Everything.
I am the largest worrywart in a 50 mile radius.
I'm not even joking.
I've started to become more curious about starting to smoke. I've never felt like starting it my whole life since I know it's unhealthy and I've tried and disliked the taste... but I'm getting more tempted because it would be something that would force me outside rather sitting at my computer all day, it seems to be such a great way to make people socialize with each other and to have something in common with strangers, I semi want my mom to kick me out of the apartment so that I'll have an easier time getting the government to fix a place of my own, and quite frankly I feel shit enough about my life that I'm not too worried about increasing my chances of dieing prematurely.
I can't quite decide what I want to do anymore. It seems the most simple way to force a change in my life.
Death.
Nukes.
The fact that my legs will probably be useless between now and my 50th year due to my genetic Becker's muscular dystrophy that will probably caught up with me and basically burn away my muscles resulting in a less then average lifetime(and having to shallow pills) and lowering the standard of life.
And the fact that I am very lazy and don't like being very social at times.
some of the stuff in the shit that turns you on thread.
When I wake up in the middle of the night from pains in my stomach, I immediately go into " oh god stomach virus aaaaaaa " mode
Since two days ago, whenever I go to bed, or wake up in the middle of the night (happens twice) I hear footsteps and see things that aren't there.
Anything to do with the prospect of losing friends or lovers. Anxiety like that really rules over a portion of my life and doctors can't help me. They just try to act like psychologists. Weed is the only thing that has managed to ease it.
[QUOTE=Gwoodman;43062429]Driving.
God, I hope I never fuck up[/QUOTE]
Other drivers are what scare me. I've been driving for almost 9 years now and have no accidents or tickets on my record. But I've almost been in 3 accidents due to the stupidity of other people on the road.
Crossing the road. I am terrified of getting hit by a car; after I saved a woman who had her leg torn off by one.
So many things worry me and make me anxious like I could collapse at any given moment.
But what worries me now is if my computer with die... I replaced the harddrive a few months ago and that feeling of desperation and horror has never left me yet :v: I don't want my baby to die again.
Don't even get me started on moving out. My stomach gets so knotted up and I feel so sick with nervousness. I've never been outside of my own state (Missouri) but I'm moving to Wisconsin in like two weeks by myself I feel like I'm gonna shit out my entire body. I won't be alone but I'm so nervous about everything going wrong. I know I'm not allowed back either that just makes it 1000000% worse. My parents are gone I have no idea where my mom is and my dad's been in and out of prison more times than I can count. My step dad tells me he hates me being around; I'm 21 and I hate mself so fucking much and I'm scared to kill myself, this entire world is too much for me. I don't know how I was the fastest sperm, I'm literally nothing special. I hate life. It scares me. Death sounds so good right now.
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[editline]4th December 2013[/editline]
the only thing I'm glad for is that I'm infertile. No way am I going to make kids live in this shitty anxiety-ridden world.
I graduate high school next year and I have literally no fucking clue what I want to do
I'm almost 30 and I've spent the last eight years in a job which I have no interest in beyond the paycheque, which is fine except now that I'm facing marriage and parenthood I can picture being in a job that bores me for the next thirty years.
Im worried I won't be able to have kids. I want to have a big family and have a few kids, since Im the last line of my family if I dont have some kids my bloodline/name oretty much dies(except that Im part of the O'Reilly/ Reilly clan, pretty big)
School/work related shit.. it's like they made this shit to make you lose sleep, destroy your health, make you lose all of your friends, and die in a hole, buried under paperwork. The fact that I don't want to be there and would rather be flying some sort of floaty machines around isn't helping.
In all seriousness it is starting to take a toll on my metabolism, which isn't good. I have to force myself to get up (usually around noon if I don't have work), I don't eat hardly anything all day except for dinner or whatever is in front of me, and then I am up till god knows when because I never seem to get any free time other than that, then the process repeats itself.
My mood has also been terrible lately, and my mom's nagging and berating is seriously pissing me the fuck off. I can't concentrate on anything. I need a damn break/need to move out of the house but I have no money.
