Shit You'd Like To Confess On An Online Forum V2: We're all sinners!
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Why'd you break it off?
At one moment in time, we felt more like bffs than anything, I guess. Ehen she turned 16, i could sleep over and we really did burn it out. Spend around 5 to 6 days on average with her, also sleeping over even though we didnt go to the same school (yet). It was fun at first but then it started to rapidly decline. She is also depressed and i didnt kow how to help her or comfort her or be there for her. I sadly got annoyed and didnt want to hear it at one point. Well this continued and we started fighting about the smallest of things. Like tickling one another would result in that "im not an object for you to play with when you like" or whatever. We both had our gripes.
But ultimately, i broke it off when she got a tattoo that was both really big to me as that she "broke" a very special promise to me. She promised me not to take too many tattoos at first. I liked them, but not the big ones. She had one lion head on her back and in my handwriting "stay strong" on her lower arm. Then came the other tattoos. 2 small ones and them the big ones. This happened in the last 1,5 years and it went too quick for me. I asked her "why she broke the promise" and the answer i got was the game changer. I was so pissed i could've let her behind in a burning house for all i cared about.
"Its my body"
No, no it isnt. Not when you're in a relationship with someone you care about. Like i said, i didnt want her to never take tattoos again, but covering her body with big ones put me off to an extreme extend. I cant find her attractive anymore.
But i still fucking miss her. I miss everything, from the smell of her hair to her voice and the way she wakes up. I honestly hate myself. I've become tolerant of the tatoos since then, but there is no possible way to fix what has been broken in my eyes, because through the months ive said some nasty shit to her
I think I'm falling in love with my best friend, doesn't help that we're close enough that they say things like "Bye, I love you" to end conversations
All this talk of friends reminds me that I don't have any. Most were assholes but the genuine, little bit I had left I pushed away because of my depression. I kinda hate myself for it.
[QUOTE=LoNer1;49133969]
"Its my body"
No, no it isnt. Not when you're in a relationship with someone you care about. Like i said, i didnt want her to never take tattoos again, but covering her body with big ones put me off to an extreme extend. I cant find her attractive anymore.[/QUOTE]
tbh this sounds really controlling of you. it is her body.
And whether or not you'd like to hear it not being attracted base off of appearances you don't prefer is really shallow and makes it seem like you weren't truly in love with her
I get that people outside of our relation would think the same, about "its her body".
It is, but if we talked about taking it slow eith the tattoo's and she promised me to do that, but then surprises me with a tattoo that covered her upper torso, lower side of her breast, 33% of her whole stomach and half her hip, I can't see that as a fun surprise*
I forgot to mention, she didnt tell me when she had new tattoo's set because we mostly worked in the weekdays and saw eachother on the weekends. She hid the last 2 from me in the span of a week
[QUOTE=Qaus;49132616]i give a lot of relationship and self help advice when i've been dumped twice and suffer from severe depression.[/QUOTE]
I have saved several people's relationships. Yet can't get a girlfriend. I think it's because I'm fat.
Or I have a bad personality.
I haven't had a single friend in 3 years
[QUOTE=Blazedol;49135697]I haven't had a single friend in 3 years[/QUOTE]
How? Please tell me.
[QUOTE=LoNer1;49135777]How? Please tell me.[/QUOTE]
Trust issues and anxiety.
I can see that being a problem if you don't have people around you who know how to deal with that. My now-ex gf has anxiety, too.
I saw a post on 4chan in reaction to anxiety. It said "dont give a shit", but that attitude wont get you quality friends. And online? Have you tried seeking out contact online? It may not have been the best place, but 2 of my best friends are not of the same nationality. I've not even met them in person. One lives in Ireland and the other in NYC, but I became friends with them through deviantart.
It might help with the fact that you dont have to be talking to them face to face.
