I've tried to kill myself twice, but stopped at the last moment
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;27324577]I've tried to kill myself twice, but stopped at the last moment[/QUOTE]
Been there, had a good friend bring me back to my senses.
i strongly dislike it when people decide to not be friends anymore and act like we were never friends. seriously, is it that hard to even say hi? especially when it was a really good friend. such is life i guess.
[QUOTE=En-Guage V2;27324577]I've tried to kill myself twice, but stopped at the last moment[/QUOTE]
its never worth it. Not gonna lie, ive had thoughts, no attempts, i looked at it in the sense that i didnt want to be another statistic. To be honest, i see suicide as incredibly selfish. Why? Because when you take your life you take away someone that a person might have loved. No matter what someone in your life will be saddened. When i thought about it i would think about my family, i am the only son in my family of 4 (mom, dad, and older sis) so i can only imagine how devastated they would be, especially my father who has so much hope and respect for me. Not only family but think about your future, that person in your future that will become your partner for life. If you take your life, you are taking away their opportunity of falling for you and living a happy wholesome life. Anything is possible in that department.
I plan on asking this girl I met at work before valentines dayeven though we've only spoken twice and I no longer work there.
She'd be the first girl I've ever asked out if I do ask her out
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;27324706]its never worth it. Not gonna lie, ive had thoughts, no attempts, i looked at it in the sense that i didnt want to be another statistic. To be honest, i see suicide as incredibly selfish. Why? Because when you take your life you take away someone that a person might have loved. No matter what someone in your life will be saddened. When i thought about it i would think about my family, i am the only son in my family of 4 (mom, dad, and older sis) so i can only imagine how devastated they would be, especially my father who has so much hope and respect for me. Not only family but think about your future, that person in your future that will become your partner for life. If you take your life, you are taking away their opportunity of falling for you and living a happy wholesome life. Anything is possible in that department.[/QUOTE]
I also can't kill myself because I share the belief that it is selfish.
I'm miserable and alone, my studies aren't doing great and I can't ensure any sort of future for myself once I'm out of school. My social skills are far from top notch and I don't get out much, I feel like a prisoner in my own home and a burden to my family. I barely have any closeness with my classmates, and I have very few friends.
Yet I can't kill myself. I love my parents, and I know they love me too.
Even though I feel like a burden to them, I do not at all think they would be able to handle the sorrow and guilt they might feel if I killed myself. I don't want to make them think they're bad parents, yet I keep feeling everything just feels so hopeless for me.
Just came home from school, feel like fucking shit. Don't know if I can handle coming home every day feeling like this. Trying to just be alone after school is over but I still got my friends who want to do stuff with me, my little brother hopping around saying "HI HOW WAS SCHOOL?" in a sarcastic voice, and then my parents who are gonna be all over me after they come home from speaking to my psychologist, learning that I have been suicidal.
lol its all just so funny
I feel like that sometimes, only I don't come home from school. I get yelled at for sitting at home and doing absolutely "nothing".
Anyways, if you ever need to talk after a bad day, you can add me on Steam or Skype. I'm a good venting target and I like listening.
Thanks, I'll keep it in mind. But I feel like an ass when I rely on other people. I guess I just don't want to be an annoying burden or anything cause when I talk about this stuff it gets long and I usually just end up telling myself to shut up, realising I've been talking for ages.
I'm used to most people using me for venting purposes. I've even had friends in real life beat me up as a way to release some tension. Well, not genuinely BEAT ME UP, but you know, hit me a couple times. It's always worth it if it makes them feel better.
Also, usually there's nothing at all interesting about my day that I have to talk about.
[QUOTE=Pascall;27326584]I'm used to most people using me for venting purposes. I've even had friends in real life beat me up as a way to release some tension. Well, not genuinely BEAT ME UP, but you know, hit me a couple times. It's always worth it if it makes them feel better.[/QUOTE]
That doesn't seem healthy. Your friends should confront their problems rather than take them out of you in that way. You should stop letting them do that.
Also I need to get with a girl like right now.
Nah. I'm glad to help them. The physical aspect doesn't happen often, but it has happened before. And I usually make sure that my friends get some sound advice from me and they're not just using me to dump their problems on.
