This thread is now about sex.
[editline]8th January 2011[/editline]
Guess I'm outta here.
[QUOTE=PlamZ;27268256]I had casual sex so i can speak of it. Don't say you wouldn't, cause once you'll have once, you'll like it.[/QUOTE]
I wouldn't, that's a stupid reason.
[QUOTE=PlamZ;27266468]Girls won't fuck virgins if they want sex. They'll fuck experienced guy.[/QUOTE]
Then how am I alive?
I'm a big guy, and very broad shouldered, and everyone thinks I'm really though. When ever someone challenges me to a fight I can usually just stand up and they'll back down. But the truth is, I'm a wimp. To the very core. I used to be tough, and "I can take a punch or two" kind of personality when I was much younger. But when I was around 8 I wanted to see Spiderman 2. My mom promised me I would see it on Friday. Friday came, and she had to get to work because of a schedule error. I was kinda disappointed, I complained here and there, but it just stopped and I went back to playing Mario Sunshine on my GC. When I came back down to dinner, my mom had come back from work. I sat on the chairs and started to eat. Out of no where she just grabbed me and started yelling at me about how I was acting "spoiled, ungrateful" etc. And she sent me back to my room with no dinner. Being 8, and being yelled at, violently at such a young age I entered a highly panicked mode and sat on my chair hugging my pillow. I asked it to be "my friend" and to "never leave me." Of course being a pillow, it didn't say anything back, and that just made me cry harder. After an hour my mother had calmed down, and went up to see me. I was still sobbing into my pillow, and had gathered an odd assortment of objects, wrappers, blocks, a vial of medicine, around me and had been asking them to be my friend also. Though when my mother went into my room, she apologized, and gave me a hug and gave me a plate of food to eat. I still felt like crap, and for a while the habit of making "friends" began to develop, to the point where I had a small blanket which I would talk too and named it Blankee. This continued for a year, and I would start to make even more "Friends" on the spot. I would talk to them and this grew to point where it would just be trash on my table and I would talk to it. I don't remember exactly when, but I started to break away form the cycle of making friends around 5th grade. It's been 7 years since then, but it still haunts me. Even being lightly reprimanded I can cry for hours, just because it reminds me so much of that event. Even just someone telling me that "What you said was rude." I have to hold back tears. I mean, after 7 years I can do it without anyone noticing, but it's still hard for me. I guess that's all for now Facepunch. Back to minecraft...
Wow it must've taken a lot of balls to publicly admit that
With my studies i am currently doing a half year long project with a team.
This project involves me using my computer programming skills to create a product.
Unfortunately none of my team members are even close to my skill level in programming.
Which means i will be doing the most of the programming. But not all.
Now, why not all? Though it is (sometimes) possible for to do all the programming work, here are reasons i currently cannot:
1. Because there is too much work in this specific project.
2. Because if i do everything, the entire team will fail the project.
Reason number 2 limits me greatly. In this project, it means that whilst i write proper quality programming, i have to put up with severely low quality programming on the other end.
Sure i could 'share' my knowledge, but that takes up alot of time. (This also makes it a pain to listen to their 'programming suggestions', not to mention the programming) Time i currently don't have since the project is ending this month.
So in the end, i have to decide:
1. Let them do their part, and when they are finished, say that i will be making a 'few' minor changes to their programming (Of course not too much, because of above reason number 2).
2. Accept the poorly written programming and write some intermediary programming to work with my programming.
Usually it ends up being a combination of the two.
I really hate my school for this. They have such low standards. Yet other teams have experienced programmers and are having great fun programming on the project with each other.
It gets worse. There is this 'Technical Exam' part of the project. It means you have to present the programming to teachers and explain how it works. This means that every team member must have a decent understanding of my code. This is also the exam where they check how much you worked on the project.
And most of the time they don't even care what you programmed, as long as it works, they don't even care if it follows certain 'standards'.
I used OpenGL in this product. It was not even a requirement, but i am pretty sure the teachers will shrug it off like nothing while asking me why i wrote this intermediary programming, why i did nearly everything and that some parts of the program match with each other and others not.
I could lower myself to the standards of my team members. But that removes all challenge from this project, and probably make it even more bothersome.
Oh well. I have written enough now.
Well I don't really know how to start this so I'll just start writing.
In Senior Kindergarten I saw this girl and I fell in love with her instantly. In don't know why, and I don't know how, but I just really, really liked her, and I was only about 6 or 7 years old. I went through school with her until about 3rd grade, talking with her a few times, I even went to one of her birthday parties (and I was the only boy invited :smug:). Then she went to another school in town. I never saw her for 5 years, then in highschool she suddenly shows up again. I still like her as much as I did before she left, but I never said anything to each other. We had similar classes, we exchanged glances every now and then, but other than that we were complete strangers. I feel fucking terrible about this, it's been a over year since she came back into my life, and I still haven't said much more than a sentence to her. I don't know what to do, I don't know if she likes me, or ever liked me, and I just really don't know what to do. I can't just randomly start being her friend again, it's too late for that. The only chance I had was when highschool started and I blew that, so now I'm fucked. I've never liked anyone as much as her in my entire life, she's not even that that good looking, but there's something about her that I'm madly attracted to.
