[QUOTE=D0C H.;25884642]Wow........ Same here. Except the lacking of testosterone. Literally......Exactly the same.
also my rant:
REALLY?! REALLY?! YOURE GOING TO TELL ME THAT YOU CANT GO TO THE MOVIES TONIGHT BECAUSE YOURE HAVING SOMEBODY SPEND THE NIGH?!?!?! is that so? then why IN THE FREAKING WORLD, are you plastering all over your facebook that youre going oto a school football game? WHEN I ASKED YOU TO THE MOVIES A WEEK AGO.
WHY, why cant you simply say no to me rather than lying? would be much less hurtful than you thinking IM SUCH A WORTHLESS IDIOT that will accept any lie thrown at me.
GO SCREW YOURSELF.[/QUOTE]
[i]Tell her. Now. Call her out on it.[/i]
Make her feel like shit, bro
I think I might love my best friend.
Goddamn it.
[QUOTE=KingKombat;25884726][i]Tell her. Now. Call her out on it.[/i]
Make her feel like shit, bro[/QUOTE]
Thats the problem. I care too much to do it. Im waiting until I dont see her at school to remove her from my life.
[editline]5th November 2010[/editline]
I TRY. I TRY TO BE THE "prince" YOU "dream" OF. BUT APPARENTLY IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
NEVER. NEVER GOOD ENOUGH.
Wow....I like this thread.
I have sinned a lot lately.
I did a lot of bad things on chatroulette.
I lied to a Brazilian girl named Jana. I hurt her. She hurt me as well.
i've never had a girlfriend, i couldn't hold a conversation with a member of the opposite sex if my life depended on it.
[QUOTE=TheDestroyerOfall;25884481]Her wrong. I think this is motivating me to.[/QUOTE]
Fixed.
And damn straight. You won't get what you want by thinking about it too much.
[editline]5th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=MedicmanV500;25884862]i've never had a girlfriend, i couldn't hold a conversation with a member of the opposite sex if my life depended on it.[/QUOTE]
It's a hell of a lot easier than you think.
Screw you. Screw you for wasting a year of my life. Screw you for tearing out my emotions that I worked VERY hard to put away. Now its going to take forever to not care again. Thanks to you. Screw you.
I guess I had more pent up anger than I thought I did.
[QUOTE=haloguy234;25884899]It's a hell of a lot easier than you think.[/QUOTE]
i overly analyze it because i don't want to say something stupid, therefore the conversation doesn't flow naturally. that, and i'm a relatively shy/quiet person.
[QUOTE=D0C H.;25884914]Screw you. Screw you for wasting a year of my life. Screw you for tearing out my emotions that I worked VERY hard to put away. Now its going to take forever to not care again. Thanks to you. Screw you.
I guess I had more pent up anger than I thought I did.[/QUOTE]
Turn that anger into something useful to get yourself another relationship.
I have a bit of a problem with my siblings. My older brother (he's incredibly strong) is constantly beating on my younger brother. It used to be just more play fighting between all of us, but he's been hitting harder and harder. He says "I'm barely even touching you" but my brother has bruises all over his arms. I started avoiding him when this started happening. So now my younger brother is getting the worst of it, but he has this freakish inferiority complex or something, so that he honestly LOOKS UP TO HIM. His own ideals never show, whatever my older brother says is truth. No matter what he feels. He will often get beat up and then APOLOGIZE to my older brother for it. My older brother isn't stupid. He has a high IQ and is in all advanced classes. However he doesn't care about it at all, and he didn't do very well on his SAT and mainly has C's. He gets in a lot of fights, he doesn't lose. It's not even a matter of strength, he can go up against someone twice his size and win. He's smart enough to know that you don't simply punch them. You get around their throat, squeeze their windpipe, and they're out (though I'm certain he's never actually killed anyone). He doesn't plan on living terribly long and I know he probably won't. He speeds all the time, but he never gets caught, because he knows how to drive aggressively, can spot undercover cop cars, and knows when certain streets are often patrolled. Back to my younger brother who also has his share of problems. He had and still does this "contamination" thing where if I (it was other people too, but now it's only me) simply touch him or his belongings, it's contaminated, and he has to wash it or it burns him or something. It is definitely starting to disappear though. We are on weird terms, we can get along well enough, but he has to take his emotions out somewhere and that's kind of on me. Don't get me wrong he doesn't do any real physical violence, but he gets aggravated at the slightest provocation. He has a way of making things complicated. He will drag out the most stupid and pointless of arguments, and is constantly starting them. I don't think he will ever really be himself. He will always be the lesser, trying to please someone. I have more hope for him than for my older brother. He's also not stupid, but he actually does care about his grades. I know he can make something of himself. Either that, or he'll snap.
Writing this was definitely a load off of my chest. Thanks Facepunch.
