How my lethargy and bad disposition are dominating me. I'm falling into a horrible rut and I'm losing options quickly. Every day, I become less and less likely to be successful in the future. I keep trying to fix my situation--to get out of this hell--but I can't bring myself to do anything anymore.
Student loan debt. The field I will be going into does not have really great salary levels for long term positions, there are short term jobs that pay really well but normally only for 2-4 months in the warmer parts of the year. I dont want to be in debt for the next few decades, but the only way I can do what I want is to have a degree which I cant afford without loans.
Also I kind of worried about what to do with my life after I finish my B.S. in biology. My adviser has told me that with my credentials I should be able to go through graduate school for free (or actually making money working for a university); but I worry that if I get my masters I may be "over qualified" for some of the field work I want.
the fact that I have no friends.
well, at least I don't think so but apparently I do. people miss me but I'm unable to socially interact with most of them. I want to hole up at home, hide.
[editline]8th December 2013[/editline]
I think it's bullshit that they miss me, probably something they're just saying to make me feel better
The Big One.
I live in SoCal and I can safely say this place will turn into a fucking warzone once the water runs dry and other resources get wiped out.
Good thing I know how to defend myself. I keep having nightmares about it though, I have no idea why.
I've only recently gotten serious about music, I've always had an interest in it but never practiced any instruments for very long. I'm worried I've waited too long to properly learn.
[QUOTE=Cyanish;43109820]I've only recently gotten serious about music, I've always had an interest in it but never practiced any instruments for very long. I'm worried I've waited too long to properly learn.[/QUOTE]
I'm worried my guitar skills will be gone. I played for two years, haven't picked up my guitar in months though, I've been too busy. All that money wasted if I suck now...
The fact that I'm on the chopping block to lose my job and the guy they just hired is better than me in every way.
The outside world is worrying.
I'm in my final year of highschool, after this I'll have 4 more years of school.
I'm afraid that when I'm done with school, and have to work, I'll have no friends at all.
I worry that I'll never get into college. I'm a little young but what if it never happens?
I'm pretty much a genius with a bad work ethic.
[QUOTE=PredGD;43109450]the fact that I have no friends.
well, at least I don't think so but apparently I do. people miss me but I'm unable to socially interact with most of them. I want to hole up at home, hide.
[editline]8th December 2013[/editline]
I think it's bullshit that they miss me, probably something they're just saying to make me feel better[/QUOTE]
I feel exactly the same, i always go straight home after school and hide away in my house.
I'm always feeling lonely yet i always seek solitude.
I guess i just like feeling sorry for myself. Self-pitying is a dangerous thing.
The internet in Australia is never going to improve, while America is getting mind exploding google fiber speeds it still takes me about an hour to download a GB, and they have the fucking nerve to charge $100 a month
Honestly it will probably get worse
Turning the lights off downstairs when you're the only one home...
I don't want my mom finding out about my math grade. She won't believe me that it was the professor's fault and will rip on me for playing video games/possibly smash my pc in a fit of rage.
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