oh god, I have a partner with heavy emotional issues that have been caused by a terrible experience he had no control over. It left him unable to work a regular job and he ahs episodes of extreme depression and has been suicidal in the past, though never actually harming himself.
My worst fear is that one of those days such an episode of depression takes on new proportions and I have to endure something similar. This thread REALLY shook me up.
Dunno if this is really on-topic or not, but it's depression related. Figured I should share since everybody else seems like they're doing the same. I had it pretty fucking awful all through highschool but recently it's just.... went away. I really have no idea because it doesn't feel like I've done anything different. I still binge eat, stay up late, neglect schoolwork and play games all day but everything's been so... normal.
I haven't hated myself, I haven't lashed out at people recently, haven't been getting in huge fights with my parents... It's a relief, but at the same time it's really unnerving. I'm not on every antidepressant under the sun and I rarely visit counselors, but it feels [I]unfair[/I] to everyone else. I've been looking forward to this moment for [I]years,[/I] but I don't feel like I deserve it. Like, I stay up at night thinking about how unhappy my friends are, but my "there theres" and being there for them when they vent doesn't seem like it's helping at all. They've had it a lot worse, why can't they get fixed instead of me?
But I think that going through these past few years has really helped me open up mentally and socially.. I used to think that people who committed suicide were hella selfish, but that's all changed in the past several months. I mean, I bet everybody who's been super close to doing themselves in and lived to tell the tale thinks the way I do. Have you guys ever just thought "what if I just fucking died right now" to yourself after you're in a terrible mood? The fact that [I]most[/I] of you guys agree is really upsetting to me. I wish that would change.
Again, I'm terribly sorry if I come off as showboaty or insensitive with my post, just wanted to get my thoughts out somewhere.
There's not a lot of times I read about someone dying and audibly shout "WHAT?!" upon hearing such news, this has unfortunately, been another one of those times.
All I can said is what's been said; He always seemed so happy.. shame he went out that way. RIP
[QUOTE=SGTNAPALM;43669220]Suicide is one of the most selfish acts I can think of.
Sure suicide sucks, sure mental conditions and life can be hard, but suicide is selfish because it totally disregards the feelings of everyone else in the person's life in favor of giving up, at least in cases like this.[/QUOTE]
I think it's selfish to expect someone to suffer through pain so great that they want to [i]stop living[/i] just for their friends and families own emotional benefit.
[QUOTE=Aphtonites;43668867][video=youtube;wmoUUA_RD-I]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmoUUA_RD-I[/video]
It's depressing to think that he was just four days away from killing himself in this video [IMG]http://fi.somethingawful.com/images/smilies/frown.gif[/IMG][/QUOTE]
22:40
"I will see myself playing this an aweful lot"
oh my god d
[video=youtube;ILSWOPlor_0]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILSWOPlor_0[/video]
Uploaded to ScrewAttack earlier today.
[QUOTE=Asmaedus;43687778]I think it's selfish to expect someone to suffer through pain so great that they want to [i]stop living[/i] just for their friends and families own emotional benefit.[/QUOTE]
Why? People wanting to kill themselves aren't even really thinking that way, they're pretty much insane at that point, why should their decisions made under duress be seen as legitimate?
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERmJSKpRrtk[/media]
I've never seen Angry Joe this emotionally distressed. Not even when the whole YouTube copyright fiasco went down. :(
[QUOTE=ProffesorAssHat;43692541][media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERmJSKpRrtk[/media]
I've never seen Angry Joe this emotionally distressed. Not even when the whole YouTube copyright fiasco went down. :([/QUOTE]
Man, this is hard to watch, especially the 5 minute mark.
Angry Joes video on that, god damn it. It's so damn sad to watch.
*snip* sorry repost, didn't look up
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I have sympathy for towards him, his friends, and family, but I'll never treat suicide in such cases as a right or justified decision.
[editline]27th January 2014[/editline]
I don't expect anyone to believe this, but he definitely had that 'hidden depression' thing going on in a lot of his appearances. I spent a long time like that, you could feel it from him.
for those who are struggling:
fp thread for mental disorders: [url]http://facepunch.com/showthread.php?t=1250748[/url]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/depression"]r/Depression[/URL]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/anxiety"]r/Anxiety[/URL]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/suicidewatch"]r/SuicideWatch[/URL]
Doug Walker's also made a short tribute video.
[url]http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/videolinks/thatguywiththeglasses/nostalgia-critic/42100-in-loving-memory-of-justin-carmical[/url]
[QUOTE=Sir Whoopsalot;43701564]Doug Walker's also made a short tribute video.
[url]http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/videolinks/thatguywiththeglasses/nostalgia-critic/42100-in-loving-memory-of-justin-carmical[/url][/QUOTE]
After the 5 minute mark was pretty hard to watch.
God damn, we've lost such a good person.
[QUOTE=Zeke129;43685883]Ever known one of those people with the "talent" of always knowing exactly what the most hurtful thing to say is, usually something with just enough truth in it that you're doubting and hating yourself for hours afterward?
Well yeah I'm that person, but only to myself.
That's what my depression is.
Issue is that when it's someone else you can just leave, I'm always trapped in the room with this asshole[/QUOTE]
i think that's just a depression thing, no-one knows you better than yourself
i wish my thoughts would tell me stuff that would actually make me get out of bed each day instead
So I found a tweet on Linkara's twitter that contains a message from him mother...
[img]https://pbs.twimg.com/media/Be9ZZLBCAAAFNYJ.jpg[/img]
[QUOTE=Yumyumbublegum;43696330]for those who are struggling:
fp thread for mental disorders: [url]http://facepunch.com/showthread.php?t=1250748[/url]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/depression"]r/Depression[/URL]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/anxiety"]r/Anxiety[/URL]
[URL="www.reddit.com/r/suicidewatch"]r/SuicideWatch[/URL][/QUOTE]
Those three subreddits are often the target of trolls (I've seen Red Pill-ers actually [i]recruiting[/i] in them) so I wouldn't recommend them if you're in a really bad place. Someone might reply/PM you with something that could push you over the edge.
