Let me first say that this might be in the wrong topic. Nothing really fit 100% so I just chose this one since it’s the one that mostly fits.
Anyways, I got Garry’s Mod back in 2015, and I always wanted to learn how to make a map for the game, even before I was able to purchase the game. After a few months, I began to attempt learning how to map. I found some tutorials, and within an hour or so, I had my first ever room mapped out, without textures of course.
After a while though, something changed in me, I began to feel this indescribable feeling that halted any further progress. I began to nitpick my maps from the very beginning of their creations. Even though I was a beginner, I felt like I shouldn’t map if I don’t know how to do so “properly”. What did I mean by properly? Well, I mean 100% accurately. Not only did I expect myself to be the best mapper ever, I expected myself to build things EXACTLY as they are in real life. I felt like I couldn’t make a house or a building because I felt like if it wasn’t accurate to a real life one, people wouldn’t like it. I kept trying for years to get past this but it just never worked out. I’d always quit after just only starting. I thought I couldn’t do anything.
I also felt like if I were to use the pre-existing Half-Life 2 assets and models, I was being a bad mapper. And since I couldn’t make any of those by myself, I pretty much just made that a reason to quit, even though pretty much everyone else used them all the time.
Now it’s dawned onto me. The things I make don’t need to be super realistic. It just has to vaguely resemble it. Just because the building I would map wouldn’t be something you’d see in real life, doesn’t mean it wouldn’t be good enough for a GMOD map. This is what I realized when I began looking at a ton of the popular maps. None of them are really that accurate to real life. No house/building, park, cave, or city would ever look like this. It’s infuriating knowing that I’ve prevented myself from doing something I always wanted to do for years all because of a stupid issue.
Now, here’s the part that’s going to avoid having this forum post closed for being in the wrong topic (lol). I wanted to say that when this game comes out, when I’m able to get my hands on it, I will promise to all of you that I will try my damn hardest to power through this. I want to make maps for all of you to play, I want to give you a reason to play my maps. I promise that I will one day be a brilliant mapper. I know that when I start, it won’t be easy. I’ll make terrible maps, but I will improve. I want to do what I always wanted to do, make maps for people to enjoy.
Anyways, sorry for this really random and absurd forum post, I just wanted to write down my struggles with mapping and creating things in general.