Shit That Gets You Mad V4.0: "YOU KNOW I DIDN'T EAT" - General

[QUOTE=FreakySoup;34641933]At this rate you'll have 12k by December[/QUOTE] what, how? wait what the fuck I'm at almost 1300. Technically if you factor in my other alts you have almost 4K I guess.

[QUOTE=SuperDuperScoot;34642252]I have an easy life but I always hate on myself like I have a terrible one, caused by me and only me. Does anyone have an explanation for my massive self-hatred, even though I'm normally happy-go-lucky? I've explained the severity of it before so I'm not explaining again. Apparently some people thought I was crying for attention by posting it.[/QUOTE] my self hatred stems from my overt introspection. I'm always fuckin' thinking and the more I think the more I get paranoid that people hate me/I'm useless/whatever. If I could just shut off for a second it'd be grand. Are you quite 'thinky'? also shit that gets me mad is for munchies I just ordered 9 pieces of chicken and 4 portions of chips holy fuck

I always read your name as Strawberried.

[QUOTE=HorizoN;34642430]I always read your name as Strawberried.[/QUOTE] I always read it in my head as stray-eeh-byururyurrd

[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;34642548]I always read it in my head as stray-eeh-byururyurrd[/QUOTE] I've never actually thought about how it's pronounced, it could be anything!

[QUOTE=HorizoN;34641040]This guy read my mind. I dislike HorizoN as well![/QUOTE] Oh, [i]that's[/i] how I got there I clicked your quote without paying attention and was all like [quote][media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BonF_ntgA7E&feature=related[/media][/quote] I was so fucking confused

[QUOTE=strayebyrd;34642399]my self hatred stems from my overt introspection. I'm always fuckin' thinking and the more I think the more I get paranoid that people hate me/I'm useless/whatever. If I could just shut off for a second it'd be grand. Are you quite 'thinky'? also shit that gets me mad is for munchies I just ordered 9 pieces of chicken and 4 portions of chips holy fuck[/QUOTE] Well, sort of... Let me sub it so it doesn't eat the page. Copy/paste or quote if you wish to read because I know there are [I]some people[/I] out there who don't want to see a shitty sob story even though [B]they aren't being forced to read it at all.[/B] [sub][sub][sub][sub]I always doubt myself. I'm never sure whether something I said is going to make a whole ton of people think I'm retarded or whatever. And most of the time, when I DO say something stupid or ridiculously wrong to the truth, it happens to be on Facepunch. And the flurry of boxes, although just being 16x16 images, still come off as nasty insults to me that say nothing more then "you're fucking stupid." On top of that it doesn't help that I already believe I'm not smart. Which that in itself has proven to be mostly true, because I misinterpret so much, and my brain is so slow at processing information, to be able to think before I speak or act, takes around 10 minutes to calculate all the backlash that could come from said words or actions. It's impossible for me to have a normal conversation without stalling for 10 minutes or immediately responding and coming off like I'm mentally challenged or just plain stupid. Let's put this simply: Say, everyone has a glass bottle that they bottle up emotions of all types in. When it breaks, you explode in whatever emotion triggered it. Some have small, yet thick bottles (can't store much but it's hard to break), large, but thin bottles (Stores a lot but easy to break) and other combinations of bottle types. I, for one, have a tiny, hair-thick bottle taped up with scotch tape. I can barely bottle emotions, especially against myself, and the smallest things can shatter it. When it comes to insults, that does the most damage, but the least external impact. Though it makes me blow up on the inside, I'm good at hiding it on the outside so no one really knows, because only a whiny bitch lets online insults affect them, right? Because it's just words. But trying to hide it takes a toll on my already fragile self-esteem. I have no one to let these things out to, because every one I talk to doesn't give a shit about it, or just thinks I'm a spineless wimp because I'm upset over someone insulting me over the fucking internet. "Just block them!" They say. In my eyes if you have to rely on a blocking system to ignore someone who's trying to raise emotions out of you, you're worse then a spineless wimp. And even when I try to tell them that they just think I'm stupid for believing in that. On top of all of this... Every time I explain my problems online where other people can read it, such as here, I start to think and feel like "Oh God they're going to judge me and think I'm some whiny fuck crying for attention..." When that's never my intention at all! I just want someone to understand what I'm going through, and that I want it to stop. I don't like seeming like I'm crying for attention. I don't like seeming like I'm just a fucking spoiled brat over the "I have an easy life but I always hate on myself like I have a terrible one, caused by me and only me" deal. I don't like any of it. It's an endless loop. I hate myself more for hating myself even though I don't have a terrible life. I feel worthless because of it.[/sub][/sub][/sub][/sub] I don't know if any of this makes any sense because I am so horrible at constructing sentences into what I want it to say.