I just had a bizarre experience on agar.io several minutes ago
I went as a cell by the name of facepunch, and grew to a large size of about 800 or so. Another cell named facepunch (henceforth refereed to as facepunch B) showed up, about half the size of me, We established a truce by exchanging dots, and worked as a team. Eventually, a new cell spawned (hence forth refereed to as Facepunch C). He just spawned in with a small mass and followed us around.
So it is us 3 facepunch cells as a team when tiny Facepunch C gets eaten by some other cell. I try to give chase but it was too fast, so Facepunch B and I followed another cell. Facepunch B tried to help by cornering the cell Whilst I tried to eat him. Facepunch B kept feeding me mass to get bigger so I could take on this cell. However, that call merged with itself and ate me.
I am sorry, Facepunch B, for I have failed you.
Edit: and it seems this is my 2000th post. woot
my steam username is just my last name because i am an uncreative tit
[QUOTE=Jarokwa;49137944]jesus, what kinda job does she have? so many tattoos in such a short time span seems pretty expensive.
also, i would find it strange to break something off because of tattoos, but i guess it was a long time coming anyway(continued fights, annoyances and depression) and this presented an opening.[/QUOTE]
She worked at a supermarket, but she didn't pay for all those herself. Only the smaller ones.
It was indeed an opening. We got into a fight about it, the day she showed me, and I was just sort of 'done'. I told her it was over and left.
I constantly have self destructive thoughts
I just opened this thread for the first time and read through a whole hour's worth of it. You're all super chill peeps and you have such interesting stories and opinions. On topic, I really like Miley Cyrus's Dead Petz album. it's strange and raunchy and grating and painfully honest. It seems like she struggles with loneliness and apathy and I can definitely relate.
I play MMO's to flirt with people in them
[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;49138609]Yes. You. Do.[/QUOTE]
You play EvE Online to be a sociopathic dick head
It's how you score babes
[QUOTE=AtomicSans;49127796]I can confirm, nobody gives a shit about you if you're sad. You just become baggage. If you're not fun, you're effectively worthless. I hate life.[/QUOTE]
sort of late, but felt like pitching in
if someone is constantly sad, you lose the contrast. it normalizes which means people will appear to care less. that doesn't necessarily mean people stop caring overall, it's just that they'll start showing it a lot less since it's a normal thing for the person to be sad.
I don't have any good examples at the top of my head, but think about the conflict in northern Africa. there's been conflict there for so long, everyone knows there's a conflict there, and a lot of people don't think that's okay. even though people don't think it's okay, everyone goes about their business anyway and don't give it much thought in their daily lives. it has become normal, but people still care, it's just that it would be excessive to fuss about it everyday. being sad and depressed works similarly, it becomes normal so people will show less sympathy even if they care.
then there's also the fact, what can people do about it anyway? they can show sympathy to begin with, but it's not like it's helping. they're not getting better. people are people and if they try something which proves to not work over and over, they give up on it even if they care. if they care a lot they might be more persistent, but even those who are very close will start spacing out how often they come with encouraging words for example.
there's also self pity. I can totally understand why someone starts self pitying, but it really doesn't work out in the long run. I see it as a way to garner sympathy using either their disorder or temporary crisis in their life which I find to be wrong but have at the same time an understanding of. say, if I try helping someone out, by saying "oh, but things will get better! look at x, y, and z that you've done recently, that's some great steps out of this!" and I'm faced with "it doesn't matter, life sucks, none of those things helped anyway" and this happens over and over again, I kinda just say fuck it and let them realize that what they're doing will fuck them over hard in the end. self pitying is the best way to get worse and to make sure people put distance between you and them. it's mentally taxing for those who care and there's nothing to gain from a friendship with someone who does this.
[QUOTE=LoNer1;49133969][B]"Its my body"[/B]
[B]No, no it isnt.[/B] Not when you're in a relationship with someone you care about. Like i said, i didnt want her to never take tattoos again, but covering her body with big ones put me off to an extreme extend. I cant find her attractive anymore.[/QUOTE]
I can understand how you see it, but it still [B]is[/B] her body.
