The get stuff off of your chest thread. - General

[QUOTE=Pascall;26151708]I would probably have to build it downtown, as that's the only place that would really get good business.[/QUOTE] build it where people spend a lot of money.

I think I feel a little bit better now, somehow, especially after that image from 4chan (forgot who posted it). It's just that I've spent a lot of time recently feeling depressed for no reason. Sure, there's been a bit of bullshit recently, but in the grand scheme of things it's nothing, especially when compared to things that other people are going through all the time. Then I realize that, and instead of feeling better, I feel worse, because I know I'm just being a selfish, melodramatic asshole. I recently started college. Since then, I've missed a lot of assignments, appointments, and in general things that are important to me. I'm actually kind of surprised I've gotten this far on the amount of procrastination I tend to do. However, I've gotten some news today (which would'nt have been news if I was a better student) that makes me a bit more optimistic in this regard. I'm really hoping I can finally get my shit together. What's really sad, though, is that I'm in college and [I]haven't been in a relationship before[/I]. Not one. This is mainly because I was an awkward nerd (in a sea of hicks) in middle school, and because I went to a nerdy high school (very few girls). Even in that high school, though, it's not like I was completely without options. Then I came to college, and I met this girl that's nice and shares my interests. Guess what happens next? I found out she has an abusive boyfriend, apparently one in a long chain. She eventually worked up the nerve to finish it, and to be honest, I wasn't sure when it'd be appropriate to even ask her out. I'm not sure how long I had, but it doesn't even matter anymore because I pretty much lost my chance. She started going out with this guy that we both know. Not that I could ask her out had it been someone else, but he's my friend, not only would breaking them up now be wrong, but what about after they break up (if they even will)? What will that do to our group, even? That whole situation had some bad timing, as well. A day or two later, I found out that one of my favorite teachers from that Godforsaken middle school died. We don't really talk anymore or anything, but during that time, she made a difference. In fact, that almost even makes me feel a little guilty, for not keeping a bit closer contact before. Once again, just listen to me. There are people out there with real problems, and I'm here complaining about this shit. I think there's something legitimately wrong with me. It's not just being depressed over nothing, either. I've been awkward as shit since middle school; it feels like I don't know how to act appropriately in situations involving people I don't know. Even when I do know them, I'm always afraid of saying something terrible. I got better in high school, but I still feel incredibly uncomfortable in most social situations. That, and nothing I can do can ever be good enough. I'm always screwing shit up (like the aforementioned social situations) and then I just can't forget about it. I can't let things go. I'm sure I'm just being paranoid about a good deal of it, but I can't know for sure. Subjectivity's a bitch. Things are kind of starting to look up academically, though. I found out I'm probably not near as close to failing out as I thought I was, and I'm starting to see what it takes to be succesful. I'm kind of wondering if it's not too late in a couple areas, however. Additionally, you know that girl I was talking about? Turns out I probably won't even be able to maintain a proper friendship for long. I just found out last night that she's running out of money, and probably won't be able to come back next semester. I've got other friends, but not many, and we haven't been hanging out as much. I should probably be spending that time doing important things, anyway. Like homework, or getting a job. I've got plenty of things to be doing, but in spite of that I waste most of my time in front of my computer, trying to think of a website I haven't checked for updates yet. Whatever. I just need to man up and get my shit together. Seriously, other people don't seem to be having such a hard time remembering to do what's important and generally keeping [I]their[/I] shit together. I don't see anyone else struggling with bullshit; I mean, this is the first time I've really talked about this publicly, but... you know? Though looking around here, it seems like I'm not alone in a good portion of this. Thank you for putting up with my wall of text.

I want to be disconnected from reality in some way Everything in my life is so dull, so boring. I want a change, I want to be able to do something different. Sure I love my friends, sure I like seeing them but I need a change. Day after day, week after week, year after year it's all the fucking same. There is nothing actually wrong with my life, I just want it to be shaken up a little, a change of pace. Maybe I could actually find a girl I [i]like[/i] for once, apart from my other shallow relationships. Hell, it doesn't even need to be a relationship, just a new group of people to hang with, a new routine, something to explore. I want to explore social life. I don't want to be better, older, smarter, anything like that. I don't want to move away, and I don't want to change myself. I just want to go in a new direction, start somewhere completely different. Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I had gone to a different high school, would my life be more exciting, chaotic or worse entirely.

i have webbed feet :gbsmith:

[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;26153303] I want to explore social life. I don't want to be better, older, smarter, anything like that. I don't want to move away, and I don't want to change myself. I just want to go in a new direction, start somewhere completely different.[/QUOTE] You always can... Walk up to some people and start talking... It's not hard. Hell, the hardest part by far would be to forget your old friends. Really, go for it! I want to see if you do! You can do it! Anyone could be a potential new friend (except those guys who look like they want to stab people)!