[QUOTE=haloguy234;25884960]Turn that anger into something useful to get yourself another relationship.[/QUOTE]
What useful? ive never had a relationship. No matter how hard I try I cant get a girlfriend. It may seems cliche. But seriously
[b]no matter how hard I try[/b] I cant get a girl.
Blame it on circumstances or me. But I try, yet nothing. After so long, every failure stings more than the last. Its going to make me bitter.
i h8 u all
Dont worry. I hate people too. Evey single one of them. Lets hate together. :v:
[QUOTE=D0C H.;25885041]What useful? ive never had a relationship. No matter how hard I try I cant get a girlfriend. It may seems cliche. But seriously
[B]no matter how hard I try[/B] I cant get a girl.
Blame it on circumstances or me. But I try, yet nothing. After so long, every failure stings more than the last. Its going to make me bitter.[/QUOTE]
Then try harder. If you think you've done your best and haven't gotten what you want then that means there's room for improvement. If you're sad about it, use that to fuel the determination. And sorry, from the way you worded it it seemed like you were dumped.
-snipping because stuff-
[QUOTE=reltih floda;25885054]i h8 u all[/QUOTE]
Well I admire you for not being afraid to tell us what you think.
Thats the problem. because of my school status almost every girl is taken, or simply doesnt like me. And I know there is room for improvement. Always is.
And its not so much sad, than plain emotional pain and annoyance. Because of some very tragic events I basically shut away my emotions. I liked it like that. I could enjoy friends, good food, and games that way. But nothing made me happpy, but more importantly, nothing made me sad. I just....was.
Now with her, I feel again. and I [highlight]hate[/highlight] it. I feel emotional pain, anger, loneliness, emotional BS etc, etc. It hurts to think that after a year of trying, she still doesnt care, and thinks im such an idiot I can be lied to and believe it.
What are you going to do about it? Complain about it or take action?
Well..... seing as I found this thread. Complain about it.
Dont get me wrong. Im no pussy. When it comes to most things. But its painfully obvious that nothing is going to happen between us. Her sister knows I like her, and Im pretty sure she does to. So like I said:
Screw her. After the semester ends she will never see me again. All will be well.
Thanks for listening man.
Yeah, prove you're inadequate at dealing with one of the greatest human emotions ever. Feeling all of those emotions is what living life is about. It's a tradeoff. For every pro there's an equal con. Love is one of those emotions that's great when it works but can really screw you over when you don't know how to handle it properly.
And so what if you're not "popular" enough. Popularity in high school is determined by how much effort you put into getting yourself noticed.
Things like this are entirely in your control. Don't lay blame on others for things you suck at managing.
[QUOTE=TheWhiteFox1;25883853]I've just realized how much one of my friends, as much as I like hanging out him, has really damaged how I think of myself as a person. To put it short, I'm just the nerdy kid who happens to be a friend with the popular guy. Now I'm not nerdy, as in being socially awkward however. I have plenty of other friends, and I can talk to pretty much anyone, but this one guy, who happens to be my best friend, has made me feel like a sack of shit the past few weeks, and I don't know what to think.
Firstly, he began to date the girl he KNEW I had feelings for, and then, after they got into a fight within their first week together, he tells me how terrible of a friend I am because I didn't automatically back him up, when I KNEW there was more to the situation. Now, it's MOSTLY over, and he says he doesn't hold a grudge over it. However, when we started talking one day, we moved a bit into talking about the problem he had with his girlfriend, but he then abruptly ended it, saying "You know, I'm not going to bother with talking to you about this, because you're just a douchebag when it comes to this subject".
Now, I had talked to his girlfriend a lot (He told her that I liked her first day they started hanging out), since we have classes with each other. I was the only one who talked to her about this, and she said how I was really the only person she could trust, and that gave me a much needed self-esteem boost. However, it got struck down pretty quickly again by my friend, when he said, "She just feels bad that she started going out with me and not you". I [i]tried[/i] to convince myself he was saying it just because he was in a bad mood or something, but everytime I look back at it, I see more and more truth in that statement. I've had no motivation to do anything in the past week, and my grades are falling. I'm usually an A or B student, and now, they're nowhere close.
Now my friend has been changing his mood, saying he was sorry, he was saying all of that just because he was depressed and was going off on everyone, etc. Still, I can't help but a hold a small grudge against him for this, and I don't want to lose a friend over something like this.
By the way, I know this is a big BAW story, but I just had to say this somewhere. Sorry if it's hard to understand too, I just wrote in one straight go.[/QUOTE]
sounds alot like what happened to me
except it's now been 2 years since that and i'm having sex with that girl daily
just be confident man that was my biggest problem back in the day.
edit:
I fucked up one of my friend's chances with a girl on purpose through psychological tactics because he was telling my girlfriend bad stuff about me that wasn't true
Should never have let them become friends in the first place but my girlfriend didn't have many friends to begin with so I wasn't exactly against it
[QUOTE=D0C H.;25885233]Well..... seing as I found this thread. Complain about it.
