[QUOTE=igotwowhacke;26531402]I feel as though that compared to my older brother, I'm a huge disappointment to my parent's. It's almost as though no matter how well I do at something, it's still never good enough for them. I'm always being pushed to do more, do better, and I honestly do try, but nothing seems to work for me. Just makes me feel as though I'm not good enough. That feeling sucks.[/QUOTE]
I know how you feel. Just stick with what you like and know that your parents will always love and they just want the best for you.
I'm in love with a girl from my college (at least I think its love). We are in the same class but she is a bit older than me. I'm really not that attractive nor am I that thin. She seems to like me but I'm too much of a wimp to say anything to her.
Another thing. I got bullied. For 3 years. yet the school I went to didn't do shit about it. To the point I would skip some of my classes just to get away from it. it was just constant. They even made a fake facebook account in my name. (It got deleted and the bullying stopped about 5 months ago)
I'm also unable to speak to people easily. I think it may be connected to the bullying since I remember I was always able to speak to people easily and make friends easily. This is also causing problems with the first thing I said as I'm too scared to speak to one of the few people that seems to like me. (By the way I started college in september which is nice as I now have a clean slate and no-one here dislikes me yet)
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I also really cant stop thinking about her but I cant help but wonder if she only seems to like me because she feels sorry for me because I dont hang out with anyone at college (poor people skills)
Also this is how stupid the bullying was:
They spread a rumor saying "I liked watching goat porn" (my guess was it was because I tricked one of my friends into seeing goatse when he made me go on meatspin)
Luckily this rumor failed. Also one of them had a head shaped/colored like a tomato and the other was an obese chinese kid. so yeah. This is sorta the only way I can "get back at them" by telling the internet that they looked stupid. once again, I'm too much of a pussy to say it to thier faces.
Damn this actually makes me feel better
[QUOTE=tpkjmw;26531606]I'm in love with a girl from my college (at least I think its love).[/quote]
Infatuation
[quote]We are in the same class but she is a bit older than me.[/quote]
I find younger girls easier to get on with. Each to their own.
[quote]I'm really not that attractive nor am I that thin. She seems to like me but I'm too much of a wimp to say anything to her.[/quote]
Start a conversation. You will need to push yourself out of your comfort zone, but if you never do, it'll never happen. As long as your not a massive heafer, I don't see weight being an issue.
[quote]Another thing. I got bullied. For 3 years. yet the school I went to didn't do shit about it. To the point I would skip some of my classes just to get away from it. it was just constant. They even made a fake facebook account in my name. (It got deleted and the bullying stopped about 5 months ago)[/quote]
Don't give a shit. Ignore it. They'll get bored and move on.
[quote]I'm also unable to speak to people easily. I think it may be connected to the bullying since I remember I was always able to speak to people easily and make friends easily. This is also causing problems with the first thing I said as I'm too scared to speak to one of the few people that seems to like me. (By the way I started college in september which is nice as I now have a clean slate and no-one here dislikes me yet)[/QUOTE]
Been there, done that. You need to push yourself out of your comfort zone, get more comfortable with talking to people. Once you do, you'll manage fine.
[QUOTE=iRzilla;26530964]I tried to commit suicide.
Was fed up with all the shit going on in my life. I thought it would be easier to just end it all. So I began self harming, and at one point tried drowning my self.[/QUOTE]
Despite talking to you on Steam, will post for anyone else having similar problems.
[quote]22:00 - Flapadar: Anyway, there's no hope in a mortuary. There is in life.
22:00 - Flapadar: Your life [[ WILL ]] improve.
22:00 - iRzilla | dev-zilla.net: Eh I hope so.
22:00 - Flapadar: You've got another ~70ish years ahead of you.
22:00 - Flapadar: Most of my 17 years have been shit
22:01 - Flapadar: Recently, they've been getting better.
22:01 - Flapadar: I'm sure yours will too.[/quote]
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I'm the youngest in my class. 16 almost 17.
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The people have also left me alone for a few months. I hope it stays that way.
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Thanks :)
guys, i have hair growing out of my nipples and since this thread is to help get stuff off your chest, i thought maybe you could help?!