[QUOTE=smithy69;34640552]I have something big planned for my 800th post. I'm sure all of you can figure out what it's going to be.[/QUOTE] I don't have anything special to do for my 1000th post, so I'll just do it here. :dance:1000 post!:dance: Took me long enough.

[QUOTE=SuperDuperScoot;34642629]Well, sort of... Let me sub it so it doesn't eat the page. Copy/paste or quote if you wish to read because I know there are [I]some people[/I] out there who don't want to see a shitty sob story even though [B]they aren't being forced to read it at all.[/B] [sub][sub][sub][sub]I always doubt myself. I'm never sure whether something I said is going to make a whole ton of people think I'm retarded or whatever. And most of the time, when I DO say something stupid or ridiculously wrong to the truth, it happens to be on Facepunch. And the flurry of boxes, although just being 16x16 images, still come off as nasty insults to me that say nothing more then "you're fucking stupid." On top of that it doesn't help that I already believe I'm not smart. Which that in itself has proven to be mostly true, because I misinterpret so much, and my brain is so slow at processing information, to be able to think before I speak or act, takes around 10 minutes to calculate all the backlash that could come from said words or actions. It's impossible for me to have a normal conversation without stalling for 10 minutes or immediately responding and coming off like I'm mentally challenged or just plain stupid. Let's put this simply: Say, everyone has a glass bottle that they bottle up emotions of all types in. When it breaks, you explode in whatever emotion triggered it. Some have small, yet thick bottles (can't store much but it's hard to break), large, but thin bottles (Stores a lot but easy to break) and other combinations of bottle types. I, for one, have a tiny, hair-thick bottle taped up with scotch tape. I can barely bottle emotions, especially against myself, and the smallest things can shatter it. When it comes to insults, that does the most damage, but the least external impact. Though it makes me blow up on the inside, I'm good at hiding it on the outside so no one really knows, because only a whiny bitch lets online insults affect them, right? Because it's just words. But trying to hide it takes a toll on my already fragile self-esteem. I have no one to let these things out to, because every one I talk to doesn't give a shit about it, or just thinks I'm a spineless wimp because I'm upset over someone insulting me over the fucking internet. "Just block them!" They say. In my eyes if you have to rely on a blocking system to ignore someone who's trying to raise emotions out of you, you're worse then a spineless wimp. And even when I try to tell them that they just think I'm stupid for believing in that. On top of all of this... Every time I explain my problems online where other people can read it, such as here, I start to think and feel like "Oh God they're going to judge me and think I'm some whiny fuck crying for attention..." When that's never my intention at all! I just want someone to understand what I'm going through, and that I want it to stop. I don't like seeming like I'm crying for attention. I don't like seeming like I'm just a fucking spoiled brat over the "I have an easy life but I always hate on myself like I have a terrible one, caused by me and only me" deal. I don't like any of it. It's an endless loop. I hate myself more for hating myself even though I don't have a terrible life. I feel worthless because of it.[/sub][/sub][/sub][/sub] I don't know if any of this makes any sense because I am so horrible at constructing sentences into what I want it to say.[/QUOTE] Hey, remember your advice?