Dont get me wrong. Im no pussy. When it comes to most things. But its painfully obvious that nothing is going to happen between us. Her sister knows I like her, and Im pretty sure she does to. So like I said:
Screw her. After the semester ends she will never see me again. All will be well.
Thanks for listening man.[/QUOTE]
Just have a good cry or something like that one night. You don't have to have a tub of icecream or a cat named mr. wiggles. Just having a good cry once in a while can really take a load off your chest.
[QUOTE=haloguy234;25885249]Yeah, prove you're inadequate at dealing with one of the greatest human emotions ever. Feeling all of those emotions is what living life is about. It's a tradeoff. For every pro there's an equal con. Love is one of those emotions that's great when it works but can really screw you over when you don't know how to handle it properly.
And so what if you're not "popular" enough. Popularity in high school is determined by how much effort you put into getting yourself noticed.
Things like this are entirely in your control. Don't lay blame on others for things you suck at managing.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, youre right. But id rather simply enjoy things in life than feel emotional pain for the EVENTUAL payoff of "love".
Maybe someday Ill find somebody. but right now I dont see the point in it.
I think I'll go buy me a nice cigar and relax to let out some of this frustration.
[QUOTE=D0C H.;25885164]Thats the problem. because of my school status almost every girl is taken, or simply doesnt like me. And I know there is room for improvement. Always is.
And its not so much sad, than plain emotional pain and annoyance. Because of some very tragic events I basically shut away my emotions. I liked it like that. I could enjoy friends, good food, and games that way. But nothing made me happpy, but more importantly, nothing made me sad. I just....was.
Now with her, I feel again. and I [highlight]hate[/highlight] it. I feel emotional pain, anger, loneliness, emotional BS etc, etc. It hurts to think that after a year of trying, she still doesnt care, and thinks im such an idiot I can be lied to and believe it.[/QUOTE]
Life is full of hardships. Having experienced a similar state of mind of sorts when I was much younger, I can tell you to just persevere. One of my past girlfriends really turned out to be a bitch who was (and still is) an attention whore. She was with me for the sake of saying she "had a boyfriend". There was no passion or real love, and my emotions were screwed around with because of it. Emotional pain, anger, loneliness was what I felt.
And because I didn't have a positive outlook on life and the future, I had a minor episode of depression. I'm telling you don't think you're the only one this kind of thing has ever happened to, and don't think it's the worst possible thing that could ever happen to your social life. The fact that you're aware of what doesn't make you happy already tells you she's not worth pursuing.
When you really "find" someone you click with, you'll know. It's hard to explain, but basically, you won't experience what you're experiencing now, if that helps understand it any better. Any good relationship will have it's ups and downs, but you'll learn to deal with them accordingly. This girl you're pursuing sounds like shes just causing you unnecessary emotional distress and pain.
I miss my girlfriend. I wish I had stayed home tonight so I could've fallen asleep on the phone with her.
[QUOTE=ItchyBarracuda;25885360]Life is full of hardships. Having experienced a similar state of mind of sorts when I was much younger, I can tell you to just persevere. One of my past girlfriends really turned out to be a bitch who was (and still is) an attention whore. She was with me for the sake of saying she "had a boyfriend". There was no passion or real love, and my emotions were screwed around with because of it. Emotional pain, anger, loneliness was what I felt.[/QUOTE]
I know I cant do anything but persevere. And Im already depressed thanks to my Father's recent death.
[QUOTE=ItchyBarracuda;25885360]And because I didn't have a positive outlook on life and the future, I had a minor episode of depression. I'm telling you don't think you're the only one this kind of thing has ever happened to, and don't think it's the worst possible thing that could ever happen to your social life. The fact that you're aware of what doesn't make you happy already tells you she's not worth pursuing.[/QUOTE]
I dont think Im the only one going through this. People do everyday. I know that. And I also know its not the worst possible thing.
[QUOTE=ItchyBarracuda;25885360]When you really "find" someone you click with, you'll know. It's hard to explain, but basically, you won't experience what you're experiencing now, if that helps understand it any better. Any good relationship will have it's ups and downs, but you'll learn to deal with them accordingly. This girl you're pursuing sounds like shes just causing you unnecessary emotional distress and pain.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, I plan on cutting her from my life after the semester ends. The pain will fade after that. In the mean time Ill just chill with my videogames, work on my car, and hang out with friends to keep my mind off of things.
This is my third school year at Swainston Middle School, and this place is hell. All the administration and teachers care about are their test scores instead of actually teaching their students, the deans and principle often saying "teenager trash" or calling us "disrespectful subordinates", give us strict rules which they don't even bother too enforce except for dresscode which is easily exploited, and that's not the worst of it.