[QUOTE=Bordellimies;49139022]I can understand how you see it, but it still [B]is[/B] her body.[/QUOTE]
Oh, yes that's right. In the way you're saying it now It's clear to me. It's indeed her body, but how she presented her argumentation led me to believe our promise didnt really mean a lot and was just a 'momentary' silence to make me feel good and shut up.
Anyway, I made her read this above and the reply I gave another friend of mine (the online one). She read it and told me "i dont know how to react", and has kept silent since.
Life is sometimes really fucked up.
[QUOTE=HyperTails;49138602]I play MMO's to flirt with people in them[/QUOTE]
/flirt
Easy :v:
I enjoying shoving the truth in someones face when they were so sure that they thought i was lying.
I want Battlefront so much, that I'm near the point of begging for it
If I had money, I'd just buy it, but I've run out of spending money
I've once caught a friend of mine fapping. We already planned for me to come over but my class didnt continue (real good english here), so I was at his place early. The thing was, his bell didnt work, so i climbed over the fence in his backyard (like ... 70cm high lol) and went in through the door at the yard, which was unlocked. I heard he was upstairs so i just casually went up the stairs thinking he'd hear me, but he had his earplugs in. When I opened the door, he jumpscared and hit himself in the balls.
We actually became the best of friends since then. Better than we were. And yes, it was normal for me to go at his place from the backyard. His frontyard is like a creepy forest of whatever plants grow there. A small narrow path with loads of leaves and bush and spider webs. His backyard is just flat stone with a fence around it.
This was 2,5 years ago, when I was 17 and it's still the very first topic I bring up whenever he gets a new gf.
it's what best friends do, man. I've also got something embarrassing with him, but that's for next time.
[QUOTE=LoNer1;49139142]I've once caught a friend of mine fapping. We already planned for me to come over but my class didnt continue (real good english here), so I was at his place early. The thing was, his bell didnt work, so i climbed over the fence in his backyard (like ... 70cm high lol) and went in through the door at the yard, which was unlocked. I heard he was upstairs so i just casually went up the stairs thinking he'd hear me, but he had his earplugs in. When I opened the door, he jumpscared and hit himself in the balls.
We actually became the best of friends since then. Better than we were. And yes, it was normal for me to go at his place from the backyard. His frontyard is like a creepy forest of whatever plants grow there. A small narrow path with loads of leaves and bush and spider webs. His backyard is just flat stone with a fence around it.
This was 2,5 years ago, when I was 17 and it's still the very first topic I bring up whenever he gets a new gf.
it's what best friends do, man. I've also got something embarrassing with him, but that's for next time.[/QUOTE]
That was a brilliant story.
I forgot to add...
We continued to watch the porn he was watching. I asked him in literal word for word "bruh, doesnt matter. Show me the sauce".
I have since had a weird love hate relation with the porn star... Alexis. She's noce but damn that was weird. I can't imagine having seen porn with my best pal. I mean, watching porn without touching yourself is something I do out of boredom when im for instance waiting on joining a server in bf4 and im in queue, but together with another guy... Full 20+ min video.
Pretty weird, but I dont regret it
[QUOTE=LoNer1;49139238]I forgot to add...
We continued to watch the porn he was watching. I asked him in literal word for word "bruh, doesnt matter. Show me the sauce".
I have since had a weird love hate relation with the porn star... Alexis. She's noce but damn that was weird. I can't imagine having seen porn with my best pal. I mean, watching porn without touching yourself is something I do out of boredom when im for instance waiting on joining a server in bf4 and im in queue, but together with another guy... Full 20+ min video.
Pretty weird, but I dont regret it[/QUOTE]
Yeah.... pretty weird.
Especially when you said "Show me the sauce", like.... i thought you meant "cum for me" type thing.
Oh lol. In dutch it indeed sounds better.
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