So in short I blew a relationship with the woman of my life because I was too much of a pussy to say anything to her, and now I regret it.
I'm shit scared for my exams as it's my retake of this year. I've missed 2 weeks of the last bits of the syllabus due to being away on my brother's exam overseas. I've averaged at least 4 hours of study per day outside of school lately and I'm nervous as fuck D:
[QUOTE=geogzm;27265763]Insomnia? Shit. I only got 4 hours of sleep the other night :ohdear:
My girlfriend's starting to pester me about it too. None of my friends have noticed though. Maybe if I just try sleep two hours earlier and make up the lost time?[/QUOTE]
i think you should probably see a doctor.
[editline]7th January 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Paravin;27264703]Curse my fucking stamina.
[editline]7th January 2011[/editline]
I knew wanking a few times each day for a few years will cause problems. :smithicide:[/QUOTE]
It wasn't the main reason, though. If everything else is fine she shouldn't leave you for a fucktarded thing like that
[QUOTE=Micr0;27270227]Well I don't really know how to start this so I'll just start writing.
In Senior Kindergarten I saw this girl and I fell in love with her instantly. In don't know why, and I don't know how, but I just really, really liked her, and I was only about 6 or 7 years old. I went through school with her until about 3rd grade, talking with her a few times, I even went to one of her birthday parties (and I was the only boy invited :smug:). Then she went to another school in town. I never saw her for 5 years, then in highschool she suddenly shows up again. I still like her as much as I did before she left, but I never said anything to each other. We had similar classes, we exchanged glances every now and then, but other than that we were complete strangers. I feel fucking terrible about this, it's been a over year since she came back into my life, and I still haven't said much more than a sentence to her. I don't know what to do, I don't know if she likes me, or ever liked me, and I just really don't know what to do. I can't just randomly start being her friend again, it's too late for that. The only chance I had was when highschool started and I blew that, so now I'm fucked. I've never liked anyone as much as her in my entire life, she's not even that that good looking, but there's something about her that I'm madly attracted to.
So in short I blew a relationship with the woman of my life because I was too much of a pussy to say anything to her, and now I regret it.[/QUOTE]
Why didn't you simply talk to her and get to know her any better? It isn't that hard.
You know girls & boys can talk to eachother without directly being interested in a relationship, you could have been at least a good friend of her. Also being in love with such a girl without doing a move is dumb, honestly all these years you could have done something.
I don't want to make you mad, but it's kind of a criticism of my part. Have a heart.
I don't know if this is any different from any of the other stuff in this thread, but I just feel like I need to say it: I don't have friends. Sure, at school I have plenty of folks I talk to, have fun with, but outside, I don't have a single thing. I try to be sociable, I try to be friendly, but I am never involved in anything my friends do or organize. It's been this way as long as I can remember, me only having friends when I'm forced into contact with them. They seem to like me, they seem to care, but outside... it's nothing outside, they go off and have fun while I just sit here, trying to enjoy the videogames that are still as boring to me as they were yesterday, and the days before that.
My social skills are shit, I keep seeing faces and shapes of humans in the corner of my eyes. (Doesn't happen a lot, but it happens.) And I sometimes hear voices saying stuff like "ugly" or "Fuck, he's ugly". I don't know if I am actually hearing these things or if it's all in my head... Other than that my life is pretty normal. :buddy:
[QUOTE=U-Lander;27270511]I don't know if this is any different from any of the other stuff in this thread, but I just feel like I need to say it: I don't have friends. Sure, at school I have plenty of folks I talk to, have fun with, but outside, I don't have a single thing. I try to be sociable, I try to be friendly, but I am never involved in anything my friends do or organize. It's been this way as long as I can remember, me only having friends when I'm forced into contact with them. They seem to like me, they seem to care, but outside... it's nothing outside, they go off and have fun while I just sit here, trying to enjoy the videogames that are still as boring to me as they were yesterday, and the days before that.[/QUOTE]
I get your catch, I experienced the same thing.
I usually talk to a lot of guys and gals at school or during work. I have great fun with them and sometimes we do something after the work is done but that seems to be more rare. Even if they really like your company. It's just annoying at times because I get compliments and people say I'm a nice guy and a good friend. But afterwards or during holidays it's dead silence.
Just try to get some more involved with some particular folk that you really like, if they respect and accept you, you won't have any trouble doing stuff with them and get to know more people. Just try to focus on doing stuff outside of school.
