• Shit That Gets You Mad v25 Too tired to be bored and too bored to be tired
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The mother of our chemistry teacher passed away yesterday. Today we are visiting him to pay respect,and its really awkward,since i still held a grudge toward him. Its really hard to describe what i feel at that time,because its clusterfuck of mixing. Regardless,i hope he will stay strong.
I wish there was a button I could press so I could die instantly and painlessly I hate being alive but I'm too afraid of the pain to just slit my wrists and be done with it [editline]e[/editline] Sorry I know that's uncomfortable for people to hear but I don't care right now and I need to vent at least a little bit somewhere
So that friend I was pissed off at came up this arvo to go on about how he cant find drugs and oh woe is him there are rumors being spread about him and oh his anxiety blah blah blah. Last night I sent a massive text to him after he asked for details about the movie I went to see (which I couldn't enjoy because I was sick). It reads: [QUOTE]I have no details because throughout all the movie if i wasn't coughing or trying to find something to do with the copius amounts of snot escaping my nose, i couldnt hear a thing because both ears are more pressurized than an illegal soccer ball. By the way thanks for giving me this. I know you gave me this because I live in isolation and the only two human beings im exposed to are my mother and you, and my mother wasnt sick before you started spreading your germs from that fucking new years party.[/QUOTE] All of today I hadn't had a reply from him. He comes up and hasn't mentioned the text message, hasn't said sorry, or anything. He acts like I'm not mad at him. Now he is going on about somebody elses birthday tomorrow, and I'm waiting to find out if he see's me on Friday for my birthday. It's highlighted on the calendar in my living room, and I've been talking about it for a week now I just found out from my mother that he came up and was like "Did you see what he sent me" and is upset about my text message. I replied: "HE'S UPSET? HE ISN'T THE ONE WHO HAS VIRTUALLY GONE DEAF IN ONE EAR AND HAD THEIR BIRTHDAY PLANS RUINED BY A SELF-ABSORBED RAVER WHO VANISHES AT THE FIRST SIGN OF ANYONE ELSE BEING PISSED!" Apparently after my mother explaining how sick I've been and how she's even told me to goto the hospital, all he could do was shrug and avoid the topic. He couldn't even fucking say sorry. I'm literally done with people right now. You fucking humans are despicable creatures and I wouldn't piss on a single one of you to save your life. EDIT: You know, I'm really fucking sick of him. You'd think from my description of him that he was 17 or 18? I'm 21 nearly 22, HE IS 29! Someone nearly in his 30's acts more like a child than someone who virtually is a child. I keep having to hold his hand when it comes to figuring out what train he has to get on to arrive at Destination X by Y o`clock. He comes up to me to ask for help with girlfriend troubles when I'm still a fucking virgin and have said time after time again "1. I don't stick my dick in crazy, and 2: All women are crazy. and most importantly 3: If a woman isn't crazy, she either isn't into men or she is hiding her crazy." It took him 9 months of everyone around him telling him the relationship he was in is toxic and going to harm him if it goes on any longer, but he refused to kick her out and never let her back because he didn't want to deal with conflict. He even lay down and let her walk all over him in court over an AVO claiming he raped her day after day when in reality he'd been going dry for 6 months because she wouldn't let him even sleep in his own bed. I'm fucking done. Fuck this world. Fuck all you crazy people. And especially fuck you Steve. You won't ever read this because Fast Threads is hidden from the public and you need adult supervision in order to "feel confident enough to visit a page you haven't visited before" but you'll happily do anything blizzard or microsoft tells you to do you fucking asswipe.
[QUOTE=Killer900;51653120]make a dentist appt ASAP[/QUOTE] I already have one coming up on next Wednesday. So far its still benign but if it gets worse I'm going to an emergency dentist.
Fantastic my phone screen just broke, out of nowhere, while I was using it just went black and was ruined
i get along with everyone great but i feel pretty lonely at uni. should've gone in to halls [editline]11th January 2017[/editline] plus people flake out of shit all the time it's annoying as fuck
Conspiracy theorists are stupid. They think they're super-sleuths with their ~reveal-all~ Youtube "documentaries" which are just clip compilations with their voices overlaid, and their audience just eats it up because it goes along with their confirmation bias.
[QUOTE=Arctic-Zone;51655209]Conspiracy theorists are stupid. They think they're super-sleuths with their ~reveal-all~ Youtube "documentaries" which are just clip compilations with their voices overlaid, and their audience just eats it up because it goes along with their confirmation bias.[/QUOTE] Are you sure aliens didn't do 9/11 and the government isn't trying to give my children autism to prepare them for top secret space colonization on mars?
Only the third day of the semester and I get a fever.
That one fucker that's desperate to prove that they know the subject without even being in the class and very much want you to know what they feel about certain topics Like I'm not here to learn from you nor get your opinion, I'm trying to learn and succeed in silence like everyone else in the room
Why is there a meme lord in every single one of my classes Why do they always sit near me What did I do to deserve this
Selected next day delivery yesterday, isn't here yet. Yeah yea, first world problems, but dammit regular delivery would've been free at least.
