get it shortened a tat bit, a bit like this guy: [img]http://img2.timeinc.net/ew/dynamic/imgs/050913/163653__sawyer_l.jpg[/img]
But dont listen to me, I have longer hair than you had.
[editline]11th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Dank Dave;25984086]Continuing the post about my mom ([url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/1023314-The-get-stuff-off-of-your-chest-thread.?p=25895923&highlight=#post25895923)...Today[/url] I got a letter about the information for my college account changing. The address is hers and she's apparently trying to take the money for herself, even though that would make it impossible for me to afford college. I wish she would stop hurting me but it doesn't seem like that will ever happen.
[editline]10th November 2010[/editline]
looks much better![/QUOTE]
ARen't those accounts usely co-op owned, as in both parents. Can't you ask your dad to contact the bank and freeze the account? That way you at least know it won't be spend on useless crap.
[editline]11th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25965524]Not to belittle you or anything, but stars? destiny? Please. It's shit like that which put me where I am. If you're that high up it's easy to see the stars and use them for corny metaphors.
Come back when all that has gone wrong and you're back in the dirt. [b]Everybody falls.[/b]
[i]BONUS[/i]
I'm not dwelling in self pity. I don't want people to pity me. I just want to see if I can bring a few more people round to the same shades of grey and think for a moment that maybe, just maybe life isn't worth living. I consider it a public service with the devil on my shoulder.[/QUOTE]
Well if it isn't self pity what is it then? You seem like a cynic who's poison is to get out of bed every day.
There are so many stars, the metaphor being it is every option you didn't take, you failed or that is ahead. And I think I made myself clear that you make your own way and that no one or no force can take that away from you.
In my 18 years of life I feel like I have witnessed stuff that would double my life experience. If you honestly want to hear it all, go ahead and ill try to answer as honest as possible. But just take my word that my life hasn't been peaches either.
And yes everything falls even mighty empires, but do you know what happens next? On those very ''faulty'' foundations there is build a new empire, who will no doubt make a few mistakes the old one made as well but that doesn't stop it from flourishing. Cause that is what humans do, they just keep on going till they die.
geez, where do i start..
ever since an 6th grade, iv been introverted and unsocial. not the kind of guy who parties hard or even talks to people for that matter. i mean i talk to my friends a lot, but when it comes to girls i cant start a conversation for shit. and when i am thinking whether i should talk to a girl or not, i over-think it. i think about how she would respond to what iv said, will she find me weird, will she take offense to what iv said, will i say something stupid, will i stammer like an idiot during the conversation, etc. so instead of talking to a girl, i think about all the things that could possibly go wrong, and i get discouraged.
then there was this girl who was in my 7th grade class who i had a giant crush on, but could never work up the guts to ask her out or even really talk to her. well, we started talking to each other this year, and we were having great conversations that lasted for hours. well, i finally asked her if she would like to go see a movie with me or something along those lines, and she said she would think about it. now, i am happy as hell and feeling high on life at this moment, because iv finally done what i ave wanted to do for 4 years. one week later, her Facebook account disappears, and i haven't heard from her for a while now. now iv got this feeling that she deleted her account because of me, and that she was never really enjoying the conversations we were having. just bearing them.
its like people go at great lengths just to avoid me.
[QUOTE=bob4life;25986317]geez, where do i start..
ever since an 6th grade, iv been introverted and unsocial. not the kind of guy who parties hard or even talks to people for that matter. i mean i talk to my friends a lot, but when it comes to girls i cant start a conversation for shit. and when i am thinking whether i should talk to a girl or not, i over-think it. i think about how she would respond to what iv said, will she find me weird, will she take offense to what iv said, will i say something stupid, will i stammer like an idiot during the conversation, etc. so instead of talking to a girl, i think about all the things that could possibly go wrong, and i get discouraged.