I've already started, I talked to one of my friends who I hang out with occasionally and asked if I could hang with him and his friends more often He said sure, as soon as my exams finish I'm going to have him and a bunch of his friends over the for night :)

[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;26168853]I've already started, I talked to one of my friends who I hang out with occasionally and asked if I could hang with him and his friends more often He said sure, as soon as my exams finish I'm going to have him and a bunch of his friends over the for night [/QUOTE] That's great to hear dude!

Thanks man :unsmith:

Typing that out made me realize, why didn't I ask her out when I had the goddamn chance? I'm such a stupid bitch.

Guys guys i had [b]girls[/b] over my house and we played black ops

I want to do something great to aid the whole world and attempt to end as much of the bad things I can. However, when I think about I realize a 15 year old who is extremely skinny and not that physically fit can't do much except go 34 kills and 10 deaths in a match of Black Ops and help my team win. What seems odd to me is that I'm so willing to sacrifice myself if it meant changing the lives of many for the greater good. Funny enough, I act like a cynical douche at school. I'm wondering if I'm doing that for some reason to hide that inner feeling of wanting to perform some act of heroism. Even though I know when I die I will fall into darkness, I still want to do SOMETHING before I go. I guess to sum it up, I want to do something to help our future, the children born and to be born, so that they don't have to live lives grasped by claws of shadow and instead experience the beauties of life. I wish others could realize that too and were willing to make some sort of sacrifice to attempt bringing more good into this world(there already is a lot) and make corruption and 'evil' a thing of the past. I'm rambling by now, and I doubt I'll be taken seriously since I'm just a kid. However, I just needed to get that feeling of mine out.

This isn't really bad but felt like posting it anyways a few months ago i met three people who basically became the best friends I've ever had. And I met them here on Facepunch. Over the past few months, there hasn't really been a night that we haven't talked via Skype and had fun and messed around being ourselves. We've shared some secrets and told each other a lot about our lives that we usually wouldn't share with anyone else. Two of them plan to move down here to my city so we can all share an apartment. These guys are pretty much my best friends, as weird as it seems. There's no one else I really talk to more than them. And honestly, I'm not afraid to say that. They are Loco, Makol, and TheBrokenHobo. BFFs for life. :h: Also Pruney, but I don't know much about him other than the fact that he sounds like John Lennon.

hearts :h:

[QUOTE=Cluckyx;25964675]shit shit shit more shit.[/QUOTE] Don't listen to this faggot, this is the exact person you don't want to end up like. Prove to your self you will not end up like this guy.

None of the neanderthal illiterates at my high school can tolerate someone with an IQ higher than 10. On some of the more depressingly auspicious of days I wish that my IQ was lower than 149. |FlapJack| I challenge your hastily granted rating.

When I was younger and got my first boner, I was shocked. So I went up to my mom and told her, "Wanna see a magic trick? I can make my pee-pee get bigger!" I had to let that one loose.

Mom. I ate the last piece of pie in the fridge. I'm so sorry.

[QUOTE=redBadger;26179048]When I was younger and got my first boner, I was shocked. So I went up to my mom and told her, "Wanna see a magic trick? I can make my pee-pee get bigger!" I had to let that one loose.[/QUOTE] I said something similar, only she replied with "It means you have to use the restroom."

[QUOTE=MasterQuief;25942269]sorry that i have friends that i can talk to and have a social life, but posting your awkward personal experiences on the internet isn't going to do shit. [editline]8th November 2010[/editline] get out and do something about it[/QUOTE] Most of these problems are experienced in a social life, stop being an ITG. If it bothers you than go have a five way whilst smoking crack and speeding because you're so popular and badass

I do not aggree with the way humans judge one another these days. I fucking hate the fact that society has sunken to a level where the only thing that matters is money. I hate how people decide how good of a person you are by looking at your grades. I am sick and tired of people looking down on me because I do not believe that grades matter at all, as long as you are a good person and aren't completely retarded. I am aware that you can't always get the job you want, but really, most jobs could be done by people with lower than average grades. We are nothing but numbers on a piece of paper to society. No one cares for anyone but themselves and their family. Heck, all of you people could die in a fire. I wouldn't even think about it, and i know that most people are like this. Cold, greedy, emotionless machines. That is what we are becoming. A lot of you are probably going to give me dumbs and disagrees but hey, that's how I feel about society.