:pwn:
I've been worrying about an issue that I have been having
My heart has been skipping a beat (i think that is what it is doing) once every couple of weeks. It has been happening for a year or so and I haven't actually seen a doctor, because I don't know what it is or how to effectively describe it. When it happens my heart just briefly feels dead, and I feel as if all life has been sucked out of my chest. I wheeze a few times, but by then, my heart has returned to normal.
It has happened three times today.
[QUOTE=Sockem;43074868]I've been worrying about an issue that I have been having
My heart has been skipping a beat (i think) once every couple of weeks. It has been happening for a year or so and I haven't actually seen a doctor, because I don't know what it is or how to effectively describe it. When it happens my heart just briefly feels dead, and I feel as if all life has been sucked out of my chest. I wheeze a few times, but by then, my heart has returned to normal.
It has happened three times today.[/QUOTE]
Go see a doc. Trust me on stuff like that.
[QUOTE=fruxodaily;43067786]I graduate high school next year and I have literally no fucking clue what I want to do[/QUOTE]
I'd say take a gap year. You can use that to get a job, explore different fields, and just take some time to figure out where you want to end up. I'm sure you [I]don't[/I] want to end up with a degree you can't use or a job you hate. I took my time and I'm very happy with where I'm at.
Black people walking behind me at night. Gets me worried as fuck.
I used a gas mask for a STALKER costume and I still don't know if the filter was safe to use or not
[QUOTE=kiloy;43075533]I used a gas mask for a STALKER costume and I still don't know if the filter was safe to use or not[/QUOTE]
Ur gonna fuckin die.
!!!!1!!GIMMOK IS GOD OF FAST THREADS ALL WILL BOW BEFORE ME AND SAY HORSERADISH!!!!!!
Now that it's winter it's really fucking dark outside so I never know where fuck I am when on the bus home.
The kids at my school.
They're druggies, but my school mostly expelled all the cunts.
Now there are only a few (three or two) drug cunts left, but I feel sorry for them...
Because now they aren't as bad with all their friends banished from the school.
And apparently they don't do drugs anymore.
But I'm worried that they might do something 'reckless' in the near future, since, like I said, they aren't that bad anymore. But still, they were brought up by rebel kids.
When I have to choose between paying one bill or the other because I got laid off and the only place that'd hire on short notice was pizza hut and nobody else is hiring within a 50 mile radius of my house.
One of the crappy things about living in the middle of nowhere.
I have this constant fear that there is a keylogger or a virus with remote access on my pc or that my pc is part of a botnet.
.
Going blind.
It doesn't help that I have this shitty genetically-declining vision.
On that note, cloudy eyes in the morning/late at night is normal right? I think it's just because my eyes get dry
or is it cataracts :l
[QUOTE=kiloy;43075533]I used a gas mask for a STALKER costume and I still don't know if the filter was safe to use or not[/QUOTE]
I did this as well last Halloween 2012 and I haven't died..... yet
[QUOTE=GamerChick;43074636]School/work related shit.. it's like they made this shit to make you lose sleep, destroy your health, make you lose all of your friends, and die in a hole, buried under paperwork. The fact that I don't want to be there and would rather be flying some sort of floaty machines around isn't helping.
In all seriousness it is starting to take a toll on my metabolism, which isn't good. I have to force myself to get up (usually around noon if I don't have work), I don't eat hardly anything all day except for dinner or whatever is in front of me, and then I am up till god knows when because I never seem to get any free time other than that, then the process repeats itself.
My mood has also been terrible lately, and my mom's nagging and berating is seriously pissing me the fuck off. I can't concentrate on anything. I need a damn break/need to move out of the house but I have no money.
:pwn:[/QUOTE]
It'll get better mate just keep your chin up
[QUOTE=Minimole;43085381]I did this as well last Halloween 2012 and I haven't died..... yet[/QUOTE]
What gasmask did you use?
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