It's something that both my mom and I tend to do. And honestly, I like doing it because it puts my own problems into perspective and reminds me that I'm a lot better off than I thought.
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;27322581]if you do movies, it should be a dinner AND a movie, mainly to combat the fact that people dont talk much in movies, and women really want a date to get to know you, as you should get to know them. Depending where you live and age, try a Dave and Busters, its got some decent food and some fun activities you can bond over. But very good that you are motivated, almost as i was when i finally asked my crush out.[/QUOTE]
The closest Dave and Busters would mean I'd have to drive an hour, pick her up, then drive 2 and 1/2 more hours.
So pretty much: dinner AND a movie, or just go out for coffee, yeah?
Dinner and a movie always seems cheesy to me, I think. Too much pressure to consider it a "DATE" because of the cliche. But of course, it's not always a bad idea. I just think going somewhere more casual like for coffee and maybe just a stroll around your city or something to some different shops is a lot less intimidating.
All the time I see this thread, I feel a pain on my chest, as I have a mole there. Its sticking out 1mm, so when I start thinking "get stuff off your chest" I think "shave your mole so it hurts" - and I get this fear of it hurting. Its horrible.
I crapped in my pants in kindergarten class
My life is boring. That's all my worries except my mental issues documented on the other page.
Well, actually not all of them is written down there, but if i would, it would just sound dumb and senseless for you i guess.
[editline]10th January 2011[/editline]
What irony that just when i clicked this thread, the music in the roll went to a sad, opera music...
my dear beloved uncle just died in the military, I did not now him so well, but he was loved by my father, and now my father is sitting in the livingroom crying and my mom or me can't do anything, he wont eat, or sleep, or anything. he's just crying.
My best friend is probably the greatest best friend I could have ever asked for.
Just thought I'd throw that out there.
[QUOTE=09'er;27328815]my dear beloved uncle just died in the military, I did not now him so well, but he was loved by my father, and now my father is sitting in the livingroom crying and my mom or me can't do anything, he wont eat, or sleep, or anything. he's just crying.[/QUOTE]I know how your dad feels, a good uncle of mine died in a car crash back in 09
[QUOTE=09'er;27328815]my dear beloved uncle just died in the military, I did not now him so well, but he was loved by my father, and now my father is sitting in the livingroom crying and my mom or me can't do anything, he wont eat, or sleep, or anything. he's just crying.[/QUOTE]
there is not much you can do but be there for him, comfort him. I remember when my grandpa died, my father was devastated, i was too young to really do anything, but when the aniversery of his death comes around, i always be sure to spend a little extra time with him. Don't worry about the lack of sleep/eating etc. This is a more extreme way of grieving but he will get over the first stage. Just be sure you are there for him.
[QUOTE=Aulims] The closest Dave and Busters would mean I'd have to drive an hour, pick her up, then drive 2 and 1/2 more hours.
So pretty much: dinner AND a movie, or just go out for coffee, yeah? [/QUOTE]
I would suggest coffee, or maybe (depending on your age) go to a park or something, maybe ice skate, any activity that allows conversation to be the main affair. Coffee/ lunch is great for a first get together (lets not use the word 'date' yet) because at this stage you want to know her one on one, to see if her personality in a relationship atmosphere is what you want in a girl.
[QUOTE=XIII_GT] I plan on asking this girl I met at work before valentines dayeven though we've only spoken twice and I no longer work there.
She'd be the first girl I've ever asked out if I do ask her out [/QUOTE]
I would tell you to go for it, but it seems like you two barely know each other. So if you really want to get to know her, visit her at work, start up a conversation. This way you get comfortable with her and get to know a bit more about her. Then ask her out during her break, get a coffee/snack/lunch or something. But definitely get to know her before asking her out to break bc if you only talked twice ever, it would be kinda weird if one day you just went to her job and asked her out, if you know what i mean.
On another note, if she's your first, dont be afraid of rejection. As i've said before, regret is infinitely worse than rejection, you never want to be stuck thinking 'what if?' But you seem confident so keep that up.