Had my first date with this girl tonight, and even though we had a lovely time, I am totally turned off by how creepily religious she is. She told me that she was scared of cars, because one time when she was driving she saw the devil in the road and he made her crash. And she meant it literally. The Devil was there in-person, and was the [i]direct[/i] cause of her crash. Because, naturally, you'd swerve to avoid Satan. I'll probably keep hanging out with her, since there's no chance of a long term relationship anyway, what with me moving back to Missouri in a couple of weeks, but that kind of stuff makes me pretty damn uncomfortable. All I can think of to say in response to that sort of thing is, "Wow, you don't say? I guess that [i]would[/i] be scary!"

I got mad at someone for something someone else did over the most retarded reason ever. and now I think they're a bit annoyed at me which I would understand since I was being stupid. I'm a dick.

[QUOTE=PopLot;26175635]None of the neanderthal illiterates at my high school can tolerate someone with an IQ higher than 10. On some of the more depressingly auspicious of days I wish that my IQ was lower than 149. |FlapJack| I challenge your hastily granted rating.[/QUOTE] No offense, but calling others Neanderthals and making assumptions about your own intelligence can make you hard to get along with.

I chilled out with the girl I like the other day. Only if she didn't have a boyfriend :smith:

Damn, I hate hearing my mom talk about suicide. I wish I was able to write a book about the trials and tribulations of my mother's life. She's been through so much. Also, I hate posting sad things on here, I feel like it's attention whoring or something.

[QUOTE=john_frohman;25879994]I don't shower regularly. My armpits smell like ass when it's hot.[/QUOTE] your avatar fits your post. [editline]21st November 2010[/editline] my turn. Gran Torino made me cry. I fucking love Clint Eastwood. [editline]21st November 2010[/editline] [QUOTE=Big Dumb American;25896125]I am being medically discharged from the Army because my heart was badly damaged when it began swelling during physical training, causing it to press against my ribs, which are sunken into a bowl-like shape because of a birth defect called pectus excavatum. The pressure caused my heart to shift within my chest, damaging its walls. For the past ten months, I've been exhausting every possible option to appeal for the surgery I need to repair the damage, but the official stance the army has taken is that because what caused the actual damage was a birth defect, the condition will be labeled preexisting; or at best, aggravated. This means that I will be discharged from the service with either no additional benefits, or with separation pay amounting to no more than a few thousand dollars. All the die have been cast, and the Army's final decision on both my surgery and my continued service will be arriving Monday--though everybody already knows what the answer will be, and I'm likely to be back home in less than three weeks, wondering what the hell happened to the last fourteen months of my life and trying to figure out how to recover from it.[/QUOTE] shouldve joined the marines... But that sucks..