[QUOTE=SuperDuperScoot;34642629]Well, sort of... Let me sub it so it doesn't eat the page. Copy/paste or quote if you wish to read because I know there are [I]some people[/I] out there who don't want to see a shitty sob story even though [B]they aren't being forced to read it at all.[/B] [sub][sub][sub][sub]I always doubt myself. I'm never sure whether something I said is going to make a whole ton of people think I'm retarded or whatever. And most of the time, when I DO say something stupid or ridiculously wrong to the truth, it happens to be on Facepunch. And the flurry of boxes, although just being 16x16 images, still come off as nasty insults to me that say nothing more then "you're fucking stupid." On top of that it doesn't help that I already believe I'm not smart. Which that in itself has proven to be mostly true, because I misinterpret so much, and my brain is so slow at processing information, to be able to think before I speak or act, takes around 10 minutes to calculate all the backlash that could come from said words or actions. It's impossible for me to have a normal conversation without stalling for 10 minutes or immediately responding and coming off like I'm mentally challenged or just plain stupid. Let's put this simply: Say, everyone has a glass bottle that they bottle up emotions of all types in. When it breaks, you explode in whatever emotion triggered it. Some have small, yet thick bottles (can't store much but it's hard to break), large, but thin bottles (Stores a lot but easy to break) and other combinations of bottle types. I, for one, have a tiny, hair-thick bottle taped up with scotch tape. I can barely bottle emotions, especially against myself, and the smallest things can shatter it. When it comes to insults, that does the most damage, but the least external impact. Though it makes me blow up on the inside, I'm good at hiding it on the outside so no one really knows, because only a whiny bitch lets online insults affect them, right? Because it's just words. But trying to hide it takes a toll on my already fragile self-esteem. I have no one to let these things out to, because every one I talk to doesn't give a shit about it, or just thinks I'm a spineless wimp because I'm upset over someone insulting me over the fucking internet. "Just block them!" They say. In my eyes if you have to rely on a blocking system to ignore someone who's trying to raise emotions out of you, you're worse then a spineless wimp. And even when I try to tell them that they just think I'm stupid for believing in that. On top of all of this... Every time I explain my problems online where other people can read it, such as here, I start to think and feel like "Oh God they're going to judge me and think I'm some whiny fuck crying for attention..." When that's never my intention at all! I just want someone to understand what I'm going through, and that I want it to stop. I don't like seeming like I'm crying for attention. I don't like seeming like I'm just a fucking spoiled brat over the "I have an easy life but I always hate on myself like I have a terrible one, caused by me and only me" deal. I don't like any of it. It's an endless loop. I hate myself more for hating myself even though I don't have a terrible life. I feel worthless because of it.[/sub][/sub][/sub][/sub] I don't know if any of this makes any sense because I am so horrible at constructing sentences into what I want it to say.[/QUOTE] see this is a difficult area, because I can tell you that people don't hate you/think less of you, but if you're anything like me you'll still doubt it all. The thing you have to understand is, having an easy life doesn't just mean ding dong you're happy. I've had a pretty shit life and I'm not that happy, but my friend has had a pretty smooth life and he feels even worse than I do. If you feel bad, noone can tell you that you don't deserve to. You're a living breathing thing, your life and your mind have an unalienable and eternal value that nothing and no one can detract from

[QUOTE=HorizoN;34642714]Hey, remember your advice?[/QUOTE] Yeah, and I do try to stand up for myself but... Standing up for yourself doesn't mean it prevents getting hurt. Sure, you've got the balls to say something but even the strongest people can still be hurting and you'd never know it.

Well now I feel bad for pouring my depressed self onto your chat box. Sorry about that.

When girls get mad when I call them bro or dude they're all like "I'M NOT A BRO/DUDE" [img]http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_ll1i5qMBTU1qz4teno1_500.gif[/img] [I]Everyone is a dude, dude.[/i] I mean what the fuck do they want me to call them? Sis? Dudette? THAT'S FUCKING STUPID AND YOU KNOW IT

[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;34642756] I mean what the fuck do they want me to call them? Sis? [b]Dudette[/b]? THAT'S FUCKING STUPID AND YOU KNOW IT[/QUOTE] But I love calling people dudette...

[QUOTE=strayebyrd;34642719]see this is a difficult area, because I can tell you that people don't hate you/think less of you, but if you're anything like me you'll still doubt it all. The thing you have to understand is, having an easy life doesn't just mean ding dong you're happy. I've had a pretty shit life and I'm not that happy, but my friend has had a pretty smooth life and he feels even worse than I do. If you feel bad, noone can tell you that you don't deserve to. You're a living breathing thing, your life and your mind have an unalienable and eternal value that nothing and no one can detract from[/QUOTE] Oh no, there are a few people who think less of me. Not entirely dislike but still look down on me as a lesser person because if the retarded actions and things I say. The big problem here is that Facepunch... I... Really don't belong here in my opinion. I see myself of an anime-loving Sonic/Megaman/Pokemon fancharacter drawing weeaboo retard, which I know, 99% of Facepunch hates either, or both of those qualities in people. Some people have told me to "go back to Gaia Online lol" (not on Facepunch per say but in Valve multiplayer games like TF2) and I've considered it since I used to be a member for 4 years, but my intellectual ability far exceeds over half the spergling population on that site. So I'm in a limbo. One's full of idiots, but accepting ones who might understand how I feel. The other's full of some really smart people, but very harsh and think you're crying for attention *because you're not manly enough* to keep your problems to yourself. *exaggeration Edit: And there's this problem where if I ever state that I'm female on Facepunch to avoid making people think I'm gay (not that there's anything wrong with that, it's just incorrect information about me!!), they freak out and act like I said something like "LOL IMMA GURL GAMER RESPEK ME!!1 ^_~" when I've never said anything of the sort. Some people have said that "omg we know you're a girl stop saying that" but Jesus H. Christ, not everyone knows and how am I supposed to know who knows or not, it's not like I can fucking control who can and can't read things I say! And when people freak out like that and send a flurry of boxes and insults at me, it's another thing that adds into my self-hatred.

