[QUOTE=SuPeR_MaN;25989042]I just left my girlfriend and i feel like it was the wrong decision :frown: But i don't want to get back together because we might just fall out again...
I don't know what to do :smith:[/QUOTE]
I made the same choice a while back. It turned out it was the right choice, but I still regret it. Ah well.
I have nothing to take off my chest, I have learned to keep it on my chest, and ultimately keeping it on my chest will make me stronger.
I have absolutely no friends, except for an online friend that lives nearby who I almost never see in person.
I occasionally doubt myself.
Sometimes, I have noticeable motivation drains.
But I know that I will eventually get out of this situation, that I will be able to defeat these pathetic minuscule problems that stand in my way. There is no way I am getting these pesky things off my chest, as a matter of fact I still have plenty of room for more. I am currently getting excellent grades, am constantly experimenting with various computer areas, and am completely satisfied with myself at the moment, realizing that I will only solve these difficulties by being persistent, motivated, and confident.
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25964675]You know what, sure. I have a fuckload of shit to get off my chest, you're as good a people as anyone to vent my spleen all over?
All you faggots telling people that they're awesome? That they can do anything? [b]Get the fuck out[/b]. All you kids looking for advice? You want to know if you should ask that girl out?
My advice? [b]Don't bother. She's just going to laugh in your face, and you'll be worse off for it[/b]. Life is designed to fuck you over. We're in a world where you can do everything in you power, you can study your ass off. Work late every night and die at age 60 from the strain. And you'll still have made less than Justin Beiber makes from a day sitting on his ass grinning like a retard. You don't like that? Get used to it, because unless you win the life lottery, you're not getting anything better.
All you positive motherfuckers? You know I took your damn advice [b]5 years ago?[/b] I tried that shit.
I was a fucking failure, a socially retarded fat guy with no aspirations who just wanted to sit on his ass and browse the net. I was really depressed, afraid of social situations, I lived in my bedroom and did nothing all day every day.
But I went for it, I decided I was awesome and I actually went for it. I finished what you yanks call High School and went to study at University. I started giving a shit what I wore and sorting out my image. I was away from a home I hated, moved to the big city and striving out into the world. I finished my course early because it wasn't what I wanted and instead landed what can only be the job of my fucking dreams. I took a gamble and it paid off. Awesome job, awesome people, awesome setting. Awesome everything. I moved to the City of Oxford near London. Look it up, it's an amazing city. It was a joy to wake up each morning and know I was going to be in this damned city. I moved there with my girl who I'd been with for 4 1/2 years, we'd been living together for 3 1/2 years.
Living in my own flat in the coolest city on the fucking planet, working in the job of my dreams and coming home to the the perfect woman every night. Fuck yeah. Being awesome is awesome.
In the space of 3 months I lost it all. I lost my job, while I was trying to find another one, my girlfriend went to Ethiopia with a charity group (it had been planned like 6 months earlier when everything was going so right) and came back saying that this wasn't what she wanted and she was leaving me. I couldn't afford to keep living in Oxford. I've had to move 200 miles cross country back in with my parents. I'm right back where I started. I'm depressed again, terrified of social situations again, I haven't left my house in 11 days.
And you know what? [b] It wasn't worth it[/b] The last 5 years, no matter how good they were, were never worth the come down. When I started out, I was mud. I was dirt. But I knew I was dirt and you know what? [b]that was fine[/b]. Going back to dirt after having your head in the clouds for 5 years is a heck of a way to fall.
Before, I was a social retard because I couldn't be bothered, I procrastinated on doing anything about it, I could get another round of counter strike in or something first. And now? I don't care. I don't care if I ever have a girlfriend again, I don't care if I have a great job or a big house. Because now I can only judge things on how much it will sting when I lose it and I WILL lose it. There is no permanence in this world and every high is followed by a fall. In the end [b]it hurts less to not try in the first place[/b].
Does what I say make you angry? Make you dislike me on principle? If it does that only means you're human. Realisations such as this can be painful. But the sooner you realise this. The less it hurts. Trust me.[/QUOTE]
They need to add another word to the dictionary. 'pessimist' just doesn't fit you enough.
[QUOTE=***zer0***;25879498]I nerdrage [b]BADLY[/b] everytime someone does something like this.
For example, i have a friend who has never touched a single fallout game , yet he bought a vaultboy figure. (Well, he has seen me playing fallout 2, [b]O N C E [/b])
And as i was visiting him, he told me to check out his pip-boy.
[img_thumb]http://i161.photobucket.com/albums/t221/AbusePuppy/NerdRage.jpg[/img_thumb][/QUOTE]
Somehow that reminded me of a freind i know, back then i used to say alot of nazi jokes or impersonate hitler cause it was funny then the guy started to post all kinds of nazi material on his facebook and changed his msn pic of hitler saluting and it felt akward and then he started sucking up to me and stuff, but he moved on from that, but wow, im so badass i had a small cult of personality.
I've been sick for the past few days.
I haven't been able to do anything or see anyone and that makes me sad.