[QUOTE=iJeax;26532341]guys, i have hair growing out of my nipples and since this thread is to help get stuff off your chest, i thought maybe you could help?![/QUOTE]
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Its probably gonna hurt a hell of a lot.
Over the summer, I was going out with this girl, Savannah. I had met her in April but didn't talk to her until late-May. Within a week, we started dating. Savannah was pretty good looking, shorter than me (which is difficult to find since I'm 5'6"), and was leaving for college in September. In the last week of our relationship, she went on a trip with her family. And many of my friends were also away that week so I was alone.
My ex, Karen, found out I was alone and paid me a visit, and I regret allowing her into my home. She brought The Notebook and wanted to watch it with me. I told her no funny business and let her in. By the end of the night, we were cuddling and we kissed before she left. The next day she came over again, but this time she greeted me with a hug and kiss. I allowed her in again and the instant we went inside my room, we began making out.
When Savannah came back in St. Louis, Karen constantly texted me and even showed up at my house a day where Savannah was there. Karen asked me who I liked more, and since Karen and I had dated for about a year before we broke up, I told her I liked her more. I now regret that choice because it was unfair to Savannah, made me look like a dick, and my newer relationship with Karen only lasted three months.
Savannah has told me she forgives me for cheating on her, but I have not yet apologized to her.
I had to get that off my chest, thanks.
I'm probably gonna get laughed at for this, since this is FP, but fuck it. May as well.
Might as well go back to when this massive shitstorm first started, back in August. My best friend, Dave, met a girl in his Japanese class named Allie. They instantly hit it off, and he would constantly tell me how amazing and hot and etc she was over Skype. Since I hadn't met her yet, this somewhat went over my head.
That all changed when, a couple weeks later, I did meet her. I pretty much instantly fell in love: she's a steampunk fan, she listens to awesome music, she shares my love of schlocky horror movies (she actually still has Evil Dead and Evil Dead 2 on loan from me), and she's one of the funniest, easiest-to-talk-to girls I've ever had the pleasure of meeting. On top of that, she's insanely hot.
I kept it bottled up a bit. For about 3 weeks or so, I'd say. Then, shit went down. The Japanese club was holding a showing of Ponyo (which is an awesome movie, like all Miyazaki stuff), which I couldn't go to because of fucking driver's ed. However, I spent most of driver's ed texting Allie, so I suppose it evens out in the end. I got home, intending to finally get the fact that I was [b]strongly[/b] attracted to Allie off my chest to Dave, when I got a rather unappealing IM from Dave about it.
"dude, got to first base with Allie today," it read. I did not take it well. I don't know why, but it really hurt me seeing my best friend with what basically amounts to the girl of my dreams. I responded by getting slightly drunk and venting my spleen at him for a few hours about how much of a failure I am.
Compounding the sheer bullshit, however, was the fact that Allie had also freaked out over it because she thought they were taking things too fast. Dave was now having to deal with two people he cared strongly about having horrible mental breakdowns, one of whom was inebriated on top of that.
It eventually got resolved, though, kinda. I decided to step aside and let Dave have Allie, at least for the time being, which admittedly was a very bad idea but whatever. Cut to next day. This isn't that interesting, but it's still worth noting: Allie is schizophrenic, and she was off her meds that day, which raped her coordination hard. This essentially meant that I had to carry her to her after-school activity, as the alternative was her falling over every couple of steps and running into things, which I didn't want to see happen even though it was gonna make me late to driver's ed. Fortunately, my instructor understood entirely so that ended up not being a problem.
Things progressed as they were for a while. I slowly got used to the idea that my best friend was going to be fucking Allie and there wasn't a damned thing I could do about it. Then, another whammy hit.
Allie had a boyfriend already, named Joe, but he had been being a gigantic asshole and totally ignoring her other than the occasional drunk text or drunk call. This is what prompted her to hook up with Dave, and she was intending to break up with Joe for him because seriously, fuck Joe. That wasn't news. However, when she called me one Saturday evening and vented to me about how stressful her day was, partly because [b]Joe came back totally out of nowhere,[/b] that was most certainly news and not very good news at that.