Tbh I think dog owners are massive idiots when they don't train their dog to not bark like you walk across the street and this little asshole dog just runs up and barks for an hour over literally nothing and then they'll just pretend it "Isn't their fault" but if you can't control them don't buy a dog I understand maybe some people legitimately can't but most of the time you should be able to handle your god damn pets
Had a PHP program i was supposed to deliver in for school tomorrow. I fucked [I]something[/I] up and now half the site doesn't function anymore and PHP is referring to dead ends. Well this is probably going to be my first failed Programming assignment (we had to make a sort of Facebook program)
Well my school's online student center goes to shit on Chrome and I have to download Firefox to use the Student Center and [I]only[/I] the student center. Yeah I pay thousands of dollars and they can't get a fucking service that works with the browser 56% of people use. Fuck off
Anger is the conditioned means to exacerbate suffering by justifying it's validity as a lesson. When anger presents itself, one might punch the wall as pain is a great motivator to do better. However, renunciating dislike has the advantage of peace and tranquility of mind.
every video on Youtube has >90% likes. Effectively destroying any kind of user feedback and turning it into a like collecting game. They don't really expect people to believe 99% of the content on youtube is 10/10? They're trying to do away with any kind of negative feedback so no one is ever turned away from any video and everything is watched 10 times as much with more advertising space, who cares if they user enjoys the content. Of course people who go to a video are going to like it, combined with everyone begging for likes.
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Somewhat recently I turned 18, and that means that I'll be kicked out my current mental health clinic (who only serve <18 year olds) unless I start taking my Ritalin again (which made me very depressed as a side effect) and I may not be able to attend the adult mental health clinic (something about not being worth the resources). Meaning that outside of pills I'll have no professional help with my anxiety.
[QUOTE=Unique_mask;51657876]Somewhat recently I turned 18, and that means that I'll be kicked out my current mental health clinic (who only serve <18 year olds) unless I start taking my Ritalin again (which made me very depressed as a side effect) and I may not be able to attend the adult mental health clinic (something about not being worth the resources). Meaning that outside of pills I'll have no professional help with my anxiety.[/QUOTE] I'm a bit confused. You can't see someone who specializes in CBT? Is anxiety all you're diagnosed with? I'm going to jump the gun and assume it's the duo of depression/anxiety. Ritalin doesn't treat anxiety so I'm not sure why you're being given that. It's actually argued to make anxiety far worse. If you're just trying to treat anxiety I'd recommend an [I]as needed [/I]prescription of benzodiazepines and behavioral therapy. It helped me at least. Maybe I'm misunderstanding.
[QUOTE=jbthekid;51657917]I'm a bit confused. You can't see someone who specializes in CBT? Is anxiety all you're diagnosed with? I'm going to jump the gun and assume it's the duo of depression/anxiety. Ritalin doesn't treat anxiety so I'm not sure why you're being given that. It's actually argued to make anxiety far worse. If you're just trying to treat anxiety I'd recommend an [I]as needed [/I]prescription of benzodiazepines and behavioral therapy. It helped me at least. Maybe I'm misunderstanding.[/QUOTE] I originally went there due to ADD issues (hence the ritalin). Last year I was prescribed Fluoxotine. I was due for therapy whilst at this mental health clinic, but because I'm 18 and I no longer take ritalin, they do not feel that they should take me on. However, when we asked about being moved over to the adult mental health clinic, they said that I probably won't be able to.
[QUOTE=Unique_mask;51657932]I originally went there due to ADD issues (hence the ritalin). Last year I was prescribed Fluoxotine. I was due for therapy whilst at this mental health clinic, but because I'm 18 and I no longer take ritalin, they do not feel that they should take me on. However, when we asked about being moved over to the adult mental health clinic, they said that I probably won't be able to.[/QUOTE] IMO find a better clinic. Sounds sketch to me. There has to be something. Anyway still nothing about the fish for sale and I'm worried my desert will end up burning. UGHH.
[QUOTE=GamerChick;51657955]IMO find a better clinic. Sounds sketch to me. There has to be something. [/QUOTE] Ehh, it's been awful for a long while, never had the same person twice every since my main doc retired, all we really got now is my GP, but even then it's not a perma GP. Town is awful cus there's not many mental health places.
Fucking stink bugs, the smell they produce is so annoying. I always smell them before I see them, or they like kamikaze down into my head.
Finally got a response from curse about my forum account. Went to login to zendesk using twitter. Clicking authorize app flashes a message for a billionth of a second and does absolutely nothing. Tried logging in using email address. Forgot password. Went to reset password- "You cannot reset your password" WELL FUCKING JOY ISN'T THIS SOME KIND OF BULLSHIT??
The teacher who failed me at Thermodynamics also gives the re-course class. I'm basically fucked
[img]http://i.imgur.com/s4rAb7v.jpg[/img] When you pull over, but they're not after you.
Well, isn't that jolly fun. Turns out that my new english teacher gave us a faulty email or something so no-one from us was able to deliver in our film report. Now I really hope he isn't gonna make it into a complaint shitstorm because of it. (And what is the deal with teachers who feel the need to [I]rant[/I] over a single issue in the span of a hour or more.)
I keep fucking everything up and getting everyone mad at me, and I keep trying to do nice things they either don't work or they're not as simple as I expected or people don't like them, and I really just feel like a general inconvenience for everyone.
Been feeling pretty hopeless lately. I feel like there's several things fundamentally wrong with my brain that are preventing me from ever finding anything even close to resembling happiness, beyond brief glimmers, ever again. I don't even have any idea how to even begin to describe the issue, but it's not depression. I think. I'm sure there are plenty of people that have it worse than me in the world but I also kinda wish I would just get struck by a meteor or something. I would never kill myself but I don't know if I'd really protest just mysteriously and suddenly dying at this point.
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