I feel very strange at the moment. I am stuck between two sides and I do not know what to do. During my childhood I had a few very good friends; we did everything together and had a great time. Some of them left the country, so we were 3 guys left but we found another great pal who fits quite well in our circle. It was a great time but now 2 of our guys went to a different school and I am left alone with the last one, some of them changed into idiots because they had new friends, so we ignored and kicked them. Still the rest of us meet up at times and we do things together like gaming, sometimes drinking, listening to music and occasional festivals and such. But recently I found my friends to be quite boring and egoistic, I feel like I do not fit to them anymore, still I knew them for over 12 years and I am quite attached to them. I have the feeling that they did not move on in their lives, they usually sit all day at home and play games and that is annoying because I kind of left that lifestyle, also they are quite aggressive towards other people and new things. So sometimes when we meet up I am really pissed of and annoyed because they behave stupid and claim to know everything. Although, for instance yesterday we went to a bar and played some pool at night, it was pretty cool and relaxing and I enjoyed the whole evening. I still like them a lot because they are not your generic folk walking around; we have different views on the world and act differently. I never wanted to be generic like the other people and that is a particular thing I love about them. Sorry if I may insult some people by using the word “normal”. With “normal” I mean the ordinary and simple. Nevertheless they are not interested in doing normal activities like for instance doing some sport, playing cards, meeting new people, going on holidays, talking to girls and so on. Furthermore I am quite a thinker and tend to philosophize about every little thing; I cannot satisfy myself by simply doing something. I seek friends who have a more “normal” life and do the “normal” activities that every adolescent does. Like I already mentioned, going out more often, meeting new friends, having a relationship and all that crap. I seek social contact and acceptance among people. Well, of course I have different friends and they are more "normal" like my own circle of friends. Sometimes I meet with them and go out with them, and then I feel pretty good because they tend to be more “normal”. Usually I get to know new people and awesome places and I enjoy the time with them. But these encounters are not happening to often and sometimes I feel like an “intruder” because I am the only new guy between all these people I get to know. I want to belong to them but I do not feel connected to them. It happens that this is the case with the most of my friends who are not in my circle of friends. Whenever these encounters are finished I feel pretty sad and homeless. A funny thing is that it is quite often the case that I meet tons of new folks but mostly I will not see them again or they do not remember me afterwards. I was always the more sociable guy in our circle of friends, I had girlfriends and I went out more often, I have experienced more things than my friends and I feel like my old friends are behind everything. I feel alone among them, only one guy of my circle of friends is more sociable and experienced but he has tons of work and works in a hospital and beside that he is studying. So he has not that much time left, of all the friends he is my blood brother and we share a lot of things. The worst is that I do not feel connected to my circle of friends as I used to, but neither do I feel connected to my other friends. Thus I feel alone, I strive for a jovial circle of friends in which I can feel myself at home. The only person whose closeness I feel fine to was my girlfriend but we had to break up because of a somewhat more difficult matter which I do not want to explain now. The ironic thing is that I never wanted to be generic and simple nor my friends, I cannot stand these “normal” people with their lives. But after all I realized that I seek new friends which are generic and do normal stuff; I miss the ordinary and simple things in life. I feel like I betrayed myself and my stupid principles and of course my old friends. We promised never to break up and even after studying that we will reunite and live together in a living community. Even when I slightly mention that this will no happen in the future I am marked as an asshole. Now when I think about it, it would drive me insane because on one side I cannot stand them but on the other side I like them. Not belonging to any circle of friends or community is a depressing feeling. Personally, I was never depressive and I have a more optimistic and good hearted character but this issue is causing some serious problems in me. This is aggravated by the fact that I think too much and try to figure out everything. I always thought that I would be a loner and it did not disturb me at all, I even liked it. But now I cannot stand it anymore. I cannot leave my old friends because I would still be confronted with them at different occasions, neither can I “join” a different circle of friends because I do not know if that would work out properly. Because the last thing I want to is to stand alone without anybody. All things considered I found myself some new friends who are accepting me, but that will take some time. Still this whole mess makes me feel like a traitor, the only hope I have now is that next year I will find completely new friends and a new home because of my studies in a different country. This hitch is troubling me so bad; I cannot talk to anybody about this matter. Honestly, it felt good to write this down. For those who have completely read this, I fully appreciate your kindness. Thanks for listening.

[QUOTE=PopLot;26175635]None of the neanderthal illiterates at my high school can tolerate someone with an IQ higher than 10. On some of the more depressingly auspicious of days I wish that my IQ was lower than 149. |FlapJack| I challenge your hastily granted rating.[/QUOTE] I didn't see any proof of you having an IQ of 149, and so was compelled to disagree. And no wonder they can't stand you, your dick's so far up your own arse you have to shit past your balls.

I tried to hump my sister at night time. Reason is she is really hot and she never wakes up to anything.

My first year of college was fuck terrible, I'm just a socially akward person, I'm a person who generally fakes a lot of shit, I'm going at coming across as confident and normal even when I'm not, my family is extremely religious so I've never been drinking or partying in my life, which is partly why I never make any friends or have any and never have anything to talk with anyone about. I know I should man up get a job and get some friends but I've never been able to find anyone I actually like, I'm not a bad looking person but no one has ever asked me out, I get extremely nervous that if I was I'd never know what to talk to that girl about, I gave up on a lot of things I had no reason to miss a lot of college lessons for my first year, and my grades plummeted as a result. I have a B, C and a D at the moment :(. I know I have to get my shit together this year instead of wasting my time sitting on my computer, but its turned into such a habit at this point, I've just been so depressed and anti-society I just don't see a point in anything, working my ass of in college just to be stuck in a job I hate working every hour of the day just to pay for shit I don't need. Everything in life for me is so mundane so boring it's so repitive no matter whats going on I just see repeats of shit going on. I don't know what to do, I know I need a job, but for what, to be just as bored with life as I am now, I know I need to work my ass off and retake my economics grade to bump it up to a B and bump my law up from a C to a B aswell, then work my ass off in A2 to get A's hopefully in both law and english, but for what just to continue to a university and do something I don't want? This is why my grades turned to shit, I just gave up I saw no point in anything and sat here wasting my time, hell my English grade was B and I didn't revise at all, just imagine what I could do with revision *sigh*.