From there, shit got worse. Allie told me to keep it a secret from Dave, because she wanted to tell him herself. I complied, and after about a week she told him. He did not take it well. He would later tell me that, if he had been told in person instead of through a phone call, he would have probably hit her. Ever since, it's been a cycle of hope and despair for him as he shifts between thinking he can pull Allie away from Joe and thinking it's hopeless. It's been constant despair for me, too, since... okay, this is going to sound really stupid, but I don't think I'll be able to date anyone else and have an actual happy relationship with Allie around. Basically my only option is to wait for her to be done with Joe, and then wait for her to be done with Dave, which may take years.
Shit [b]sucks.[/b] I know it's just high school relationship bullshit, children are starving in africa, etc, but whatever, this is the right thread to vent about this kind of stuff. I guess I could make this its own thread, but I don't really think it's serious enough plus I'd probably just get an avalanche of mockery.
For reference, Dave and I are juniors in high school, Allie's a sophomore, and Joe's a freshman in college. That motherfucker is [b]creepy,[/b] by the way; it's not really important to the story, but meeting him in person is like being around a Lovecraftian horror. It's not that he's imposing or anything, he's just wrong in some fundamental way; he only has two facial expressions, one of which is a terrifying Joker grin and the other of which is an equally terrifying scowl, and his eyes are vacant and soulless like he's shellshocked or something. It's legitimately really unsettling.
I would post a pic of Allie, but she doesn't have any good ones on facebook. They're all either blurry or cosplay stuff, and the latter isn't exactly indicative of how she usually looks. Sorry, guys.
[b]POSE AS AN EDIT BECAUSE SHIT JUST GOT REAL:[/b] Apparently Joe is technically committing statutory rape when he fucks Allie, which he has before (:gonk:), since the age difference is a little more than 3 years, which is the upper limit to the Romeo and Juliet laws here in Texas. I'd be totally willing to let this slide if it weren't for two things.
Number one, least importantly, he's terrifying, as already mentioned.
Number two, much more importantly: he blatantly flat-out fucking lied to her about the legality of the situation and took advantage of her own naivete. Fucking jailbait is one thing. Lying to said jailbait and making them think it's totally okay, when it isn't, is another matter entirely.
I'm gonna talk to her about it sometime soon. If she doesn't dump him, I'm going straight to the police, because that asshole deserves to rot in prison for a while.
I gave 10 bucks to a homeless middle-eastern guy, now i feel bad for supporting terrorism.
theres so much fucking autism on facepunch >:(
Sometimes I wasn't sure whether I really loved my girlfriend or not. Now I know for sure.
Last night I was up late working on a paper for school. I overslept by about an hour and my phone refused to work this morning so I couldn't text her, saying good morning like I always do. As soon as I got in the car my phone went insane with about 12 texts ranging from "Good morning cute stuff" to "I hope it's just something wrong with our phones" and "Ok now I'm feeling a little scared, even though this isn't a big deal".
I managed to shoot a "Good morning, I love you" over before I got to school, and when I got there she just happened to be in the office. Of course, she pounced on me and told me how worried she was.
I guess I have just come to realize that no matter any of our little scraps, any of the rough spots, she legitimately cares about me enough to be scared when something is just slightly out of the norm. We talk nonstop and I do the same to her, but I had just never really thought about it.
Anyways, I love her. And this was a weird and somewhat pointless rant, but I guess I just wanted to type it down and get it out.
We've been going out for about a year and a half, if anybody is curious.
There is so much... and I doubt you guys will believe the last one.
1) I'm a lazy fuck. I never do anything I need to until i absolutely have to, and even then, recently I've been not doing what I need. And now is the most important time for that, with scholarship applications necessary asap so I can afford to go to the college I want to go to. I suffer from extreme apathy all the time.