Whenever I play music it always sounds crappy to me :saddowns:
[QUOTE=proch;27327783]My life is boring. That's all my worries except my mental issues documented on the other page.
Well, actually not all of them is written down there, but if i would, it would just sound dumb and senseless for you i guess.
[editline]10th January 2011[/editline]
What irony that just when i clicked this thread, the music in the roll went to a sad, opera music...[/QUOTE]
Try to make your life more exciting. Go out more. Try joining clubs at your school. Branch out and try talking to new people. Try to enjoy yourself even when you're not doing anything. There's always interesting things to read on the internet.
[editline]10th January 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=Revanold;27335547]Whenever I play music it always sounds crappy to me :saddowns:[/QUOTE]
When i play i sometimes am displeased that i'm not better. I also get upset when i spend hours on my art and it's not as good as i would like.
Just keep practice and try to take pride in your efforts
[editline]10th January 2011[/editline]
Also, sorry I haven't been on much recently. I'm having trouble deciding majors and such and I've been catching up with some old friend and my girlfriend since i've been back on campus.
Today I got home from work and my parents wernt in but my dads truck was home ,now my stepmother had a heart attack last year and a recent checkup revealed she was in danger of another,I phoned my dad and he said they were at the hospital because she wasnt feeling well,I am scared because I might lose the only mother I have ever known.
[QUOTE=JesseR92;27337968]Today I got home from work and my parents wernt in but my dads truck was home ,now my stepmother had a heart attack last year and a recent checkup revealed she was in danger of another,I phoned my dad and he said they were at the hospital because she wasnt feeling well,I am scared because I might lose the only mother I have ever known.[/QUOTE]She's in the best place possible right now, if she doesn't feel well. Don't worry, the doctors will take good care of her
I've fallen for this girl, who ironically didn't fall for me, or I think.
But instead of doing something like any other girl would do when a guy likes them, she decided to become a really close friend instead.
Well so now im stuck in a position were ive developed quite some feelings for a really good friend now, but I know they would never want to be in a relationship with me (well I assume), so i'm stuck with feeling down about it all the time, seeing shes constantly texting me and doing things that would to most people seem like shes interested, but at the same time explained shes just a good friend.
SO ive tried to forget her, but its proven impossible unless i tell her she needs to give me space, or actually try and find out if shes interested.
THE later is probably not true nor likely.
so its a no win situation from my perspective.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;27338587]I've fallen for this girl, who ironically didn't fall for me, or I think.
But instead of doing something like any other girl would do when a guy likes them, she decided to become a really close friend instead.
Well so now im stuck in a position were ive developed quite some feelings for a really good friend now, but I know they would never want to be in a relationship with me (well I assume), so i'm stuck with feeling down about it all the time, seeing shes constantly texting me and doing things that would to most people seem like shes interested, but at the same time explained shes just a good friend.
SO ive tried to forget her, but its proven impossible unless i tell her she needs to give me space, or actually try and find out if shes interested.
THE later is probably not true nor likely.
so its a no win situation from my perspective.[/QUOTE]She's either really friendly or she's interested in you. Look at her body language, that way you'll know for sure. She may say one thing, but her body language may show something entirely different.
[QUOTE=ScoutKing;27338587]I've fallen for this girl, who ironically didn't fall for me, or I think.
But instead of doing something like any other girl would do when a guy likes them, she decided to become a really close friend instead.
Well so now im stuck in a position were ive developed quite some feelings for a really good friend now, but I know they would never want to be in a relationship with me (well I assume), so i'm stuck with feeling down about it all the time, seeing shes constantly texting me and doing things that would to most people seem like shes interested, but at the same time explained shes just a good friend.
SO ive tried to forget her, but its proven impossible unless i tell her she needs to give me space, or actually try and find out if shes interested.
THE later is probably not true nor likely.
so its a no win situation from my perspective.[/QUOTE]
Don't waste your time. Trust me. I'm sure you won't take my advice, but I'll give it none-the-less. Just try to be her friend.
I failed my drivers test the other day
I'm sad now...
[QUOTE=nigfops;27339067]I failed my drivers test the other day
I'm sad now...[/QUOTE]
written or skills test?
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