The cliques in SMS are as followed (Keep in mind, same clique =/= same friend circle):
-Football/Rugby Jocks
Jocks of Football
-Soccer Jocks
Jocks of Soccer
-Basketball Jocks
Mostly girls :v:
-Emos/Scene kids
Yeah, they mostly hang out together, so I'm including them as one clique.
-Nerds/Geeks
They're separate, the nerds following more of one subject and focusing less on grades and the geeks usually being the more poindexter-esque type of attitude and mostly being Straight-A Students, I fall into the "Nerd" category.
-Gangbangers
Idiots, shouting "WEST SIDE" every damn minute. Very few of these people are actually in gangs, but hey!
-Tough guys
Bullies, etc. under here
Now, at the begging of the school year the girl I like had just broken up with her boyfriend from the "Tough Guys" clique, but I did nothing to take advantage of it due to not being absolutely sure of what happened before she had already got another one from the same clique. That seem week, a girl asked me out, not necessarily unattractive but still I liked a girl (whom I'm tired of waiting for) and I tried not to laugh in her face and failed (I'm a dick :frown:) and said no, but I was happy. I wear my Los Angeles County Jail shirt as an undershirt to Gym, when I take off my collared shirt everyone starts staring me down- No one fucked with me in Gym to the point when I switched to Health (which I'll get to later because that's real-time). Then, some Football jock who should be in highschool (6'2, I'm 5'7 and a half) starts fucking with my friends and I and I try my best to kick his ass- I would have if I didn't jump in the damned fight (I got 3 good punches in with 4 punches I threw before the fight got broken up.) and sprained my arm, then my grades started dropping. My dad threatened to take my computer away so I start working on my algebra grade. So, with an F in my algebra class (keep in mind 8th grade) I start making up my 22 missing assignments. I got 16 of them done and turned in, then I have a seizure. I may joke about dying during the seizure and going to hell (making fun of the school, of course.) but sometimes I wish I had. I'm glad my friends are there for me, most of them your generic evildoer minions (5'8 to 6' in height, all amazing fighters that do almost anything for me, but when they actually broke up the fight I knew they cared about me and weren't just dumb as rock minions following my every word.) and confirmed I would have won if I hadn't jumped and if they hadn't interfered. Now this kid wants to fight me again, and my friends have my back. That on top of my family being republicans and me being bi leaning gay crossdressing and this [url]http://www.facepunch.com/threads/884943-Atheist-with-a-paranormal-quot-follower-quot[/url] (if you can ever see that thread again :sigh:) has me pretty stressed out/depressed but this still seems nothing like what others have gone through :smith:
edit: oh and almost all my friends like the same girl
I'm a fucking asshole. I have a girlfriend, whom i love very much, but I have a big problem that almost constantly makes me feel like the a terrible person. I just constantly flirt with other girls, I have no idea why, but I can't help it. It's like I crave the attention, I mean my girlfriend gives me plenty of attention, but it just never feels like enough. I always feel so guilty, but I can't stop :frown: It's so bad that I was just having a conversation with a girl about how she promised to give me a blowjob soon..
I am a terrible fucking boyfriend. I'm sorry Celine, I love you
[QUOTE=trey_awsome;25885771]I'm a fucking asshole. I have a girlfriend, whom i love very much, but I have a big problem that almost constantly makes me feel like the a terrible person. I just constantly flirt with other girls, I have no idea why, but I can't help it. It's like I crave the attention, I mean my girlfriend gives me plenty of attention, but it just never feels like enough. I always feel so guilty, but I can't stop :frown: It's so bad that I was just having a conversation with a girl about how she promised to give me a blowjob soon..
I am a terrible fucking boyfriend. I'm sorry Celine, I love you[/QUOTE]
It's not too late to change. You know what you're doing wrong, fix it. If you truly love this girl, then stop being a shitty boyfriend. Remember how you feel now, and remember it whenever you decide you need to flirt.
Fuck, flirt with your girlfriend. That's part of her job.
Oh, and I would never actually cheat on my girlfriend with said blowjob girl, but we always talk about it. I think it's because before the last couple years, I was extremely shy and anti-social and never had much girl-interaction. sigh, idk :frown:
[editline]5th November 2010[/editline]
[QUOTE=Agoat;25885800]It's not too late to change. You know what you're doing wrong, fix it. If you truly love this girl, then stop being a shitty boyfriend. Remember how you feel now, and remember it whenever you decide you need to flirt.
Fuck, flirt with your girlfriend. That's part of her job.[/QUOTE]
I know man, you're right. Getting this off my chest actually does feel like it helped me realize how much i need to change. I really need to work on this, and be the man she deserves.
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