2) I love my girlfriend. She's so amazing, and I think the world of her. However, right now is a really difficult time for her. I know that it will go away, but she is very insecure. And she sees almost everything I do as some way of her losing me. It's putting a lot of stress on my life. Also, she constantly belittles herself, calling herself dumb, retarded, ugly, ect. I know she believes it, too, and I always try to make her feel better, uplift her, help her up, but I'm getting tired and it's getting harder and harder to do.
3) I have one testicle. I have never told anyone in fear of being ridiculed, but it's true. I had testicular torsion at birth, which is where the tubes connecting the testicle to your body get twisted and cut off circulation. It can only be fixed with surgery, and the doctor could only save one.
4) I have never masturbated before. I am 17 now, and have tried twice. I wasn't successful either time. I don't know why. Doctor says it's probably psychological. Also, I'm not turned on by porn. This would not be a product of the previous point, I asked.
God, that feels good.
[QUOTE=WastedJamacan;26535204]There is so much... and I doubt you guys will believe the last one.
1) I'm a lazy fuck. I never do anything I need to until i absolutely have to, and even then, recently I've been not doing what I need. And now is the most important time for that, with scholarship applications necessary asap so I can afford to go to the college I want to go to. I suffer from extreme apathy all the time.
2) I love my girlfriend. She's so amazing, and I think the world of her. However, right now is a really difficult time for her. I know that it will go away, but she is very insecure. And she sees almost everything I do as some way of her losing me. It's putting a lot of stress on my life. Also, she constantly belittles herself, calling herself dumb, retarded, ugly, ect. I know she believes it, too, and I always try to make her feel better, uplift her, help her up, but I'm getting tired and it's getting harder and harder to do.
3) I have one testicle. I have never told anyone in fear of being ridiculed, but it's true. I had testicular torsion at birth, which is where the tubes connecting the testicle to your body get twisted and cut off circulation. It can only be fixed with surgery, and the doctor could only save one.
4) I have never masturbated before. I am 17 now, and have tried twice. I wasn't successful either time. I don't know why. Doctor says it's probably psychological. Also, I'm not turned on by porn. This would not be a product of the previous point, I asked.
God, that feels good.[/QUOTE]
try a third time
I have diabetes.
Im pretty sure Im going to lose my job I dont know what to do.
[QUOTE=Talkbox;26535396]try a third time[/QUOTE]
I don't really have a desire to. I guess I'm just not as horny as most other guys?
[QUOTE=WastedJamacan;26535204]
2) I love my girlfriend. She's so amazing, and I think the world of her. However, right now is a really difficult time for her. I know that it will go away, but she is very insecure. And she sees almost everything I do as some way of her losing me. It's putting a lot of stress on my life. Also, she constantly belittles herself, calling herself dumb, retarded, ugly, ect. I know she believes it, too, and I always try to make her feel better, uplift her, help her up, but I'm getting tired and it's getting harder and harder to do.
[/QUOTE]
I know exactly how this is. Sometimes I think it's a test, other times I think shes actually saddened by herself.
It is a weird balance, but you just have to ride it out and make sure you're behind her the whole way through :unsmith:
My asshole commander keeps bothering me. He always wants to talk and I can't stand his ass. I have to do these goddamn calibrations. Shit.
[QUOTE=nubscaper;26536616]I know exactly how this is. Sometimes I think it's a test, other times I think shes actually saddened by herself.
It is a weird balance, but you just have to ride it out and make sure you're behind her the whole way through :unsmith:[/QUOTE]
I'm glad someone else knows how I'm feeling. I'm trying my best to ride it out. Have a heart.
I've had a crush on a girl for about a year and a half. Number of times talked to her: 2. I get really nervous when I try to talk to her. I want to get over it and just talk to her, but I can't. I feel pathetic... :frown:
I'm bisexual and not a virgin, I let my ex-boyfriend fuck me in the ass once. I'm still totally in love with him.
SIIIIIGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. If I told that to 95% of the people I know in real life they'd either disown me or beat the shit out of me. Fucking hick towns, wish my mom never had the dumb idea of moving to the sticks... fuck.
Not nearly on the same level as the rest of the shit in this thread, but it's causing me stress, so why the fuck not.