[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25964675]You know what, sure. I have a fuckload of shit to get off my chest, you're as good a people as anyone to vent my spleen all over?
All you faggots telling people that they're awesome? That they can do anything? [b]Get the fuck out[/b]. All you kids looking for advice? You want to know if you should ask that girl out?
My advice? [b]Don't bother. She's just going to laugh in your face, and you'll be worse off for it[/b]. Life is designed to fuck you over. We're in a world where you can do everything in you power, you can study your ass off. Work late every night and die at age 60 from the strain. And you'll still have made less than Justin Beiber makes from a day sitting on his ass grinning like a retard. You don't like that? Get used to it, because unless you win the life lottery, you're not getting anything better.
All you positive motherfuckers? You know I took your damn advice [b]5 years ago?[/b] I tried that shit.
I was a fucking failure, a socially retarded fat guy with no aspirations who just wanted to sit on his ass and browse the net. I was really depressed, afraid of social situations, I lived in my bedroom and did nothing all day every day.
But I went for it, I decided I was awesome and I actually went for it. I finished what you yanks call High School and went to study at University. I started giving a shit what I wore and sorting out my image. I was away from a home I hated, moved to the big city and striving out into the world. I finished my course early because it wasn't what I wanted and instead landed what can only be the job of my fucking dreams. I took a gamble and it paid off. Awesome job, awesome people, awesome setting. Awesome everything. I moved to the City of Oxford near London. Look it up, it's an amazing city. It was a joy to wake up each morning and know I was going to be in this damned city. I moved there with my girl who I'd been with for 4 1/2 years, we'd been living together for 3 1/2 years.
Living in my own flat in the coolest city on the fucking planet, working in the job of my dreams and coming home to the the perfect woman every night. Fuck yeah. Being awesome is awesome.
In the space of 3 months I lost it all. I lost my job, while I was trying to find another one, my girlfriend went to Ethiopia with a charity group (it had been planned like 6 months earlier when everything was going so right) and came back saying that this wasn't what she wanted and she was leaving me. I couldn't afford to keep living in Oxford. I've had to move 200 miles cross country back in with my parents. I'm right back where I started. I'm depressed again, terrified of social situations again, I haven't left my house in 11 days.
And you know what? [b] It wasn't worth it[/b] The last 5 years, no matter how good they were, were never worth the come down. When I started out, I was mud. I was dirt. But I knew I was dirt and you know what? [b]that was fine[/b]. Going back to dirt after having your head in the clouds for 5 years is a heck of a way to fall.
Before, I was a social retard because I couldn't be bothered, I procrastinated on doing anything about it, I could get another round of counter strike in or something first. And now? I don't care. I don't care if I ever have a girlfriend again, I don't care if I have a great job or a big house. Because now I can only judge things on how much it will sting when I lose it and I WILL lose it. There is no permanence in this world and every high is followed by a fall. In the end [b]it hurts less to not try in the first place[/b].
Does what I say make you angry? Make you dislike me on principle? If it does that only means you're human. Realisations such as this can be painful. But the sooner you realise this. The less it hurts. Trust me.[/QUOTE]
If everyone thought the way you did, we would have still been wearing animal skins, had to hunt to get food, and lived in tribes.
[QUOTE=MindMuncher;25965750]At least she broke up with you in person, in her own house, where you will never need to go again. That way you won't be reminded, simply by being there.[/QUOTE]
Sorry to bump this, but I need to tell someone.
My ex-girlfriend broke up with me (few months ago) in my room a from few feet from where I'm sitting. Every second I'm in my room I think about it.
It hurts, FP.
I don't believe I am alive.
Warhol is a brainless dick
I am pretty much the only one on my school/region who is spending every saterday night behind a PC.
And i want to loose my virginity ASAP :saddowns:
After a year of practicing baseball everyday for 2 hours, all that hard work, was used for nothing. The team I tried out for didn't accept me. Now I've reverted back to the stay at home douche bag who sits on his computer all day. Fuck.
[QUOTE=kitthehacker;25981466]Yeah I made a page in the music section a while back, but that's been pushed back a few pages. Here's our myspace, we've got a song with all of us playing that I wrote, an instrumental with our bassist/producer playing everything, and a pretty crappy Porcupine Tree cover.
[URL="http://www.myspace.com/artificialnight"]www.myspace.com/artificialnight[/URL]
We're actually playing at the Northern Sound System in Elizabeth tonight if you're interested.[/QUOTE]
You guys sound pretty decent, better than most bands that have started out relatively early. The song "liquid kitten" has a pretty similar style to Porcupine Tree which is good.
I would've totally gone last night if it wasn't ages away (I'm in the Adelaide Hills) and I have a maths spec exam this morning.
I'M GOING TO FAIL MATHS SPECIALIST :smithicide:
[QUOTE=aliendrone123;25998452]After a year of practicing baseball everyday for 2 hours, all that hard work, was used for nothing. The team I tried out for didn't accept me. Now I've reverted back to the stay at home douche bag who sits on his computer all day. Fuck.[/QUOTE]
Is it your final year of high school? Can't you always try out again next season? There's also local teams in a lot of cities that are for teenagers. I say don't give up and keep practicing. You can only get better.