[QUOTE=Zombie Dude;27270526]My social skills are shit, I keep seeing faces and shapes of humans in the corner of my eyes. (Doesn't happen a lot, but it happens.) And I sometimes hear voices saying stuff like "ugly" or "Fuck, he's ugly". I don't know if I am actually hearing these things or if it's all in my head... Other than that my life is pretty normal. :buddy:[/QUOTE]
i think you're beautiful
[QUOTE=junker|154;27270435]Why didn't you simply talk to her and get to know her any better? It isn't that hard.
You know girls & boys can talk to eachother without directly being interested in a relationship, you could have been at least a good friend of her. Also being in love with such a girl without doing a move is dumb, honestly all these years you could have done something.
I don't want to make you mad, but it's kind of a criticism of my part. Have a heart.[/QUOTE]
Thanks for the advice. I just had no idea where she went for five years, I had no way of coming in contact with her. I had a small timeframe to get to know her again but for some reason I just didn't do anything. I think it was because I didn't want to make myself look like an ass, but doing nothing just made me feel like more of an ass, all she probably wanted was to talk with me, now she probably hates me..
The thing about conversations and talking to people is to not make such a big deal out of it. This only makes yourself nervous and insane. Be cool about it.
Also don't talk like "she will probably hate me", that's not the right attitute man. In your case you just could have walked straight to her and ask her like "Hey, I still know you from years ago blablabla". You always need a good argument to start a conversation.
If she is not interested in you, you will probably notice this pretty fast. She will not try to have a proper conversation, neither show any interest. Then just be relaxed, life moves on. You won't look like an ass, even if just laugh about it.
[QUOTE=junker|154;27270708]The thing about conversations and talking to people is to not make such a big deal out of it. This only makes yourself nervous and insane. Be cool about it.
Also don't talk like "she will probably hate me", that's not the right attitute man. In your case you just could have walked straight to her and ask her like "Hey, I still know you from years ago blablabla". You always need a good argument to start a conversation.
If she is not interested in you, you will probably notice this pretty fast. She will not try to have a proper conversation, neither show any interest. Then just be relaxed, life moves on. You won't look like an ass, even if just laugh about it.[/QUOTE]
Thanks bro, I'll try and talk to her about something the next time I see her, even if I need to make something up.
I strait up told a girl her ass looked nice..
Then blamed it on my friend
[QUOTE=JoeyZ;27270831]I strait up told a girl her ass looked nice..
Then blamed it on my friend[/QUOTE]
How do you blame something like that on your friend?
"Hey you have a pretty nice ass"
*she turns around*
"HE SAID IT!"
[QUOTE=Micr0;27270794]Thanks bro, I'll try and talk to her about something the next time I see her, even if I need to make something up.[/QUOTE]
I wish you luck compadre. You even have a good point to start with. Talk about your past and how you were invited to her party, even if it's old. If she's kind of interested and starts a decent conversation you can talk about all kinds of stuff.
I wish I wasn't so fucking lazy
Despite losing 40 pounds I'm still fat and sometimes wonder what the point of losing more is, it isn't like it made me any happier
[QUOTE=Zeke129;27271196]Despite losing 40 pounds I'm still fat and sometimes wonder what the point of losing more is, it isn't like it made me any happier[/QUOTE]
If you lose more you'll look better and feel better about your own physical appearance. Also your body will function better and you can go out and do more like climbing, running, biking, etc. you can really experience things.
That may or may not be your thing but i recommend atleast being a healthy weight so you can enjoy a nice, long healthy life.
I put a piece of paper saying "Fuck You" in a donation box once.
Binsky is one of my favorite Facepunch members.
He's a real cool guy.
[QUOTE=Zeke129;27271196]Despite losing 40 pounds I'm still fat and sometimes wonder what the point of losing more is, it isn't like it made me any happier[/QUOTE]
Try some of this:
[url]http://www.supplementreviews.com/usp-labs/oxyelite-pro[/url]
Makes you feel amazing and energetic while suppressing your appetite and boosting your metabolism. Just drink plenty of water and maybe a vitamin before taking it. Don't use it everyday either.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27271501]Binsky is one of my favorite Facepunch members.[/QUOTE]
[QUOTE=Makol;27271529]He's a real cool guy.[/QUOTE]
Thanks, that means a lot. :)
[editline]7th January 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=OvB;27271550]Try some of this:
[url]http://www.supplementreviews.com/usp-labs/oxyelite-pro[/url]
Makes you feel amazing and energetic while suppressing your appetite and boosting your metabolism. Just drink plenty of water and maybe a vitamin before taking it. Don't use it everyday either.[/QUOTE]
I'm not a huge fan of supplements like that. I don't know much about that one specifically but a lot of those things have some nasty side affects. I think that a healthy diet and exercise would be a better route to go. You only need to work out for an hour about 3-5 days a week and eat right.
I wish I can actually stop lazing around and letting people push me around and start taking control and doing the things I never had the balls to.
[QUOTE=Noodle Ninja;27271972]I wish I can actually stop lazing around and letting people push me around and start taking control and doing the things I never had the balls to.[/QUOTE]
What do you think is stopping you from doing that?
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