I'm a historical re-enactor. This means in simple terms is that me and a bunch of fat middle aged men plus a few of my friends get drunk, dress up as WW2 soldiers and shoot at each other. It's great fun.
I also happen to be shit broke, living with my mum who is also shit broke. 100% of my kit is borrowed. I was recently lent an M1 Garand (HUGELY expensive to attain in this country, let alone getting a hold of someone willing to sell one) to keep at my house because the guy who owns it won't be coming to our next event/battle, and it's the only rifle spare that I can use. Thus, it's staying at my house so I can bring it to the next event.
I should also mention I'm a clumsy motherfucker and I am CONSTANTLY breaking shit.
Anyway, as it happens, I was pissing about with it, practicing reloading with it (that shit is hard), and loading up blanks in a clip. As I started a test fire session, It wouldn't cycle. The gas system has gone up and shat its pants. I have to cycle each round manually. I'm stressing because 1) This isn't my gun. 2) The owner entrusted it to me and to look after it 3) It's expensive as fuck.
Admittedly it was in shit condition when I received it and it would have shat its pants eventually, but still, I feel terrible and I have no idea how I'm gunna tell the guy.
Feels better. I predict boxes. Go ahead.
[QUOTE=Shustriy;26538250]I've had a crush on a girl for about a year and a half. Number of times talked to her: 2. I get really nervous when I try to talk to her. I want to get over it and just talk to her, but I can't. I feel pathetic... :frown:[/QUOTE]
i like a girl to.. number of times talked to her?
try everyday for the last 4 years almost.. how many texts a day do we swap? try 100-200 on average.
have I tried to ask her out? no? why not? lack of confidence/self esteem.
so don't feel bad, its a issue for everyone even when you're in a more favorable situation.
[editline]7th December 2010[/editline]
also I like to get this mucus thats building in my lounge off my chest, as its quite unpleasant hence having to cough every few minutes.
I've failed at almost every attempt at creativity I've ever tried that could've been shown to people.
[QUOTE=gameplaya89;25969174]I've been depressed for 5 years and I've done a good job hiding it, nobody knows. I usually feel like a colossal loser and I just can't tell anyone, people usually see me as a funny and happy guy.[/QUOTE]
:smith: :respek: :smithicide:
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;26539568]i like a girl to.. number of times talked to her?
try everyday for the last 4 years almost.. how many texts a day do we swap? try 100-200 on average.
have I tried to ask her out? no? why not? lack of confidence/self esteem.
so don't feel bad, its a issue for everyone even when you're in a more favorable situation.
[editline]7th December 2010[/editline]
also I like to get this mucus thats building in my lounge off my chest, as its quite unpleasant hence having to cough every few minutes.[/QUOTE]Well, there's also the fact that at least 3 people have tried to get me to talk to her/ ask her out, and their efforts were in vain. And it seemed like she used to like me when I first met her, she was the one that started the conversations. I'm pretty sure I blew my chance... :sigh:
And I've been depressed the past 2 1/2- 3 years, it made my self-esteem and confidence drop. It started as a result of my parents divorcing, but now its worsening cause of other things. I'm 16, I've never had a girlfriend, I've never kissed a girl, I'm skinny, I don't do anything except smoke pot and drink occasionally, and I have shitty social skills because of my speech impediment.
And the fact that I'm a dick to my 11-year old mentally retarded brother makes it worse... :frown:
Once I really think about it, there's much shit on my mind right now
I was too scared to stay and watch my dog be put down today. I had to leave the room and I'm scared that she felt alone and afraid in her last conscious seconds. I tried to be as comforting as I could but I just couldn't watch her die.
I swear I'm asexual.
I'm so lonely it's crippling sometimes, like some nights I just, I don't know, sit there and feel like I'm never going to find a girl I can be open with.
I have plenty of friends, I hang out with them almost every day and I talk to a few girls but I can't find one who I'd want to be with or open myself up too eventually. I don't know.
[QUOTE=nubscaper;26534926]Of course, she pounced on me and told me how worried she was.[/QUOTE]
I wish I had a girlfriend that clingy. I mean, it could get annoying but at least you feel wanted.
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