[QUOTE=Pascall;25993770]I've been sick for the past few days.
I haven't been able to do anything or see anyone and that makes me sad.[/QUOTE]
I wondered where you went. The ME thread got boring, get well soon Pascall.
[QUOTE=WeekendWarrior;25998726]I wondered where you went. The ME thread got boring, get well soon Pascall.[/QUOTE]
:h: Thanks.
When I'm at home, I always like to wear my cat ears.
I brought them once into class while wearing them, I got a few odd looks but it was amusing. Even had a girl who sat behind me stroke my head every once in a while when I was working.
[QUOTE=GreenDolphin;25999290]When I'm at home, I always like to wear my cat ears.
I brought them once into class while wearing them, I got a few odd looks but it was amusing. Even had a girl who sat behind me stroke my head every once in a while when I was working.[/QUOTE]
fuck I'm not the only one
I've bought my girlfriend a present every month on the day we began dating - today.
It's gone from a day celebrating 'us' to a day dedicated to her ego. She can't even spare a penny to show she cares, a homemade card or something would be enough. She still acts like an under-appreciated-victim everyday of her life, going on and on about how her dad left and people in general giving her a hard time. She always has someone to blame. I could ramble on for pages about everything that's wrong with the relationship, but the issue is it's me doing the giving and her all the taking, and the worst part is she thinks it's the other way around.
I'm too emotionally dependent to let go.
[QUOTE=munky91;25988509]I've never had much interest in dating anybody. I'm pretty sure its killing my parents - they're asking me often why I don't find somebody.[/QUOTE]
It's sort of the opposite for me. There's a girl I've liked since forever but one of the reasons I'm afraid to do anything is because my parents are quite protective and if I ever got a girlfriend then I'm sure they'd start nosing into all of my business.
[QUOTE=bopie;25999679]I've bought my girlfriend a present every month on the day we began dating - today.
It's gone from a day celebrating 'us' to a day dedicated to her ego. She can't even spare a penny to show she cares, a homemade card or something would be enough. She still acts like an under-appreciated-victim everyday of her life, going on and on about how her dad left and people in general giving her a hard time. She always has someone to blame. I could ramble on for pages about everything that's wrong with the relationship, but the issue is it's me doing the giving and her all the taking, and the worst part is she thinks it's the other way around.
I'm too emotionally dependent to let go.[/QUOTE]
She sounds like a whiny, self-obsessed bitch. Get rid. You can do better.
[QUOTE=bopie;25999679]I've bought my girlfriend a present every month on the day we began dating - today.
It's gone from a day celebrating 'us' to a day dedicated to her ego. She can't even spare a penny to show she cares, a homemade card or something would be enough. She still acts like an under-appreciated-victim everyday of her life, going on and on about how her dad left and people in general giving her a hard time. She always has someone to blame. I could ramble on for pages about everything that's wrong with the relationship, but the issue is it's me doing the giving and her all the taking, and the worst part is she thinks it's the other way around.
I'm too emotionally dependent to let go.[/QUOTE]
Stop taking her shit. I understand being attached to her, but you need to know that she's walking all over you. Stop the little presents if she isn't returning them. Stop the sympathy unless it's legitimate.
[QUOTE=bopie;25999679]I've bought my girlfriend a present every month on the day we began dating - today.
It's gone from a day celebrating 'us' to a day dedicated to her ego. She can't even spare a penny to show she cares, a homemade card or something would be enough. She still acts like an under-appreciated-victim everyday of her life, going on and on about how her dad left and people in general giving her a hard time. She always has someone to blame. I could ramble on for pages about everything that's wrong with the relationship, but the issue is it's me doing the giving and her all the taking, and the worst part is she thinks it's the other way around.
I'm too emotionally dependent to let go.[/QUOTE]
It'll be better for your health to kick her to the curb and tell her why. Maybe she'll understand why everyone leaves her if you let her know that all she does is complain that everyone leaves her.
I got rejected by a girl I particularly liked because I'm Atheist :sigh:
I FUCKIN HATE TARGET! I can't say this on facebook or anything out of the false hope that one day they actually will actually consider hiring me, but 4 interviews later what happens? Oh, I'm sorry, we still won't hire you, but this girl with a record of shoplifting? Welcome to the team!
i have a lot of friends that i can always talk to about anything at any time
just hooked up with a new girl and she's damn cute
starting school soon which will lead me to my dream job
PHEW felt good to get that off my chest!
okay here's what I want to get off my chest
fucking idiots in the Rememberance Day thread
can't you show some FUCKING respect jesus christ
that is all
i hate fat people.
[QUOTE=|FlapJack|;26000163]Stop taking her shit. I understand being attached to her, but you need to know that she's walking all over you. Stop the little presents if she isn't returning them. Stop the sympathy unless it's legitimate.[/QUOTE]
Remember- you can't spell sympathetic without pathetic!
Every other person tells me "you're weird" because I'm acting myself.
Fuck you normal people! :(
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