then there was this girl who was in my 7th grade class who i had a giant crush on, but could never work up the guts to ask her out or even really talk to her. well, we started talking to each other this year, and we were having great conversations that lasted for hours. well, i finally asked her if she would like to go see a movie with me or something along those lines, and she said she would think about it. now, i am happy as hell and feeling high on life at this moment, because iv finally done what i ave wanted to do for 4 years. one week later, her Facebook account disappears, and i haven't heard from her for a while now. now iv got this feeling that she deleted her account because of me, and that she was never really enjoying the conversations we were having. just bearing them.
its like people go at great lengths just to avoid me.[/QUOTE]
Something I've learned is that when you're depressed, you generally tend to be more paranoid about stuff than usual. Her deleting her Facebook account doesn't mean she hates you; it's just the possibility that makes you feel the worst, so you tend to believe that.
I've had about as much luck as you when it comes to girls, so I'd take this advice with a grain of salt, but just talk to her again about it. The next time you see her in person ask her if she is still thinking about it. You never know, she may have just forgotten, and she may say yes.
There was this girl who moved away for a year, and she's in my class this year. Beforehand, we had just been friends, but now I saw something in her. Things were going great.
But she used to be "I love you more than anything and I want your firstborn child" and, as of about a month ago, she can't stop talking about how much she hates me and what a bad person I am, even though she still hangs out with me and all that. Can't even bring herself to hug me anymore. What the hell happened?
I have a wicked mean streak, abnormally so. It only comes out when I'm real angry at something but I hate when it shows, for example last year this kid got really drunk in my room and I wanted him to leave because it was finals week, he said he didn't have to and when I threatened to call the cops he threw an open beer can into my stuff so in my fit of rage I almost hit him over the head with a cinder-block that I used as a door stop. I was able to catch myself and keep cool but it was a level of sheer disrespect that I've never experienced before. Now I feel like the people who know about it and were there view me differently even though I'm completely harmless normally, I know I view myself differently now.
My father has recently been diagnosed with Hepatitis B, cancer in the liver.
My mother offered me school counselling, but I hate discussing my feelings to others.
So I feel this is not discussing, it is just getting it off my chest.
I needed to write it down somewhere. Gosh I feel good now!
I sometimes tell other girls that other girls are whores and vice versa so I start a shitstorm for my enjoyment.
The longest shitstorm lasted 3 weeks and 2 days
[QUOTE=bob4life;25986317]stuff[/QUOTE]
I've had that problem, and talking to someone you'd like as a significant other is much harder when you're interested in guys as adding on to the fact you just don't know what to say or do is that finding another is harder than just finding a girl.
You just gotta slowly work your way out and be more open. Little steps.
[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;25988176]I sometimes tell other girls that other girls are whores and vice versa so I start a shitstorm for my enjoyment.
The longest shitstorm lasted 3 weeks and 2 days[/QUOTE]
Reminds me of how I called this girl a whore last year, and some jackass who was hanging out with my group of friends that day decided to go tell her. Then her and her group of friends came over acting tough and kicked my shins a bit (They're really short). It was really funny, especially when all the jocks came up to me insisting that she wasn't a whore, even though all her clothes were a few sizes too small, showing off every part of her body. She still hates me :v:
I've never had much interest in dating anybody. I'm pretty sure its killing my parents - they're asking me often why I don't find somebody.
I get tense around girls often and act like an idiot, and even though many girls are interested in me and approach me, they quickly think twice because I am so shy. ):
EDIT:
LOL, why would someone possibly disagree with me? It's like, I say the problem and suddenly
"No, you're wrong".
Ok?
[QUOTE=Dashiel;25972495]Why the FUCK can't online advertisers target their fucking advertising? I'm sick and tired of seeing video ads before videos for American companies, it's not that hard to check what region the IP viewing the video is coming from and show an advertisement that is appropriate. It's a waste of both their bandwith and my time, I mean.. Do they really think I'm ever going to use generic loan company 2033? No.[/QUOTE]
It's great that you got that off your chest.
I just left my girlfriend and i feel like it was the wrong decision :frown: But i don't want to get back together because we might just fall out again...
I don't know what to do :smith:
My grandfather died yesterday.
I still don't give a shit.
-snip- my chest is full of shit.
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