I honestly can't tell if anyone who uses the overused "kill yourself" response is being serious or just joking. I'm afraid that if I ask I'll end up feeling dumb when someone says they were obviously joking (And of course end getting a shit ton of boxes). The only reason why I'm leaning towards joke is because telling someone to take their own life over a shitty video seems like a huge overreaction, in my opinion. However, all the agrees the post get/will most likely get will make me think otherwise.

In games where you need to follow NPCs and when you walk normally you go too slow, but when you run you go too fast. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA [SUB] [SUB]Skyrim greybeards[/SUB][/SUB]

[QUOTE=BlueYoshi;34642867]In games where you need to follow NPCs and when you walk normally you go too slow, but when you run you go too fast. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA [SUB] [SUB]Skyrim greybeards[/SUB][/SUB][/QUOTE] I know, it's fucking tiresome because sometimes they're even slower than walking speed.

I've gotten lots of boxes. I just stopped giving a shit.

[QUOTE=HorizoN;34642879]I've gotten lots of boxes. I just stopped giving a shit.[/QUOTE] this is all you can really do. It sucks, but you just have to let your skin thicken a bit I suppose. Not easy but one of the few real answers I can genuinely give

Yeah... I'm trying to ignore them and I'm doing kind of well so far, but there's still that little fragile part of myself in the back of myself, shivering in the corner thinking "Oh God someone thinks I'm dumb my reputation is even lower now everyone's gonna think I'm retarded and laugh at whatever I say when I'm completely serious and never believe I'm saying a smart thing ever again and...." And it just goes on. Maybe I have a mild case of schizophrenia... v:v:v

This will probably sound really stupid, but something that really pisses me off is when someone says a game is for a console that it isn't for. Like, I was browsing through the older generation video game ads on Kijiji and some guy had Pokemon Red and Pokemon Yellow listed as GBC games when they're actually GB games. It pisses me off, and I don't know why. I guess it's just the fact that I'm a collector and what not and that I have all this extensive knowledge of video games and I expect that others have the same knowledge.

Well I have just been friendzoned. To be honest I'm just happy I got to this point to begin with. [editline]Horizon you bitch[/editline]How the hell is this dumb?

To everybody who has made fun of my lisp: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=22YWYAtcyEA&feature=player_embedded[/media]

[QUOTE=kaine123;34643001]Well I have just been friendzoned. To be honest I'm just happy I got to this point to begin with.[/QUOTE] I got green hill zoned, man.

[QUOTE=SuperDuperScoot;34642920]Yeah... I'm trying to ignore them and I'm doing kind of well so far, but there's still that little fragile part of myself in the back of myself, shivering in the corner thinking "Oh God someone thinks I'm dumb my reputation is even lower now everyone's gonna think I'm retarded and laugh at whatever I say when I'm completely serious and never believe I'm saying a smart thing ever again and...." And it just goes on. Maybe I have a mild case of schizophrenia... v:v:v[/QUOTE] So I'm not the only one? I usually get it out by punching my desk. trustory

[QUOTE=kaine123;34643001]Well I have just been friendzoned. To be honest I'm just happy I got to this point to begin with.[/QUOTE] Its ok, we've all been there, bro. It sure does suck...

[QUOTE=Skyward;34643193]Its ok, we've all been there, bro.[/QUOTE] I ain't :v: I ain't been anywhere :suicide:

[quote][media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QnI0WYMY6YI&list=FLaTTUAv-b91cAePNfVD_hJw&index=2&feature=plpp_video[/media][/quote] Man, I like this song a lot, but I wish I had any fucking idea what they were saying.

[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;34643167]I got green hill zoned, man.[/QUOTE] I think I got it worse. I got Chemical Plant Zoned. My hair has never been the same since.